Why let others haze you who will eventually reject you!?
They claimed to be “breaking me” to “build me” when they were actually breaking my developing confidence while building MORE anxiety..,
As for determining “loyalty”..,
Their egos just enjoyed feeling power by feeling about to hurt me..,
It’s too bad what I thought was a brotherhood turned out to be a fucking scam truthfully..,
What a waste of effort,
money,
All for most who’d just reject me in addition to all the bullying and rejections I experienced previously!!
I turned to them to realize they were just as bad..,
And of course they’ll never be open to admitting why I got so mad..,
and the more honest I got,
the more they excluded me,
because several just can’t admit the reality..,
Man..,
I wish I was less of a pushover..
welp,
at least now,
Is coming another new year,
Fuck how it was then,
And how it always was constantly before and before then,
This is a new year,
This is NOW,
Time to let all the fucks go,
Time to let it all go,
And this year,
Actually grow
Zach Dana Writing 