I guess(?) that I feel that for example;
Any forms of interpretations can vary however narrow and broadly,
and may they (and/or increasingly more) remain sufficiently beneficial perpetually

(Please do NOT take this personally, and as always, thanks for reading),

In my presently held belief,
I guess that..(?),
My perceptions appear to tell me that;

For example;

Although pain may however often “make someone” recover “stronger” and/or “teach them” and/or “break down” and/or “build” someone “up”,
well,
I feel (that any type, form and/or degree of) pain can also (however often) DAMAGE (and/or however traumatize) and/or is not always the only “required” path for self-improvement (for example)..,
so yes (and for example),
may sustained and/or deepening awareness,
help myself remain perpetually increasingly truly aware of how I’m presently (and/or whenever and/or however being) affected by pain,

Thanks for reading!

(Please don’t take this personally, and as always, thanks for reading!),

In my presently held belief,
My perceptions would like to share their present perceptions that;

Sometimes the same person who told me that it could feel deeply painful when those who we admire insult us,
could at the same time,
be someone I admire who eventually insults me,
so sometimes,
I’m just in a place where whichever others,
don’t see my emotional vulnerability,
aside from anyone who may have zero patience for regarding any degree of emotional fragility..,
so of course,
I must feel to remain focused as the inevitable social/emotional energy from others,
inevitably reacts with how I’m already feeling internally,

I can remember to inhale,
exhale,
while noticing the sensations build and pass through me while preventing and/or reducing the extent to which I might be unconsciously judging the difficult emotional intensity as “reality” and therefore REDUCING my chances of acting damagingly involuntarily when the intense emotions grab hold of (and/or contaminate) my present conscious perceptions..,
so..,
yes I can (therefore) still remember to distinguish between any form,
degree and type of intense feeling(s),
INSTEAD of being catastrophically (or harmfully) controlled by any of them,
for example,

And I feel I must remind myself to practice as usual,

Thanks for reading!!

Huhhh..,
As I’d guess..(?),
It has felt harder,
Feeling and assuming,
that others would much rather deeply,
Open and authentically,
Conveniently,
Socially connect with others LESS clouded by anxiety and lack of confidence than (or as compared to) myself,

Now yes even though I agree,
That focusing on what I feel as wrong with myself and carrying (what (I guess.?) seems commonly referred to as) a “victim mentality”,
Is also deeply harmful for me,
And can additionally internally weigh me down discouragingly,

Still,
I just wish to continue,
Feeling more balanced..,
(And to continue to rhyme..),
I guess..(?),
More peacefully present and,
“Chill”,

As I keep (figuratively speaking),
Climbing up over another.. “hill”,
Or “mountain” but that doesn’t rhyme with “chill”..,

Sorry..,
Sorry for getting sidetracked..,
Yet,
As always,
I feel I can always come back,
To that more centered,
And cultivation of internal peaceful acceptance,
Track,

Thanks for reading!!

Sincerely,

-Zach

For example,
feeling as if my only options are trying to put out fire and then becoming crushed and burned to death,
and/or surviving and feeling guilty that I did,
and/or (for example) feeling guilty for not having developed myself in ways that’ll give me the courage to become a fireman,
for me..,
are all feelings of at least some degree of deep self-critical negativity,
that I feel to (keep expecting),
In addition to presently feeling,
perpetually inevitably,

And as usual,
yes,
I’m still trying to,
develop myself in whichever ways I most presently see as helpful for how I see I must remain morally responsible,

and sometimes deep fear,
keeps me awake,
and scatters my attention,
and makes me feel,
so much more in danger,
than I most probably am..?

And (in addition to the possibility of) whatever can “occur”,
I can remind myself,
Well,
At least it’s “not occurring now”,

Huhhh..,
and well,
if stuff feels to even more painfully shatter apart than it has previously felt quite frequently,
well,
I’ll keep trying to notice the internal sensations and develop peaceful acceptance of them,
INSTEAD of adding more pain by creating resistance tension,
pertaining,
to however and whichever percentage my deepest fears might not,
and/or inevitably,
come true,

Thanks for reading!

