Infinitely Inseparably Improving

I fear that;
If I remain polite and still too much of the time,
while if all the spirit is sucked out of me as I remain still,
(assuming there’s zero magic pill (for example..)),
I might more likely painfully degenerate..(?),

And even if several others who may read this won’t helpfully relate,

Well..,
I wish for real and/or authentic hope as usual..,
such as,
That manifesting as,
And remaining as,
infinitely inseparable from an infinite harmlessly blissful,
morally considerately manifesting,
infinitely improving energy field,

I guess(?) that it’s sufficiently reasonable for me to ask that;
How do I develop an internal peaceful shield,
As I yield,
..,
Upcoming perpetually manic,
Emotionally dysregulated and sensory overloaded traffic..(?),
If my present confidence won’t manifest,
within the large amount of hopelessly reckless, unconscious driving forces,
of craziness..?

And I’m not really sure how to end this..?

Is it..?
Well..,
since I presently feel to need enough sleep for my internal sensory and emotional regulation,
I think I’ll try to forget following deeply analytical paths of trying to “perfectly understand”,
As I just notice,
While whichever inevitable life forces force of me,

While (in my present belief),
They remain inseparable from me