Either one of Us

I feel that;

Speaking in general..,
The MORE that someone with (seemingly) “greater intelligence” wishes to make me feel “stupid”,
the MORE that person could possibly become an enemy if my perceptions clearly tell me that it’s “obvious”.

For example,
if I’m in the work break room,
While a supervisor of mine is telling another coworker how he’s having nerve damage before I got a clear look at his hand,

and if I ask “have you tried juggling, because what if that helps relax your nerves?”,
and if my supervisor responds by saying/exclaiming,
“how the fuck will juggling help if I have a broken fucking hand!?”,

His ego (or (in this case) force of unconsciousness towards other people’s feelings) therefore will have one (for example),
tried to alleviate his pain by trying to make me feel and “remain stupid”,
and two,
that remark might make me feel as if I “shouldn’t” have “asked” that question,
Therefore giving his ego a sense of “greater intelligence” that’s above my “stupidity” and therefore providing his ego a feeling of “superiority”,

So I would say that two examples of what this can narrow down to,

Is one,
It’s not fair to myself to be on the receiving end of any other person’s anger in response to problems that I did not cause,

and two,
getting pissed off,
even at a seemingly “stupid” question of mine (really as a result of social anxiety),
is truthfully,
not going to make,
either one of us,
more “internally peaceful”,
nor “clear” and “intelligent”,
for a “longer lasting” period of time in ways mutually beneficial (in this case) between me and an older work supervisor,
among whoever we’re around and whenever,
for example,

So in general,
When I feel to receive any forms of meanness and/or disrespect that I may feel I “can’t avoid”,
Such as on a job that my survival may feel to depend on,
I can practice noticing the internal emotional reactions/physical sensations in addition to my naturally occurring breath,
In order for them to less likely painfully build within myself,
To therefore reduce chances of them having a destructive impact on my physical health and/or within my actions,

So therefore,
May I again remember,
To notice my inhalations,
Exhalations,
Including my internal physical sensations,
Such as my emotions that internally react to varying extents in response to attempts to socially interact,

May I peacefully notice,
As the internal sensations continually expand and contract

((This is not in any standard citation format), Source: Author: Bob Barnett, Article title: “How Juggling Can Increase Neuroplasticity”, Year Published: 2024 (around February and March although the exact date does not appear to be listed), Website: Brain & Life, Link/URL: https://www.brainandlife.org/articles/juggling-may-be-good-for-the-brain)