All Because..(?)

So as of now..,
Every symbol I type feels to be a sign of something that reduces to nothing,
Please,
Do NOT sell this,
It will make people stupid,
There will be someone else who might think “he just wants attention”.. or “he needs to work longer hours”.. or “he’s talking about himself to get attention so just ignore him”..,

Well..,
I just don’t know..?
Like..
I’m sorry.. what did I do..?
and then what if those who claim to speak for me who weren’t even there,
Want to punish me because of something they can NOT even prove and that did NOT happen.. all because we just might share the same fear..?
and what if it’s “ohh he’s on a tangent”..(?),
Or what if it’s “he’s just typing about himself!” and then “he’s narcissistic”.. well,
Now what..?

I believe in the peaceful development of technology..,
Yet I deeply feel that..,
Unfortunately..,
This smartphone made me more confused over nothing,
And if I even talk about a smartphone,
a thought in my head might exclaim within me; “well.. think about something more important!!”,
I get it..
I get it.. (I guess..?),

And I just feel stupid..
And if I say something else..
A fearful cognitive question in myself might ask..?
“Who will try to control me next..?”,
And then..,
“What will the minivan dashboard of fear over nothing cause me to start assuming..?”,

I literally overanalyze songs..
Like.. they’re just songs man..

I’m sorry for not being more grateful.. and I feel bad because I feel I just make others uncomfortable.. so.. as usual.. I’m confused, scared, and will follow the instructions of whoever appears to “have his/her/their shit together”……,

I guess as of today it’s now “the end”.., wow.. my mind just doesn’t often feel to put pieces in directions that feel to help.. so.. yeah.. I guess I need to read and write more again to organize my thoughts.. or form equations to practice.. or.. ummm.. okay, I’m sorry for typing about myself again.. I’m sorry for a post that reduces to nothing other than fears from.. yuh know what.. forget it.. let’s keep going..