Service to Heal

(Genre: Not sure..),

In my present guess:

Kindness of manipulation might remain waiting..(?),
While,
It tries to feed off of..,
REAL kindness..,

Okay, here’s something else I tried typing here on this iPhone:

I guess?
That..,
The commonly used saying according to my present perceptions based from as far down as I can see within myself..,

Huhh..,

I guess that..?
“Slow” and/or “Steady” wins the race,
Because,
The less pressured we feel,
The more deserving we appear,
And therefore:
The more others will gravitate towards us..,

And may we appreciate their help,
Regardless,
Of how much their wisdom has remained with them,
Over the years,
At any ages,

And although my ego wants to tell UNhelpful critical forces to “shut the derailing fuck up!!”,
In order for me to remain less anxious,
More confident,
Clear and able to understand,
All I thought I could not,
Largely because of accumulated painfully distracting reprimands,
That served to build a bridge of hope within myself,
That could NEVER perfectly stand,

Of course I would not be able to find peace within an inconsiderate loud narcissistic band..,

Yet,
Well,
At least I now feel more internally in command,
And may the good spirit within me,
Rise!!
And this time,
For real,
Remain more as a force of service to heal,

Sorry if reading the above made zero helpful sense,
Yet a lesson I wish to clearly convey,
Without another fancy figure of speech constructed to lyrically show off,
Is that well,
Sometimes when I’m under stress,
People,
Places,
Ideas,
Beliefs,
Rules,
Protocols,
And/or steps to follow,
Increases my descension into an egotistic victimhood that’s been diagnosed as anxiously lacking a helpful ability to pay attention