If I Still Have the Freedom

If all who individually,
And/or collectively,
Surrounds,
Influences and controls me,
Leads by a perpetual dangerous example,
Of,
Out of control experimentation,
Of elaborately secretive equation(s) and heavily advertised readily available toxic temptations,
I might remain more vulnerable to follow and/or join with them,
Especially in moments of social/emotionally isolated desperation,
Because,
I just may feel I lack the time,
To figure out my so-called “chemical imbalance” that they might not be able to teach..(?),

Hence,
If my self-experiments that more socially powerful and/or influential opinions pressured me to try,
Become too out of hand,
I may lose even MORE control and freedom because the same and/or similar more powerful forces of opinions might (more likely) feel a need to “stabilize” me in the best way(s) they feel to “know”,
And if that takes me in a direction that goes even more opposite of their “helpful” intention(s),
Then the same may occur on a deeper and more dangerous level,

So regardless of what anyone feels I “need” to “try” or become “prescribed” in whichever “proper” dosages taken in whichever alleged “correct” consistencies,

For my own safety,
Hopefully,
I (at least) once again feel a need to ask myself,
“How do I presently feel and how can I most safely and more clearly make my needs understood if I still have the freedom to try communicating them..?”