What do I really “know”?

When I try to be kind,
I guess(?) it’s often seen as “manipulation”,

And when I talk about threats I received,
Time after various previous times,
I may get “criticized” for “not letting it go”,

And as for what I must say,
What do I really “know”..(?),

Maybe I’ll try to say “hi”,
And when my vision tells me I’m being ignored deliberately,
I’ll (extremely rarely) vent to myself out loud without realizing the person (who I felt emotionally hurt by) heard me say:
“No respect huh!? Okay.., fucking asshole!!”,
And then..,
The person who hurt me,
May walk up to me,
Physically intimidate me,
And threaten me additionally,
And when I then apologize,
The same individual may remind me,
That truthfully,

Who really cares about us..?

So I guess it makes sense that another individual does NOT know me,
NOR cares to presently