(Short Play/Short Dialogue Practice)

Meanwhile, during a conversation..

Person #1: But we all get anxious.
Person #2: And I felt I have had far worse than average anxiety producing reactions to the same stimuli. And bullies sense that anxie—
Person #1: But everyone has been bullied.
Person #2: And if you let me finish, what I was trying to say is that since my larger than anxiety challenges hold me back in addition to larger than average learning challenges that—
Person #1: But everyone has challenges.
Person #2: I was not saying it’s “just me”, I know that everyone in some form or another to at least some extent has unique struggles, essentially my point is—
Person #1: But you’re too negative.
Person #2: And if you would let me finish—
Person #1: But I’m not responsible for holding your hand as you go through life.
Person #2: I wasn’t saying that! And if you would—
Person #1: But you’re caught up in the victim mentality, you can’t let the past hold you back.
Person #2: All I’m saying, since we’re trying to just chill out while conversing after a long day, is that in my own way, I have my own, unique challenges in their own forms to their own extents. I’m not asking anyone to “hold my hand”, I’m not requesting you do me any “service” in addition to what you’re going through yourself, we’re just.. MAKING CONVERSATION!!
Person #1: But I’m going to give you my honest feedback.
Person #2: As I have been trying to do in response this whole time!! Nevermind.. I need to rest, and this is just making it worse.
Person #1: But you brought it up.
Person #2: Huhhhh.. What were we first talking about..?

I presently feel that;

The more that we can truly disidentify from whatever it is,
that’s troubling us within,

that of which,
we can’t clearly put into words,

the more tolerance,
and peaceful acceptance we’ll (more likely) have,
with that of which (in this case),
has been giving us,
far more pain,
than is truly necessary,
for our survival

Happy 4th of July,

May we feel less defined,
May we allow our truly ethically considerate visions of what we see as “truth” manifest more within our actions while remaining less painfully suppressed and confined,

May we let in the judgments that truly care,
Judgments that want to help and are open to needed change,

May we improve at avoiding judgments that have not experienced nor care to understand how hard stuff has felt,
May we avoid judgments that just want to feel above us,
May we avoid judgments that don’t care at all,

May we continue to ethically rise above ways in which deceptive forces of delusion remain to hold us down,

May better days come,

May better days last,

May we work with where we’re at now,
And may we let go more and more,
Of the past,

May freedom grow,
And may it last

I feel that;

If someone is truly dangerous,
And if we want to open up to the person,

we need to tell the person from a SAFE distance,
and not try to “prove” that we’re “tough” by speaking honestly to the individual in person,
since it could be life threatening,

So therefore,
trying to “prove” (or “validate”) something to a dangerous individual can be a trap

Person #1: You seem like you have no ambition.
Person #2: I literally just told you how I’m trying to read physics.
Person #1: But why the hell would you even want to do that!? You won’t be able to have a conversation with anyone about that.
Person #2: I literally just told you what I’m trying to become more ambitious about and it sounds like you’re mad at me for not being “ambitious” about what you prefer I become even if it’s someone I’m just not..
Person #1: You didn’t listen to me did you?
Person #2: And when do you ever truly listen to me?
Person #1: I asked you first.
Person #2: Exactly.. you say you “care”, but you just try to criticize me for every flaw that you see while teaching me practically nothing. You say you “understand”, but you will never realize how you don’t, so you know what..? Don’t ever talk to me again!

For example;

I would like to try communicating that (I feel) my perceptions tell me that;

The more that someone firmly believes that what “works” for him will “work” for “everyone”,
the less open that person will be towards other viewpoints since that person will (most likely) believe that his way is the “only” way,

And since that person will (more likely) be highly intolerant of other (and possibly far more viable) ways of seeking deep life fulfillment (for example),
That individual will less likely be in favor of the freedom of others since his world views will be so shallow and narrowed by arrogantly believing that his way is the “only” way,

So as for anyone like this,
I must keep trying my best to stay away,
And/or (continue trying to) develop and sustain the inner peaceful confidence required to function in the ways that I see as most fit,
Regardless of how much anyone like this (who I can’t instantly avoid (if ever)) tries to arrogantly change and control me by forcibly making me follow the closed-minded belief system that he regards as “truth” (for example),

And in time,
hopefully it becomes easier,
Yet (speaking for myself) it can feel extremely hard,
When it appears that so many people like this,
Are in so many positions of great power and influence

(Genre: Short play (I guess..(?)))

