Feeling and Assuming

Huhhh..,
As I’d guess..(?),
It has felt harder,
Feeling and assuming,
that others would much rather deeply,
Open and authentically,
Conveniently,
Socially connect with others LESS clouded by anxiety and lack of confidence than (or as compared to) myself,

Now yes even though I agree,
That focusing on what I feel as wrong with myself and carrying (what (I guess.?) seems commonly referred to as) a “victim mentality”,
Is also deeply harmful for me,
And can additionally internally weigh me down discouragingly,

Still,
I just wish to continue,
Feeling more balanced..,
(And to continue to rhyme..),
I guess..(?),
More peacefully present and,
“Chill”,

As I keep (figuratively speaking),
Climbing up over another.. “hill”,
Or “mountain” but that doesn’t rhyme with “chill”..,

Sorry..,
Sorry for getting sidetracked..,
Yet,
As always,
I feel I can always come back,
To that more centered,
And cultivation of internal peaceful acceptance,
Track,

Thanks for reading!!

Sincerely,

-Zach