Both Know

I will try additionally communicating (and/or ask) that,
What my perceptions appear to be trying to tell myself (and/or get myself to question),
Which I guess(?) is;

If someone says something mean about someone else who we both know..,
Is that person trying to fill myself with rage(?),
With the intention for that internal rage to eventually blast out of myself in some way that causes harm(?),
Therefore providing that individual with feeling an elevated level of emotional “control” that adds to a desired level of egoic “superiority”..?
While also feeling entertained at the same time..?

Therefore I’ll also ask that;
In which directions will other’s social awareness try to direct me now?

And I’ll also ask that;
For example,
Will certain sentient individuals still try to create “conditions” that they can’t even prove actually “exist” just to try to feel “helpful” by trying to sell what any of their egos claim is “meant” to “alleviate” a form of pain!?
And if any (levels and forms) of others’ intended “help” just creates more pain,
Will their egos ever understand or will they want to force more of their so-called “help” onto others..(?),

And I guess(?) I’ll conclude,
As for this context,
Which I guess(?) is that;
All I can keep trying,
Is noticing my internal sensations,
As any others who happen to irritate myself to whichever intentional and/or unintentional degree,
Pass