(Genre: Creative Writing.. I guess..(?), this is NOT meant to be taken personally, and as always, thanks for reading)

Dear evil, stop being provocative.. Dear evil, please reduce the extent to which you try to confuse and intimidate me, because yes, it is weighing.., Dear evil, leave me alone.. Dear evil.., Because my life feels so monotonous, my vocab feels to be reducing.., Dear evil, just.. stop being pointlessly deliberately judgmental.. Dear evil, once again, your punishments have not felt to teach me.. Dear evil, stop putting individuals on the spot.. stop trying to tear us apart.. Dear evil.., please, stop preventing me from feeling less fit for ethical survival.. Dear evil.., Huhh.., please leave, I’m trying to rebalance, stop making me “cry wolf” to those who are sincere.., Dear evil.., please wake up.., huhhhhh..

Yuh know look,
I really do believe in peace,
Yet sometimes I feel,
To be real..,
Yuh know..?

There’s that internal anger that’s just “ready to go”,

Yet instead of getting cornered,
I’ll just fuck off,
And away,
From any who will never give a fuck among any time of day

(Genre: A very short one part play/stream of consciousness.. (I didn’t feel like revising this a lot, I’m kinda manic yet it’ll pass as usual. Yep, and thanks as always for the continual support!))

Coworker #1: I work three jobs.
Coworker #2: How many hours a week altogether..?
Coworker #3: Oh shut up you narcissistic idealist..
Supervisor: Dudes.. chill..

Meanwhile, a jam increases on the conveyor belts, while distribution trucks line up from various entrences..

Pressure builds, psychologically, emotionally, cognitively, externally, until eventually, fear and paranoia over nothing, prevent the forces of unconditional compassion from saving everyone helplessly involved.., and as the narrator, yes, I am scared of the state of the world.. yet I’ll just keep breathing, noticing, and reminding myself (such as right now), because I still feel that I just can’t help others if I don’t help myself, so I’ll continue, to just, show up, and follow instructions that my morals allow me to follow.

(Genre: Creative Writing, and as always, please do NOT take this personally, thanks as always!),

Yep,
I guess that..(?),

For example,
There’s empathetic confidence,
Vengeful confidence,
Peaceful and accepting confidence,
And/or..,
of course..,
Arrogant..,
Annoyance(s)..,

?

That occur..,
In whichever ways,
On and off during any part of any days..,

..

I believe that;

Several of us (such as myself),
are often encountering,
some type and degree of confidence,
Which can be analyzed,
Infinitely and in any directions,
Which comes from a place,
Form and degree of any good or bad intentions..,
That..,
Just..,
Continues to change (including someone’s awareness of how his/her/their confidence manifests as actions on the surface, and/or in the (therefore).. external world)..?

I guess..?
I..,
Whatever..,

And if those above words read as nonsense,
Well,
Hopefully,
We’ll all come closer and closer to arriving at a needed level of ethical confidence,

I guess..?

Yep,
I keep going

(Genre: Creative Writing/Stream of Consciousness..(?)),

(As always, thanks for reading, and please do NOT take this personally. Thank you again and as always!),

Yep..,
Got the mania again,

(For one,
I do NOT intend to insult your profession..),

Alright..,

What’s next..?
My innocent anxiety now asks;
Will a struggling lumberjack talk others into publishing what I post here,
In order to accuse me of something,
To provide a “justification” for controlling me in some secretive and horrific way..?

I don’t know..?

I hope not..,

I get it,
“Another day”,

We’re alive,
And that’s it,
in addition to any possible infinite directions there are to interpret,
Translate and teach whatever is “essential”..,
Right..?

(Genre: Short fictional one part play..(?))

The one and only, Part 1:

Our story begins with three lost and confused individuals amidst a changing and overpopulating planet..

Jim: There’s no such thing as ghosts.
Alfred: Well what if I hallucinate one..?
Ron: I don’t know.., “what if!?”..
Alfred: How is getting mad going to teach me anything..?
Jim: It’ll teach you to stop thinking about yourself.
Alfred: What’s that supposed to mean..?
Ron: You’ll see.
Alfred: Oh you guys are assholes.

Alfred ends the video call.. then calls back again..

Ron: Let me guess.. you left the lights on..?
Alfred: Well where’s the fucking switch!?
Jim: It should be through the dark spiral staircase up to the sanctuary..
Alfred: Man fu—
Both Ron and Jim: Bahahahahah!!!

Alfred: What!!!?

Ron: Well, now you know how us electricians feel when you forget to pay us..?
Alfred: JUST REMIND ME!!!!
Jim: Oh man.. I can’t.. this is just.. wow..
Alfred: No.. this isn’t funny.. just stop..
Ron: Just man up..

Jim gets sarcastic then laughs at his own statement;

Jim: Hey man, you’re adding to his accumulated psychological “trauma”.. tahahaha!!
Alfred: Fuck.. yo—

Jim and Ron hang up and message each other;

Jim: Yo, wanna message him a picture of the exorcism of Carrie White..?
Ron: Okay, lmaoo

(For anyone who does not know, “lmaoo” is an abbreviation for “laughing my ass off” and the extra “o” is used for emphasis..(..?)),

(Source: (Apologies.. I’m not sure how to create footnotes and/or endnotes with WordPress.com).. “Lmaoo.” Urban Dictionary, 21 May 2009, http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=lmaoo. (https://www.calvin.edu/library/knightcite/index.php)),

They call Alfred back..

Jim: Have you found the switch yet baby boy..?

Alfred: No..

Jim and Ron: Bahahahaha!!!

Alfred: You guys..

Jim and Ron message each other after hanging up on Alfred.., and then they send him the picture..

