Yes..,
I also worry about being excessively spied on to be UNjustifiably tortured and/or killed later..,
(Not that killing and/or torturing “teach” us how to heal the sources of evil anyway..),
Yet I’d like to say that:
Regardless of all that might be implied in infinite forms and/or degrees for better and/or worse:
I feel that commonly held hierarchical beliefs that may also be written and/or sold on paper can NEVER “perfectly” describe our reality,
I feel that:
Just because I have been diagnosed with the same labeled condition(s)..,
ONCE AGAIN,
does NOT mean I’m more “similar” and/or “different” than those with the same conveniently labeled condition(s)..,
Although I’m grateful to have received certain support services as a result,
If feeling “disabled” deprived me of a lack of confidence required to sufficiently help myself including others,
Then I feel,
When the time most highly necessitates it for myself and whoever else,
I must really work to safely and ethically DISidentify with my label(s),
And I feel that (as for that other point)..,
since my perceptions feel to often tell me that several people appear to forget that I’m different than those I’m labeled the “same” as (such as being viewed since age five as having “High-Functioning Autism” after being labeled as having “Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder” and “Generalized Anxiety Disorder” at age four)..,
I often feel to have to keep wasting more time reminding those particular others that I’m another individual that’s neurodivergent within my own unique degree and form just as I believe EVERY human (and/or sentient being) IS for however much “better” and/or “worse”.. that can NOT be “perfectly” described on paper..(in my presently held belief..),
It’s like.. “reminder time”,
Pertaining to my emotions and sensory reactions playing out DIFFERENTLY (internally and/or externally) than those who I’m equally chemically categorized as..,
(Source/Creative Citation: A play on words from the character “Nurse Rached’s” (Actress: Louise Fletcher) phrase “medication time” in the film “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest”, Released on: November 19th, 1975),
And pertaining to cautionary fictional film depictions that may depict reality as more or less painful or “exactly how it is”,
I’d still say that even though too much frightening negativity may make someone (such as myself) emotionally dysregulated,
still,
certain films I hope can serve as cautionary tales for those who may “lack the time” to read a certain amount of reading material,
among and/or on a certain level,
That’ll help sentient life on Earth ethically feel less pain,
And as always,
Thanks for reading that!
Zach Dana Writing 