What’s also a Problem

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is constantly having a bad time,
Constantly feeling barely anyone truly understands,
Constantly feeling not liked..,

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is people helping make harder than necessary what is already harder than necessary,
And,
Most people constantly looking to say something nasty about others with zero consideration of what they might be experiencing..,
Or however it is..,
That they’re making not drinking (or whatever it is),
Just,
So much harder than necessary,

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is so-called “support” groups,
Or any form of “self-improvement” programs,
Not feeling TRULY supportive,
And not helping those attending (or enrolled) feel to TRULY be attaining the results that the group (or program) claims to offer (due to whatever dysfunctional/unfortunate reasons),

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is constantly NOT feeling to receive the amount of kindness I give (or feel to deserve),

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is feeling I act so much nicer towards (several) others than they are towards me..,
(And although I’m not perfect either..),
I don’t curse at others,
I don’t get defensive (over nothing important),
I don’t express anger and whatever else nearly as much as so many appear to have done (and continue to do) towards me..,

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is (most) people not realizing the harmful effects they’re truly having on me,
Even if they’re “trying to help” me,

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is people constantly acting mean towards each other and making them feel way worse than they would (likely) be feeling otherwise,

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is feeling constantly bossed around,
Is feeling like (most) people will never fairly listen nor will try to..,

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is when people want to force their ways of life onto others without regarding or being at all aware of the harmful effects it’s truly having (such as on those who therefore might react differently..)..,

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is most people making me feel worse when I turn to them for emotional support,

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is not having the patience to even regard or kindly listen to others express feelings that are probably causing them to drink heavily in the first place,

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is bullying,
Receiving death threats,
Feeling unsafe,
Feeling unable to trust others including those who say they “agree”..,

Although too much drinking is a problem,
What’s also a problem,
Is people making me so much more miserable than I already am and making me want to drink again,
And what’s also a problem,
Is of course,
Not being able to find and sustain deeper life fulfillment when sober..,

Although too much drinking is a problem,
If there was less problems,
Then that’ll make it so much easier,
To not have,
A drinking problem,

Yet although there’s a lot of problems that can lead to other problems such as a drinking problem,
I’ll keep on continuing as much as I can,
To hang in there and keep going now matter how bad the problems I continue to encounter become