Strong and Centered

(As usual.., please do NOT take this personally, thanks for reading!),
(Genre: A poem.. I guess..(?)),

If I’m truly “mishandling” packages and making the distribution process “harder”,
Getting more angry at me among whoever,
Is NOT going to make the workplace energy more clear and peacefully centered in order for the distribution process to “recover”,

There’s so much anger out there..,
And some days I worry about becoming strapped down and/or however..,
RUN OVER BY A TRUCK..,

Yes,
I have been terrified,

Yet if I’m doing something “wrong”,
Well,
It’s not only me,

Because other essential workers,
Also (understandably (more of less)) talk shit,
Also tear apart team spirit,
Also fuck up due to whatever personally traumatic histories..,

So as for that truck driver who told my boss to “hit me” in response to me getting scared by him that one time and “6 months ago” before that..(essentially I just got surprised twice.. no big deal..),

Yet..,
As for that truck driver who..,
Exclaimed “it’s all because of this stupid fucking kid” as I heard him bang shit on my bosses radio,
(Yeah I’m pretty sure it was the same individual (referring to me..)),

Well,
If that individual wants to keep it real with me,
Well,

Unlike my past,
I will this time pick myself up off the ground,
And firmly stand my ground,

I will be,
Strong and centered,

Because this isn’t “all because of me”,
Because I’m NOT going to give power to another less neurodivergent,
Less socially challenged much older bully,

So IF (and only IF) this guy tries to attack me,
I will stand strong and ready,
While doing my best,
To kick his ass,
To beat him to the ground,

Because this time,
(I hope that..),
It won’t be me,
Who lies hurt on the ground