(Short Dialogue Practice)

Person #1: Why’d you report me!?
Person #2: You know.. I have been giving you free rides, I listened to what you’d tell me about your life, I literally opened up to you about experiences I had with being bullied, I have always been so nice to you, and I work way harder while you just hang around on your phone.. And yet because I’m a kind and anxious guy, even when I’m having a bad day, you still bust my balls by making all these unwanted aggressive comments..
Person #1: But I’m just messing with you bro..
Person #2: Your ego just likes to mess with me when it’s feeling sad and pissed off about its life.
Person #1: Nah bro.
Person #2: It’s how it is bro, you just like to mess with me, that’s it.

Because people keep messing with me,
Because I struggle to not let it get to me,
I lose sleep,
And in order to get sleep,
I more likely will become stuck on medications,
That increase chances of diabetes,

(And worrying about taking medication to sleep that will increase chances of diabetes,
Will additionally increase chances of me not sleeping,
And taking a form of psychiatric medication that will (additionally) increase chances of myself getting diabetes..),

So if the people messing with me would therefore understand that they’re making it HARDER for me to NOT rely on medication that increases chances of getting diabetes all to remain “less sensitive”.. will they continue messing with me..?

Several actually might,
Because since “life is a game”,
They just will not care how badly I just might lose..,

Oh well,
Just gotta keep breathing,
And if I get diabetes,
(As a result of continual bad life choices and prescriptions used all to make me less emotionally sensitive and/or less reactive to those who love trying to get another reaction out of me..),
Well,
Hopefully breathing will help me additionally peacefully accept,
Any present forms of pain,
That I just,
Can’t change..

(Source: “The Body Keeps The Score” (Book), Year Published: 2014, Publisher: Penguin Books, Author: Bessel Van Der Kolk, Pages referenced: 37-38 (Evidently, these sources are in no particular standard citation format, however, I feel/hope this is clear enough. Thanks for reading!))

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Meanwhile, as Luke unloads packages on the van lines, another coworker named Jack walks over..

Jack: What’s up with you?
Luke: Same old shit my dude..
Jack: Chillin?
Luke: I’m working.
Jack: You chillin?
Luke: Like I said, I’m working.
Jack: Ight sport.
Luke: Please don’t call me that.
Jack: I’m just messing with you bro.
Luke: I’m asking you to stop messing with me because, one, I never mess with you, two, I been extremely nice towards you, three, I been messed with my whole life way more than average, four, I’m 10 years older than you and since I’m now 29 years old, I now, more than ever, have to stop letting people just constantly mess with me!
Jack: But you need to chill my G! You need to chill out yo! I’m just trying to be friendly with you! You too serious!!
Luke: You say you’re trying to be “friendly”.. So why does it always sound aggressive whenever you address me then?
Jack: But I don’t mean it like that!
Luke: But it sounds like you do mean it like that..
Jack: Oh my God man!! Take it easy bro! For real!!
Luke: Well if you keep doing it I’m telling HR.
Jack: Ight.. be like that.
Luke: I will be like that because it’s every fucking day you asshole!

Jack walks away and Luke looks for his boss before deciding to go to Human Resources..

Luke: May you tell Jack to stop busting my balls..?
Boss: What did he say?
Luke: Every day he aggressively is like “what’s up with you!?” and now he just called me “sport”.
Boss: It sounds like he’s trying to be friendly.
Luke: He’s not. He’s trying to bother me and he keeps doing it because I’m quiet and a nice person.
Boss: You sure?
Luke: I am totally sure.
Boss: Look, if you see him, just walk away like I told you before alright?
Luke: I do try to avoid him as much as I can but he doesn’t leave me alone! And I’m telling you, it’s every day!
Boss: Please get back to work.
Luke: You want me to report your ass as well!?
Boss: Do you want to get fired?
Luke: Serious?
Boss: Yeah I’m serious. Please get back to work, or you’re fired.

Luke goes to HR..

