Feeling Less “Othered”

As my perceptions might however often tell me;
The more that any others,
Fearfully cause my perceptions,
To feel additionally “othered”,

And the more that I assume,
That anything familiar,
Of which my perceptions tell myself is others “referring” to myself,
Which my perceptions interpret negatively,

Such as aggressively imitating my tone of voice,
Or whatever and however it is that my perceptions tell myself that any others’ various forms and extents of direct, indirect, verbal and nonverbal communication is “referring to myself” in a way that makes me feel blamed for what my individual presently manifesting physical form does not presently understand,

And if any others give myself the silent treatment while appearing as highly angry at I don’t know what..(?),
The less that (as of this context) any others’ do not tell myself what I can and/or cannot do in whichever form to whichever extent,
Then the less likely it is,
For myself to even considerately attempt to at least some extent,
How it is that I could possibly (if possible..) help subside any excessive and/or highly damaging forms of pain of which any others’ might be experiencing,

And of course,
I feel that the less aware that I am of the toxic unaware choices (and/or decisions) that I might continue to make which internally affect myself,
The LESS able I’ll be to help others since (in my belief),
The MORE I can consciously regard my own basic needs,
The MORE that others will sense that,
Therefore REDUCING chances of feeling as highly “othered”,

Thanks for reading that!