Deeper Within

(So yes, I might have used the same title however much more than once in these WordPress posts, yet as usual, thank you for reading and continuing to positively support me!),

Okay so,
For example;

(And regardless of any certain chemical’s’ ability to amplify (or however alter) any effects of however I’m feeling presently),

And even if my behavior is deeply INAPPROPRIATE,
INEXCUSABLE,
yet,
Highly UNDERSTANDABLE..,

Sometimes (or however often),
the inevitable social drama,
deeply adds,
to anxious chest expanding and contracting internal tension,
causes memories of bullying and pointless exclusion to resurface,
reducing my ability to remain stoic,
as the anger,
builds and builds,
causing me to stand up and perpetuate similar forms of aggression which I’ve often felt on the receiving end of for a long time..,

Yep,
Even the most micro forms of sad, angry and/or negative drama I unintentionally (yet inevitably) notice,
can add to that internal accumulating tension, causing me to make another scene..,
yeah..,
I wish others would act less mean..,
ahhh..,

Thanks for reading,
and yes,
may we keep going,
and recentering..
and when in whichever position that appears as disciplined stillness,
well (for example),
may I be aware of any accumulating internal stress and/or tension,
to REDUCE chances of an involuntary act of aggression that I’ll eventually (likely) regret.. Huhhh..,
ahhhh..,
inhale..,
exhale..,
ahhh..,

Not saying anyones’ “asking” but YES!,
I feel it’s far easier said and understood in my head, as compared to,
remembering to embody deeper within,
as I intend to,

Thanks for reading!