Ruined It

I once admired this guys’ out of the ordinary automobile (kinda looked like a Monster truck with more narrow wheels I guess..?),

And today was at least the second time I saw it,

Once again I thought it looked cool,
Until trying to change lanes,
When he started switching lanes in front of me,
Not allowing me to pass,

As I went left,
He went left in front of me,
Then I went right,
And he went right back in front of me,

Until stopping to yell out the window at me as he was turning right off 303 while I passed him to approach Blauvelt,

I didn’t hear what he said,
Probably best I didn’t..,

I guess that he just,
Got mad,
For a reason I just did NOT understand (if there was any “reason” at all),
?

And I felt like there was more than enough room for me to pass..,
So maybe for no reason he just felt like being an ass,

Was he just looking to blast his anger he could no longer suppress..?
..,
I just,
Don’t know what else to guess,

?

So the next time I see that automobile,
I’ll be reminded of the piece of shit,
Who’s most likely driving it,

I once admired it,
Until he had to ruin it,

And since “in the grand scheme of things”,
This is quite insignificant,
Therefore I’m trying to be more chill,
Because,
I can’t stop people who I happen to encounter,
(Even briefly passing strangers),
From being,
Emotionally dysregulated scumbags,

And I feel that it was good I let this go,
Because if I chose to follow him,
I think I’d regret it,
Assuming I’d even survive to subsequently process it,

Huhhh,
Ahhhhhh,

And if and when I see that noticeably out of the ordinary automobile again,
Well,
I’ll try to take a deep breath,
And NOT waste additional energy,
By getting additionally angry,
Over some other insignificant negative memory,

It just,
Hasn’t usually felt easy,
Feeling triggered by stuff so insignificant,

Yet as for relaxing and remaining focused in whichever way(s) I see fit,
I’ll just keep at it,

Huhh,

And I hope learning to relax more and (therefore) feel less triggered when I encounter and/or feel forced to work with and for any scumbags,
Will help me feel better,
And therefore hopefully,
Will help me function better,

And even if I could have said more or explained this clearer..,
Well,
I just hope for stuff to feel better