Welcoming

The more I’m labeled as “different”,
the more I may focus on myself in order to “fix” that..,
and of course,
those who are more “typical”, may also have insecure egos,
thirsting to GIVE punishment,

And well,
I want to thank my Dad,
For putting up with all my learning disabilities and Irregular emotional response frequencies,

I want to thank my Dad,
For advocating in the face of the powerful school administration that wanted to put me in a school for fools,
That wanted to conveniently shut me down on heavy medication,
When the reality was that the social stress,
Felt as the largest contributor to emotional dysregulation,
Including lower scores on the Intelligence Quotient “test”,

Luckily,
Thanks to those including my Dad,
I got a second chance before the school administration tried to send me off in a worse direction,

I want to thank my Dad,
For having the courage to stand up,
To those who snuck up top,
Because (their egos may have felt) they could never climb high enough,

I want to thank my Dad,
For supporting me emotionally,
In addition to financially,
And having the courage to confront those in positions of authority,

I want to thank my Dad for teaching his students well,
I want to thank my Dad,
For seeing me as MORE than someone with a label,
I want to thank my Dad,
For helping me know who to NOT trust,
For helping me see,
Which directions may more likely benefit me,

I want to thank my Dad,
For being a real friend,
UNlike my other “friend” who ordered me to give him my phone and then got mad at me for “telling my dad” how his insecure ego was really UNfairly treating me,
Shit..,
I want to thank my dad,
For displaying the spirit of a TRUE PATRIOT,

I want to thank my Dad for being tech-savvy,
And willing to teach me and assist me,
When I haven’t had the strength to figure out certain technical difficulties,
I want to thank my dad for navigating me through the real world,
And for reminding me that I AM capable,
Regardless of whatever I may internally “define” myself as in response to being labeled,

I want to thank my Dad,
For helping me,
Farther along,
In addition to someone with my learning disability,

I want to thank my Dad,
For helping make stuff,
LESS toxic for me,

And even if most of society would rather exclude me,
I want to thank my Dad,
For having the strength,
To keep welcoming me,

Even if writing inspiration may ever spiral me into excessive narcissistic perfectionist delusion,
Even if I fail to continually internally clear accumulated suppressed emotional pain and remain in “victim” mode..,
Well,
Maybe I can at least remain inspired to share,
That there are those like my Dad,
Who truly care and kindly remain there