Based on what my present perceptions appear to be telling me, I feel a need to additionally try communicating that I feel that;
For example;
The more I overthink and the more I struggle to emotionally regulate myself,
the harder it can be to say what’s most essential and impactful..,
so therefore,
if and/or when I may feel a strong need to advocate for myself (in a clear and concise way),
I must emotionally recenter myself to increase chances of clearly seeing what words are most needed to be used for my safety and well-being among those who may dangerously easily misjudge me,
And of course the building frustration of feeling frequently misunderstood,
Might increase chances of me acting in ways,
That results in consequences (in addition to painfully feeling even MORE misunderstood),
That just add more avoidable pain,
That does nothing other than additionally irreparably damages me,
And yes,
May I gradually let go of unreasonable expectations,
Such as of others empathizing with me (who might likely always view me as “too weird” and/or “batshit crazy”),
As always,
I hope for stuff to feel easier,
And may I reduce internal pressure of struggling to have others understand me who never will,
With one result being,
Coming across as,
Less overwhelmed by internal pressure,
Less stressed,
Less crazy,
And of course,
More peaceful,
More chill,
And therefore,
May we keep climbing over any hill,
Regardless,
Thanks for reading this!
Zach Dana Writing 