Messing with Me

I certainly fear that;

The more that others successfully deliberately provoke me,
The more dysregulated my emotions will become,
And the more likely I’ll wind up on brutally excessive amounts of psychiatric medication that’ll give me other problems,
Instead of truly teaching me how to develop peaceful internal acceptance of all that I can’t avoid and can’t change,

Such as having to work with,
Work for,
and/or remain around others who are just looking to mess with me,

So instead of becoming as thrown off by another negative internal intense emotional reaction,
as a result of not wanting to accept how often I feel on the receiving end of (several) others looking to pick on others..,
The more I notice my breath and internal sensations react and pass through me while whoever I struggle to avoid just keeps on messing with me,
Hopefully,
I’ll develop more and more inner peaceful acceptance and less painful emotional reactivity,
In response,
To those,
Who will just,
Never stop messing with me,
Who will never take me seriously,
Or who will continue doing whatever it is that I can’t avoid and can’t stop them from doing to me,

So hopefully in time I’ll develop more peace,
Among whoever it is,
Who won’t stop messing with me