Storms

I feel that,

Although I feel I’m accountable,
Lots of stuff just feels painfully out of my control,

It’s..,
Me feeling there to be constant social negativity,
That my emotional perceptions,
I often believe are telling me,
Including that,
Several will eventually prefer to avoid me,

The pain has accumulated,
And sometimes it really shocks me,

At times I do feel a victim mentality,
And I’d say there’s uncomfortable truths simultaneously,

I guess that sometimes various situations,
Tragically fall to hatred inevitably..?

What a sad reality..,

What forces of pain are really there to “teach” and/or “strengthen” me..?
Too often I’ve felt worse off from various forms and degrees of pain,
subsequently,

I guess the outcomes manifest unpredictably..?

And here I am once again,
With internal emotional intensity,
Just manifesting and passing,
As it however often,
deeply strikes me,

Yet may we hang in there,
Empathetically,

It’s just that I feel that..,
Sometimes (or however often),
There are storms..,
And I hope for clearness again,
As usual