(So yes, I might have used the same title however much more than once in these WordPress posts, yet as usual, thank you for reading and continuing to positively support me!),

Okay so,
For example;

(And regardless of any certain chemical’s’ ability to amplify (or however alter) any effects of however I’m feeling presently),

And even if my behavior is deeply INAPPROPRIATE,
INEXCUSABLE,
yet,
Highly UNDERSTANDABLE..,

Sometimes (or however often),
the inevitable social drama,
deeply adds,
to anxious chest expanding and contracting internal tension,
causes memories of bullying and pointless exclusion to resurface,
reducing my ability to remain stoic,
as the anger,
builds and builds,
causing me to stand up and perpetuate similar forms of aggression which I’ve often felt on the receiving end of for a long time..,

Yep,
Even the most micro forms of sad, angry and/or negative drama I unintentionally (yet inevitably) notice,
can add to that internal accumulating tension, causing me to make another scene..,
yeah..,
I wish others would act less mean..,
ahhh..,

Thanks for reading,
and yes,
may we keep going,
and recentering..
and when in whichever position that appears as disciplined stillness,
well (for example),
may I be aware of any accumulating internal stress and/or tension,
to REDUCE chances of an involuntary act of aggression that I’ll eventually (likely) regret.. Huhhh..,
ahhhh..,
inhale..,
exhale..,
ahhh..,

Not saying anyones’ “asking” but YES!,
I feel it’s far easier said and understood in my head, as compared to,
remembering to embody deeper within,
as I intend to,

Thanks for reading!

(Genre: A short one part play..(?)),

The one and only Part 1;

Meanwhile, at a restaurant..

Person #1: Oh my gosh you don’t have to fucking know everything!
Person #2: I’m just trying to make conversation!
Person #1: Well that’s none of your fucking business!!

Another person unintentionally overhears the mean-spirited comments while remaining seated very still with his back towards the booth (and right behind it) of which it comes from.. And as this occurs, his social anxious frustration builds and builds as internal expanding and contracting tension within his chest painfully increases..

Person #1: Did you see that Rangers game!?
Person #2: Yeah!
Person #1: Shut up!
Person #2: I was just—
Person #1: No one cares! And aren’t the Saints doing well!?

The third person of the booth nods his head.. while the other person talks to himself..

Other person: Stupid fucking spectator sports..

The three individuals sitting at the booth directly behind him continue talking..

Person #2: Yeah and like—
Person #1: What is with you!?
Person #3: Hey come on..

After deeply struggling to focus on finishing filling out the check and giving the tip (as he insisted to his father), the other person yells.

Other person: I’m just so.. fucking sick of drama!!

The other person stands up from the booth, punches his right fist to his left palm, and walks out of the restaurant, while his father watches out for him.

Other person’s father: Hey, settle down now.

Other person: I don’t give a fuck!!

The other person menacingly stares at Person #1 while she silently looks down.. As the booth goes quiet, as the restaurant goes quiet, as the other person aggressively marches out followed by his father, while remaining deeply disgruntled and while aggressively whispering to himself.

Other person: Why can’t people be nicer!? What is up!? I’m just so done with this! Fuck!

Reader discretion is advised,
My fear is that these posts below might be interpreted in ways unintended that can possibly spiral in infinite pointless painful directions..(!?),

Thank you for reading,
Thank you for helping me through times which I’ve felt to be difficult,
Thank you

(For mature readership Only)

(Creative Genre: I guess.. three people talking(?))

Person #1: When correcting a sleep deprived and overstimulated person, do not make irritating noises such as, “boop”, because they’ll probably, “bop”, your smart ass in the face..
Person #2: Dude.. just.. who and what of the forces of fucking twisted backwards weirdness are you referring to now!!?
Person #3: Hey man, he’s just trying to express himself!!
Person #2: Bro, he keeps spacing out!! We have to remain focused!
Person #3: I know.. I know.. just.. give him time, he’ll mellow out..

(Genre: I guess dialogue (or “tri”-alogue practice with narration (and/or a short play)..(?))

The one and only Part 1..

Person #1: They were there first!!
Person #2: What is the real meaning of “they”, aren’t we all spiritually inseparable individuals when it comes down to it!?
Person #1: Wrong context!!
Person #3: Dudes, chill!! Just breathe and notice the conflicting dialogue!!
Person #2: Who of the fucking shitballs are you!!?
Person #1: Yeah.. what!!?
Person #2: Dude.. just.. get out of here!!

Person #3 leaves, and minds his own business, and protects himself, from horrific drama, that he did not cause, and, (in the presently held opinion of this narration), which he is NOT perpetuating..