If I understand sufficiently correctly,
My perceptions presently tell me that:
If I appear emotionally “Incapable”,
I’ll (more likely) constantly feel as a “subject” of an emotional experiment,
Because,
Other forces of control,
May fear immense insecurity,
So who knows what they’ll do to me..(?),
And well,
To randomly add this:
If I’m drowning physically and/or emotionally,
What’s the most needed breathing AND/OR internal sensation pattern..!?
Presently,
I wish it felt easier to put the pieces together as fast as others often appear to expect of me,
I wish I felt LESS distracted by various internal forces of anxiety,
I wish my intelligence was continually even LESS distracted by anxiousness
Zach Dana Writing 