When I realize,
How much I’ve truly been allowing others to define me,
In ways that I then realize have been so damaging towards me,
When I realize,
How much I’ve neglected my own deeper needs,
And how much I’ve internally overstepped my boundaries,
All to try to please those who made zero efforts to return the kindness that I’d provide them so frequently,
Anger often arises,
That I can either become more aware of,
Or brutally unconsciously controlled by in ways that worsen my present circumstances,
Resulting in me feeling even more misunderstood,
Controlled,
Overpowered,
And straight up defeated by any of those who will always act mean towards me,
Who will always misunderstand and misjudge me in ways that’ll make what’s already hard,
So much harder than necessary,
So essentially,
In time,
Hopefully,
Stuff feels to become more peacefully manageable,
Including becoming more and more able,
to remain strong and centered,
When having the courage to stand up to individuals such as those who I thought were helping me,
Yet came realize,
How much they were truly damaging me
Zach Dana Writing 