Overwhelmed Again

Once again,
my struggles with hyper-reactive emotions have threw me off track,
and others’ frustration,
dissenting (yet more mainstream) viewpoints and frequent condescending (and/or) impatient advice has made it harder to come back..,

I’m so overwhelmed,
And (therefore) my thinking has been spirling all over the place,
and (speaking for myself (and aside from how I’m NOT against taking certain (psychiatric) drugs briefly in an emergency)) I made it clear (and would like to briefly repeat)) that more psychiatric medication has also NOT felt to help lead me to a more egoless and internal peaceful destination,

(And regardless of others’ experiences and opinions,
Even if mine is far different and far less mainstream,
I still wish more others would more compassionately listen instead of angrily dismissing them),

And at least I haven’t given up on the journey,
and as always thanks for reading these,
and (as for certain individuals who have) thanks for sincerely positively supporting me,
as I continue to navigate through all this pain and negativity,

Thanks again for reading these!!

And even though I’m overwhelmed again,
At least I’m somewhat aware of it,
Which luckily feels to be at least somewhat,
Reducing my chances,
Of dangerously losing my needed survival awareness within it,

Yep,
I’ll keep going