Wondering

Is it fair for me,
To try helping save those who I know nothing about,
While remaining powerless in the face of the powerful authority oppressing them..?

Am I allowed to peacefully live while trying to save those being oppressed?
Or must I “die” for what I “believe” in?

Of course I believe in free opportunity for development of freely expanding ethical intelligence,
Yet if and when I may once again try to help others,
I just hope to remain safe from pointless dramatic paths to nowhere (such as ones that lead to increased painful nothingness..),

And to throw it out there,
For me,
Experiencing more and/or a deeper degree of the same (or any) types of pain,
Has NOT helped me increase a pain tolerance as for whatever that may pertain to..,

Essentially,
A large part of me feels a need to repeat,
Emphasize and/or remind for myself and/or whoever of my present belief that,
More of the same pain has NOT felt to guarantee an improved spirit that can tolerate more of the same pain..,

If and when I encounter more pain,
Will I clearly learn from it..?
Or..?
Will I become painfully lost,
deeply within it..?

Yet as usual,
I keep wondering,
What is truly worth giving,
And avoiding,
And worth deeply addressing

?