(Disclaimer: Please do NOT take this personally.. Thanks..),

Bob: If a grown man has too much bad impulse control, why would someone buy that grown man stuff, which reinforces his bad impulses..?
Gerry: Are you referring to yourself..?
Frank: Wait wha—
Armondo: What’d ya do…?
Eleanor: Dude.. you must learn to control yourself when your temptation is at a high point..
Bob: Okay I’ll write that down..

Bob types a note on his iPhone..

As management approaches everyone scatters..

Management: Bob..

Bob runs over..

Management: I can’t be having you distract everyone..
Bob: Yessir..?
Management: Let me guess.. you’re looking for equity!?
Bob: I don’t understand why—
Management: Well if you don’t shut up you’ll find out.
Bob: Wait wha—
Management: Get out..
Bob: I’m just here to lift shit man..
Management: Oh so you making fun of the skaters now..?
Bob: Bro I literally—
Management: Well why is it that every fucking—
Bob: What!?
Management: Let me finish!!
Bob: But like I don’t—
Management: Give me your phone..

Bob hands over his phone, punches a TV box, and then gets sent to the waiting room for an ambulance..

Gerry: Is he good..?
Frank: Nope..
Armondo: Probably was pampered for too long..
Frank: Sounds about right..

Bob yells in the other room as everyone continues to banter..

(Disclaimer: Please do NOT hack this.. Please do NOT take this personally.. Thanks!),

What if..(?),

It’s (to whichever form and extent) like..,
This dude can’t make friends,
Then becomes rejected,
Then he rejects the friend who got even more rejected,
Then the even more rejected guy forms a brotherhood of those “equally rejected”,
Who then rises to power,
while competing with the opposing forces of the “most socially rejected”..,

And then..,
Civilization comes crashing down,
All because..,
Painful past experiences,
Were held onto for too long

(Disclaimer: Please do NOT hack this.. Please do NOT take this personally.. Thanks!),

I need to remind myself to;

Think LESS of myself,
Because if I’m too UNaware of those I affect,
That’ll increase chances of hurting others,
So no wonder I’m NOT receiving invites..,

Because if what I say,
Deeply contradicts my actions,
Those will respond in action,

Yep,
I would guess that..(?),
Social situations can..,
Give several others the power,
To define ourselves,
In various ways

(Disclaimer: Please do NOT hack this.. Please do NOT take this personally.. Thanks!),

Speaking for myself..,
And/or whoever can relate..,
Just..,

Stay safe from those sharpened perceptions,
Because..,
Welp..,
When they’ve been rejected,
And don’t realize how much you also have been..,
Their sharpened perceptions,
understandably,
Yet tragically,
Might turn against you,
!?

So I’d say (NOT to sound “facetious”..),
Yet I’d say.. or hope that,
We can remember,
To start again..,
“With the breath”,
While trying to get passed and through whatever it is,
While learning how to NOT brutally repeat what others worked so HARD to stop..!!
While ADVANCING along with LESS instant judgmental pain!!

I’m NOT kidding,
I also want there to be peace,
I really do,

Although my awkwardness might continue to present me in a certain way,
Although my awakened behavior might reduce chances of me surviving out in the “real” world less long..(!?),
I still have to be considerate,
And let go of MORE of this attention seeking neurodivergent victimhood divisive harmfulness,
Because how will antagonizing others help!?
How is competing with “who had it the worst” going to help us ALL safely and inclusively advance as we coexist..(!?),

And if I can’t keep my word,
Then I’m being,
Inconsiderate,
And the systems in place,
Won’t have a choice but to take care of it,

So if the extent you focus on your hobby is causing you to be a narcissistic scumbag,
Maybe try learning a skill set that’s more essential..?
Because if not..,
What will (more likely) happen..?

It’ll fall apart,
And there will be no more free time for hobbies..,

Yeah,
I know it’s all easier said,
Yet don’t let scumbags get to your head,
Therefore,
Keep breathing,
And showing up,

Thanks again for reading this!

(Disclaimer: This is NOT to be taken personally.. please understand..),

Awkwardness..,
Misunderstandings..,
Acting out..,
Rejection then egoic anger..,
Repeated over and over..,

Provoked..,
Rejected..,
then a screenshot..,

Provoked..,
Rejected,
then another screenshot..,

Jealousy..,
Rumors..,
Provoked again and again..,
Even more awkwardness..,
Rejected..,
Then anger blasted out onto someone INNOCENT..,
then a victim mentality eruption,
Then the punishments ready to justify..,

“Oh we got him now!!”,

Scared..?
I am as well,

However,
Even if what claims to hold us accountable doesn’t “suit” us “perfectly”,
Words and actions have an impact,
On everyone,

So..,
Are we trying to compassionately evolve..?
Or are we unintentionally painfully devolving..?
How can algorithmic technology truly be advancing..?
Is it “always” bad..?
Guess we can always remember to ask ourselves,
And try to keep following what we feel is most considerate.. (for example).. right..?

Although I’ve spent time around people who were NOT as bad as others could have been to me,

it still has felt hard,

constantly reacting sensitively

Why let others haze you who will eventually reject you!?
They claimed to be “breaking me” to “build me” when they were actually breaking my developing confidence while building MORE anxiety..,
As for determining “loyalty”..,
Their egos just enjoyed feeling power by feeling about to hurt me..,
It’s too bad what I thought was a brotherhood turned out to be a fucking scam truthfully..,

What a waste of effort,
money,
All for most who’d just reject me in addition to all the bullying and rejections I experienced previously!!

