Maybe it’s “just me”,
Or maybe there’s a significant level of truth within the reality I often feel to see..(?),
For example,
And/or speaking in general,
I just,
often do NOT feel welcome on the Left,
NOR the Right,
Yet both power structures,
May still try to manipulate me,
Into serving their fight,
Is it truly about what they really feel is “right”..(?),
Or does their ego want to feel better about themselves by having control of society the way they see..(?),
I don’t know what to truly believe evidently,
And well,
I guess in some form,
I can’t avoid the bullshit,
Nor escape the reality of remaining as an anxious obsessive compulsive autistic emotionally struggling easy target,
I guess,
Fighting a present reality I have zero control over,
Will just make me feel more weighed down by more negativity,
Hence,
The more I accept what I just can’t stand,
Maybe,
The more inner clear strength I’ll have,
To just,
Keep going and keep standing for however much longer I got,
?
Just..,
What information and people must I really seek to serve..?
Of course there’s always someone else with more confidence than me,
That will either exclude me or have me follow his instinctual orders,
Even if he also is following something that’s well-intentioned,
Yet,
May just NOT be the truest reality there is..?
At least we’re trying I guess..,
?
Huhh,
Ahhhhh
Zach Dana Writing 