I have a lot of thoughts that scatter all over the place throughout my awareness,
Such as:
Random Thought:
“There’s identity politics, that trickles down from diverse groups on the top of a social hierarchy that serve to turn diverse groups lower and lower against each other in order to never unite for fair treatment,
And then,
To prevent people from learning the skills they need to climb higher..,
Those who run culture will try to emotionally tempt those to read/watch and/or somehow distract themselves through overanalysis of identity politics which will keep them distracted from remembering the rules of the game they need to remember and/or learn for their continued survival”,
Random Thought:
“I’m sure there’s lots of clever psychopaths out there,
In infinite forms with unique stories that can be understood uniquely infinitely,
in various forms and degrees of sneaky powerful sadistic manipulative awareness,
So I must remind myself to:
Try to spot anything suspicious in order to avoid them as much as possible,
Try NOT to take money from those who may show signs of being one,
NOR open up to them,
NOR burden NOR complain,
Because they impulsively thirst for an excuse to add horrific abuse,
And to some degree,
As compared to you,
They may look similar or different,
So remain safely vigilant”,
Random Thought:
“I must stay safe from those who can talk deep awareness yet who are dangerously UNaware of the effects of their actions!”,
Random Thought:
“Huhh,
and well,
if I feel I have a tendency to become increasingly emotionally dysregulated and sensory overloaded,
then that thought itself might add to intense emotions and sensory overload that results in sleep deprivation and scattered thoughts that prevent me from building myself up to also equip myself to help others..,
causing them to label me as a disposable burden who will get horrifically eradicated in the secret torture chambers..”,
Random Thought:
“Instead of sailing forward,
I’ll ONCE AGAIN become sucked into a spirling mental feedback whirlpool that spends time lost in analytical thought instead of puts important inner realizations into sufficient consistent practice for myself and others..”,
Random Thought:
“Well,
I just hope people are empathetically aware enough to help me,
If and when I may be in so much pain that I just will NOT be able to clearly communicate”,
Random Thought:
“My ability may climb and fall,
Yep,
As for the form I’m in now,
I must remember I’m also vulnerable and mortal”,
Random Thought:
“Huhh,
No matter what I can and can NOT change,
No matter how I have been labeled,
No matter how I have been stigmatized and damaged to a greater degree,
I still will NOT heal if my excuses blind me into sinking deeper within inner emotional/physical pain and misery”,
Random Thought:
“Since everyone’s human,
What can I really expect from them..(?)”,
Random Thought:
“And well,
If my attention seeks a certain amount of positive attention from others,
It may always want more,
Because it’ll never find peace with what I’m doing right here,
With already having all it needs to meet it’s inner fulfilling appreciation needs,
Right here,
It just seeks externally without transfiguring its ethical spirit internally”,
Another Random Thought:
“So,
Once again I can remind myself,
To not try to sort out this physical form I’m in among other spiritually inseparable physical forms that I believe all manifest from a deeper life energy source..,
Or that,
Since understanding seems infinite in infinite forms,
why waste energy by adding internal pressure to ‘explain’ all of it..(?),
Yep,
So (for example) even if I have what I consider as some “deep realization” that I do NOT have the time to share in whichever way(s) I prefer,
I can let it go easier since there will be less pressure to convey it,
And therefore since I’ll be less distracted by “needing to write and share it”,
I’ll have less internal weighing pressure and more clear energy to fulfill any tasks fairly expected of me in the present,
..,
There’s no need to be a ‘messenger’ for some greater spiritual authority,
All there is,
In whichever degrees of solid and space,
Is always here and deeply inseparable from all else,
Infinitely deep within and throughout”,
Random self-critical thought:
“Stop with the UNorganized thinking,
You’re adding confusion to yourself and your behavior is adding confusion to those who surround you, stop, just.. STOP!”
Random thought:
“You don’t have to be hard on yourself because that’ll just increase stress that makes it even harder to see how to clearly recenter yourself”,
Random thought:
“No need to ‘figure it all out’,
Because you can’t,
Just witness the thoughts as they pass, and only share one if and whenever it’s most deeply needed”
Zach Dana Writing 