Alfred: Ahhh!! Shit!! Shit!!

Alfred starts vandalizing the church while talking to himself..

Alfred: Assholes!! Fucking asshole fucks!! That’s it, I’m getting the fuck out of here!!

Alfred races to the door while leaving the last light on..

Alfred: Huh!! Huh!! Huh!!

Jim and Ron call Alfred back..

Alfred: Yo just stop!! I’ll fucking pay you.. just.. stop!!

Jim and Ron hang up and message each other..

Jim: Yeah maybe this is a little much..?

Ron: No, it’s what he deserves.

Jim: Dude.. I just don’t know!?

Ron: Trust me.

Jim: Whatever you say..

Ron and Jim decide to call Alfred back. Alfred answers his phone..

Alfred: What now!!?

Ron: You looking for your pills now too little guy!?

Alfred: Okay Ron.. you are like the biggest scumbag ever.. I don’t even—

Ron: You don’t have to “know where to begin” anywhere because you work for me now.. and this is what I had to go through in training as well..

Alfred: Oh fuck you.. fuck.. yo—

Ron and Jim hang up..

Ron: Yeah I don’t know if he’s gonna last..

Jim: It’s.. your call.. ass..

Jim blocks Ron, then tosses his phone into a remote stream..

Jim looks at the ground in confusion.. shaking his head..

(Genre: Creative Writing/Organized stream of emotional thoughts..(?), and as always, please do NOT take this personally.., thanks for the continued WordPress.com blog readership support, and thanks to those who keep WordPress.com going!!),

Okay so here’s another post;

I presently guess that;
yeah I’ll just say it;
so.. uhhhhh..(?),
I guess that possibly..(?),

The MORE I wake up to an unexpected physical condition,
and the MORE that I have NOT yet developed acceptance of any particular new (form and degree) of physical condition (in this case),
then I’d guess that,
the more I will experience pain..?
And another part of my changing emotional/physical awareness also feels to just..,
not know..,

AHHHH shit!!!
Yet I’ll keep on sticking with any of it!!

Here’s a random question;
Is LESS “always” MORE..?
OR..,
Could “LESS” make us MORE stupid..?

Is it..?
No..?
Or yes..!?
“It all depends” feels to remain as my best present guess..?

So therefore yes,
I guess it all depends..(?),
(as what I presently consider),
our present state of infinite changing forms and degrees of awareness..,

?

And yeah,
I will try to be more vigilant as for where I direct my sincerity,
because those pain seeking/negative thinking energy forces,
might always be looking for someone such as me..(?),

and however as usual,
I hope any of you,
among myself who can possibly relate presently, recenter,
again,
eventually..

Now from..,
What, who, when, where, how and why..(?),
Will I receive expectations from..?

I just deeply,
As of now would,
rather NOT have,
excessive questioning,
increase excessive painful sedentary degenerating,

Yes,
I’m still trying to fulfill,
More quiet,
Peaceful and still empathizing,

Yet,
Oftentimes,
Do I ask myself enough,
What could I really be doing..?

Sorry if this sounds “narcissistic”..,
Sorry if you’re sick of hearing the word “sorry” as a convenient dismissal of what needs to be changed..,

?

Well,
Here are some additional words,
That come from myself,

Yes,

I still believe we’ll perpetually overcome any recurring history,

Even if the end is however unexpectedly near,
Well,
In some ways I feel our chemicals will remanifest,
out of the sea of chemicals they initially evolved from,

Yep,

We got this

(This is a draft I wanted to throw out there, thanks for reading!),

In my presently held opinion;

Drama in infinite forms and degrees,
might always have the power,
to drag me down and away in it’s inevitable current,

I didn’t cause the historic current,
And I don’t believe any one person has the power to permanently eradicate it,

The dam might crumble eventually,
Leaders might become overflown with high-pressured responsibility,

So instead of spiraling down into an undercurrent,
that leads to the deepest and darkest whirlpool of negativity,

Yep..,
I’ll just try to continue..,
Regaining and sustaining however it inevitably flows,

While trying to keep fulfilling my part,
To help PREVENT,
Society from brutally blasting apart

(Genre: Creative Dialogue/A short play.. I guess..(?)), and I guess a “satire”..(?), anyway, thanks again for reading, and please don’t take this personally..),

Meanwhile, during a zoom support group meeting..

Fred: If necessary, saying “‘may I’ speak with a lawyer” is more polite than getting arrogant and exclaiming “‘let me speak!’ with a lawyer!!”. Again, I get that circumstances vary, yet still, cops are ALSO multi-diverse individuals who also emotionally react to the transmission of inner body emotional energy in each of their individual ways, so please, have mutual respect.
Max: No dude they’re all assholes.
Jerry: Oh wow, I thought you were open and nonjudgmental of all groups of people.. you really live by your word huh..?
Max: Hey man don’t get sarcastic.. just shut your mouth.
Fred: Bro I’m just tryna have a discussion.
Max: No dude you’re like being an ass!
Jerry: Un-fuckin belieava—
John: No swearing!!
Fred: Why don’t you dickheads go find your deepest self in your narcissistic inner body!?
Ted: Hey man don’t make fun of others’ spirituality!

Another man who had his zoom volume and video camera off turns it back on..

Fred: It’s called freedom of beliefs.. And where the fuck did you—
Don: HEY!!!

Fred stands up..

Facilitator: Guys, let’s all take a moment to recenter..

Everyone except Fred: Huuuuuhhhh, Ommmmmmmmmmm..

Fred: You know, I’m out.. just.. this isn’t for me.
Don: Asshole!!

Fred exits the zoom meeting..