Attention

Okay,
I feel to have been feeling lots of fluctuating emotions in isolation,
Now what does my ego want to post for attention..?

Huhh,

Several others may understandably have too much going on to hang with me,

Obviously..,
I’d say that:
There’s only so much weight we can carry,
Including empathy we give to those who don’t sufficiently reciprocate..(?),

And well,
For example,
Finding an inclusive meditation group,
To develop peaceful acceptance of intense emotions through healthy sober techniques,
Has NOT felt easy,

So instead of internally peacefully learning from my emotions,
I’ll once again block them out to deal with worse later,
while presently utilizing the readily available cultural temptations,

Wow,
My ego likes those rhymes,
It’ll cling to those words I created to feel better about itself,
After trying and failing to attain what it preferred with baseball,
After trying and failing to attain what it preferred with juggling,
After trying and continually failing with socializing,

It’s now seeking to show off how self-aware it sees itself as through creative writing,

Huhhhhhh..,

Ahhhhhhhhhh,

Well,
More analyzing,
I’d guess,
Won’t help me fulfill more of what I feel I must be doing,

Huhh,

Ahhhhhh