Manager: Please get off your phone.
Bob: Do you want me to work for you, OR do you just want to bust my balls!?
Manager: But you can’t be on your phone.
Bob: But you shouldn’t be an asshole when I’m trying to make a sincere effort to work for you!
Manager: But as your boss it’s my job to tell you what to do.
Bob: And to have more confidence in myself by speaking my mind, your instructions make zero sense, and I just feel like you don’t even know what the hell you’re doing, so you just go by your gut feeling.. you don’t take this seriously, someone else told me that you literally didn’t believe me when I told you I was being harassed.. I just feel like you’re full of shit.
Manager: I try to do what’s best for the company.
Bob: You try to use your power to do whatever the hell you want regardless if it’s truly “for the company”!
Manager: Well do you want me to help you or not?
Bob: I would like it if you can stop cursing at me just because you’re having a bad day.
Manager: So don’t make my bad day worse.
Bob: And you can not make my bad day worse by not getting pissed off at me for not unloading a truck that you later on tell me I never had to unload!!
Manager: You do what I say, or you’re fired.
Bob: Man, I thought you cared about “team spirit”.
Manager: I did until I found out that you talk shit about me behind my back.

Bob walks up to his boss and stares him dead in the eyes..

Bob: I talk shit, about those who treat me, like, SHIT!!!

Max smacks his boss, his boss rushes to the office to call an ambulance while Max eventually races out of the commercial district with his mom’s car until he becomes stopped by police, then sedated due to a perceived threat towards oneself and others and thanks to security cameras..

The less I allow the misunderstandings of others to define me,
The less held back I’ll feel internally,
And the more likely I therefore succeed at whatever it is externally,

Since the misunderstandings of others will therefore not weigh as heavily within me,
Since I won’t let them fill within me as intensely,
Since I won’t as heavily fixate on them,
And will instead breathe more and allow the emotional reactions to their meanness and negativity,
to instead,
pass through me,

And even if this is also harder for me,
I can still,
Practice,
Not allowing the misunderstandings of others to define and discourage me,
And I can instead,
Further and further align myself with the truth that I see,
Regardless of however any others continue to angrily judge and firmly misunderstand me,

And regardless of how much I end up truly succeeding in any career that my present inner perceptions tell me is “best” for me,
At least,
I may (hopefully) feel more free,
And less restricted,
By all the misunderstandings and powerful judgments that several others might always have of me

(Short Dialogue Practice/Short Play)

Person #1: Yo, may you give me a lift?
Person #2: I really can’t man, I have stuff to take care of.
Person #1: Come on bro..
Person #2: I have to go!
Person #1: Just give me a lift man!
Person #2: I can’t!
Person #1: But you can!
Person #2: I seriously can’t..
Person #1: But I’m your boy bro! You can’t help me out!?
Person #2: Yeah sure.. you are just saying we’re “close friends” so you can take advantage of me bro..
Person #1: Nah bro it’s not like that I’m telling you!
Person #2: And I’m telling you I have to go!
Person #1: Aw come on man..
Person #2: If you truly cared, you would respect me when I tell you I can’t help you out right now.
Person #1: If you don’t help out your friend right now I’ll kick your ass!
Person #2: After all I have done for you, after how kind I have been, you say you’ll “kick my ass” if I don’t help you out while referring to yourself as a “friend”.. You got it backwards man..
Person #1: That’s it!!

Person #1 beats Person #2 to death all because his ego couldn’t stand Person #2 NOT giving into his peer pressure as usual..

Since I have to work harder to achieve the same results,
Several may believe that I’m “not trying” when the reality is that I’m deeply struggling,

Such as;
If my anxiety is making it harder for me to pay attention,
Some might believe that I “need” to be “punished” for “not trying hard enough” which will just add to even more anxiety that interferes even more with paying attention,

Yet even if stuff is harder in ways that others who don’t have the same challenges will never truly understand,
Still,
I can breathe and become more internally peaceful and free,
From how all their misunderstandings of me,
Have so deeply been defining myself