I turned to them to realize they were just as bad..,
And of course they’ll never be open to admitting why I got so mad..,

and the more honest I got,
the more they excluded me,
because several just can’t admit the reality..,

Man..,
I wish I was less of a pushover..

welp,
at least now,
Is coming another new year,

Fuck how it was then,
And how it always was constantly before and before then,

This is a new year,
This is NOW,

Time to let all the fucks go,
Time to let it all go,
And this year,
Actually grow

Even if there’s a lot that remains to heavily weigh within me;
I commit to taking more peaceful,
strong and centered steps,
To being more of peaceful service,
As I learn from those who have truly been there for me,

And as for those who haven’t,
As for those who seemingly couldn’t,
As for those who I thought would,
May I waste less energy on trying to change what I truly can never make open to changing,
Or who just.. won’t change..,

I commit to listening to more of another’s experience,
Which I feel has helped me feel less alone in my difficult experiences,

Although I’ve been struggling with actually fulfilling what I’ve committed to,
Well,
I’ll just keep on trying to realign with the resolutions I failed to fulfill again and again in previous years,

May this be a better year,
May I become stronger and stronger,
As I proceed more and more out there,

May I continue hanging in there,
Regardless of what truly is to come,
In this new year

(Genre: Dialogue practice/A short play I’d guess..(?))
(Disclaimer: As always, please try NOT to take this personally, it’s truly just a creative writing hypothetical. As always, thanks for reading! And Happy New Year!!),

Person #1: Dude, just.. learn to take a joke!!
Person #2: It’s just all the time yo!!
Person #3: So stop acting like a fucking dunce my guy! You’re a silly ass fuck!!
Person #2: It’s just when I’m not in the mood.. just try to consider that.. like you dudes are the only ones who welcomed me into your circle.. I even got excluded by the “Mindfulness Meditation club”.. They didn’t invite me to shit either and they’d roll their eyes whenever I’d show up to their “meditation circle” and their “authentic relating” rounds or whatever the fuck!? They think they’re all “peaceful” and “accepting”.. bunch of bullshit if ya ask me..
Person #3: Bro it’s not just you who goes through shit!!
Person #2: But how is constantly calling me a “goofy ass fuck” going to help me empathetically join you all in your deep friendship bond with each other!?
Person #4: Yo what happened!? You were so chill before!!
Person #2: I’m trying to take more jokes yo.. like I really don’t prefer feeling offended and all serious far more of the time!! Trust me!! It’s just because you dudes are like the only people who’d accept me and I feel like it was just for a good laugh amongst yourselves!!
Person #1: But we’re not obligated to “heal” your “emotional pain”.. Like.. we all have our own shit brahh!!
Person #2: Yo I’m not saying you all don’t.. it’s just, how is constantly getting drunk and then winding up on a bunch of prescriptions after going to make us feel that we’re truly deepening our actions with a meaningful life!?
Person #3: Dude just go fucking meditate!!
Person #2: I’m not trying to preach!! It’s just.. like.. come on man!! What are we doing here!!?

Person #3 gets sarcastic by referring to Person #2’s struggles with autism as “severe”..

Person #1: Bro.. we know you’re severely autistic.. but that’s not our responsibility to fix. We all have so much shit we’re dealing with now, so if you can’t put up with how we are, just get out of here dude.. just get out..
Person #2: Fuck my life..
Person #3: Stop whining and just get your shit together kid!!
Person #4: Yeah and we’re all trying to have fun so just stop ruining it yo!
Person #2: Okay.. I’ll fuck off.. I’ll leave ya’ll alone since I’m “too sensitive”.. I get it.. I’ll fuck off..
Person #1: Good!! Now get lost!!
Person #3: Yeah!! Fuck you bro!!
Person #2: Since it’s New Years, why don’t y’all have a bunch of beers and then go driving along some scenic routes!!? Those cliffs will all give you a good view to drive alongside while happily pregaming for the other social function that I ain’t invited to!!
Person #4: Yo what the fuck!?
Person #2: Fuck all of you!! I was so nice to all of you!! I was so fucking nice!! And you guys just wouldn’t stop!! I’m done!!
Person #3: I thought you said you were leaving?
Person #4: Bahahaha!!
Person #1: I’m dead yo..
Person #2: May you all happily ride and die without me..
Person #3: Yo mah son thinks he’s all big and gangster bahahaha!!
Person #2: Nah.. just keeping it real for once..

Person #2 walks away..

Person #1: Your posts have been disturbing..
Person #2: You’re such a great friend you know that..?
Person #1: I’m just saying, if you want people to like you, don’t act like that!
Person #2: I’m just trying to be more honest.
Person #1: But you come across as if you’re mad at the world, like you’ve just been acting nuts!!
Person #2: Well I am somewhat pissed at large amounts of stuff happening in the world, and I trust that those who read my posts don’t take what I say to heart. It’s NOT directed against any of them!
Person #1: Just post a picture of you smiling with your friends bruh..
Person #2: Well I haven’t been receiving any invites bruh..
Person #1: That’s because you lash out and push people away!
Person #2: I’ve had severe social challenges such as having experienced repeated bullying and rejection that resulted in ongoing mental health and emotional struggles! So listening to you express your frustration, will just more likely make me feel even more emotionally intense, because I’ll feel even more misunderstood and even more alone with how I feel.. so if you want to be a good fucking friend, maybe say something like “I’m sorry you’ve been struggling. I know this has been hard for you”.
Person #1: But I’m allowed to give you my opinion! It’s not always what you “want to hear”!! It’s like when people say “facts don’t care about your feelings”, the same shit therefore applies from me to you in this case!!
Person #2: There’s something called empathy and listening when those you care about are barely hanging on you fucking twisted ass fuck!!
Person #1: Wait wha—

Person #2 ends the video call and blocks Person #1 until he decides to unblock him after long additional periods of more and more isolation in his mom’s basement.. Fortunately, Person #2 becomes his friend again, however, it doesn’t last for long..