What also takes Work

Aside from certain moments when I may (also) have failed at this..,
I just wanted to add that..,
I feel that;

Even if I’m far less financially successful,
Even if I’m far less talented,
Even if I’m far less crowd pleasing,
Even if any of my achievements appear far less impressive,
What ALSO takes work,
Is to remain as a nice person,

Because (for example) I’m therefore not reacting nasty towards those who act nasty,
Because I’m instead practicing self-control to increase chances of my surroundings remaining peaceful and civilized (because if I were to add towards meanness by reacting mean to those who act mean towards myself that’ll (of course) increase chances of violence (which will (of course) add destruction to any remaining aspects of peaceful civilization (aside from kindly and peacefully addressing whatever it is that needs to be addressed and aside from my right to defend myself (for example)))),

And..,
Because (I feel that..) it’s way easier to just emotionally instantly impulsively react without thinking,
Than it is to remain centered and aware of our internally reacting emotions that occur within us,

So (I therefore feel that..) it takes more strength to remain centered,
while NOT allowing strong emotions to take control of our actions,
While any and however many of them intensely react within us..,

And if I already have a “tendency” to be more emotionally reactive to the same triggers than most,
While also receiving (or being more likely to receive) more triggers than most (such as receiving way more nasty expressions of frustration as a result of having far greater than average learning challenges (that are also) exacerbated by anxiety..),
Remaining kind (therefore) takes a lot of ongoing hard work,
That I feel,
Can ALSO be a lot more appreciated (than it often might be),

Because (for example) I have been displaying the strength of remaining nice and civilized to those who want to talk shit to my face and make me feel worse even if they (or however many of them) also claim they’re “nice” and “against” being “mean towards others”,

Because instead of allowing my emotions to react without thinking like those who act mean (to try feeling superior by trying to witness someone feeling even more inferior..),
I have (instead) been putting in the work to hold myself back from angrily reacting,
UNlike what several others appear to be practicing,

And of course,
(I feel that..),
Acting mean to try feeling “above” someone else,
Is not sufficiently putting in the work required,
To (remember to breathe and) develop and sustain the clear and peaceful awareness necessary to clear (or not react and not add to) the internal sources of that desire to impulsively act mean..,
Which therefore (if anything) would only temporarily make someone’s ego feel better by acting nasty (to try putting another down to feel “above” that person or to feel “better” in general..) since the causes of the meanness are not being addressed nor attempted to internally peacefully heal,

And even if my kindness is (however often) presently causing me to suppress difficult feelings instead of being a sign of internal peacefulness,
and even if I may have regrettably snapped at certain individuals later on..,
Essentially,
Even if I’m far less successful financially,
Or however it is that I’m far less successful in ways more commonly expected of myself..,
It would still be kind of others,
To at least somewhat acknowledge,
All the work that I have struggled to continually fulfill,
To become,
And remain as,
A kind person