Luke: Hi I would like to report a coworker named Jack for harassment.
HR guy: How is he harassing you?
Luke: Whenever I pass by him he gives me these aggressive comments.. He’ll be like “what’s up with you!?” and then he’ll call me names like “sport”, just to get a reaction out of me..
HR guy: And you are sure he’s not trying to be friendly? You sure he’s not trying to connect with you in his own idiosyncratic way?
Luke: I am absolutely sure he’s not. And I am sure that he’s trying to bother me to extract a reaction out of me to entertain himself and boost his ego.
HR guy: Okay so, thank you for letting us know. We’ll call him in to have a talk and we’ll make sure he never does this again.
Luke: Thanks.
HR guy: You betcha.

And then after a few days pass, Luke encounters Jack again..

Jack: Ay yo why the fuck did you report me!?
Luke: Because you wouldn’t stop when I asked you to.. and I said, if you keep doing it, I’m reporting you.
Jack: Ight well now imma knock your ass out!

Jack charges at Luke who physically defends himself. Afterwards, Jack becomes fired and Luke quits. Then Luke’s mom helps him search for other jobs.. Once.. Again..   

Since critical thinking is not culturally valued by most people,
a famous person does not need to act intelligent to remain liked by millions of people,

The person just needs to get into the spirit of deep visceral connection,
Even if it’s through killing brain cells to kill the social anxiety,
Even if it’s through yelling nonsense and/or creatively rapping about how “great” they are that many others love hearing,

Essentially,
If it sounds good and gives others a good time,
Then there’s no intelligence required,
Since a hedonic good feeling,
Does not require,
Intelligent critical awareness,

And will this cultural value help civilization last..?

Doubt it..,

Yet regardless,
I don’t know if I’ll feel that bad,
When the civilization of which I have felt rejected within so frequently,
Falls apart

May experiencing more happiness and inner peace,
NOT remain dependent,
on expectations,
that are unlikely to become fulfilled,

No matter how much I give,
May I remember that I just might not be able to make others kinder people who I can’t avoid encountering or working with (for example),

May practicing less internal resistance to what is and what I can’t avoid nor change,
help me develop and sustain more fulfilling and longer lasting inner peace

I would additionally like to try communicating that I feel that;

Bullying can be passed down in various perpetual forms,
Such as;

From parents to children to future generations,
From superintendents to principles to teachers to students from one student to the other,
From coaches to team players to other team players,
From psychiatrists to clients to anyone more vulnerable,
From executives to vice executives to regional managers to district managers to store managers to assistant store managers to cashiers, sales and stock clerks from one to the other,
Or whichever is the more precise perpetual downward order of bullying,

And if you report it,
There might be nothing or not nearly enough done,
To truly stop it,

If you stand up to it,
You might likely become arrested by bullies (aside from the good cops), criminally charged by bullies and put in a institution with even bigger bullies supervised by bullies as a result of decisions (and/or court rulings) made by other bullies,

Bullying can be passed down in infinite ways to infinite levels of severity,

And since I can’t completely avoid remaining on the receiving end of it,
Instead of wasting more energy by trying to swim against a current that’ll easily overpower me,
I can relax and allow the unnecessary bullshit,
To just,
Pass through me,
With the hope of developing more and more longer lasting inner peaceful acceptance,
With getting bullied,
Or whatever it is,
That,
Just,
Is

(Short Dialogue/Short Play)

Person #1: Dude just fucking get over it!
Person #2: I thought you said that you would “never invalidate” my “feelings”!?
Person #1: And I’m validating your feelings by telling you what you need to hear!
Person #2: And what I’m hearing is that you don’t want to hear what I feel a need to get off my chest without sending unwanted feedback that makes me feel even worse!!
Person #1: You can either take my advice or not bro..
Person #2: And you can either be a good friend as you claim to be, or allow your ego to say something nasty once I vulnerably open myself up to you!!
Person #1: But I’m trying to help!
Person #2: Well it’s making me feel worse!!
Person #1: But you don’t realize how it is helping!
Person #2: And you don’t realize how much worse it’s making me feel because you’re not the one who feels what I feel!!
Person #1: This conversation is over. It can’t go in any positive direction at this point.
Person #2: Wow, thank you for validating my feelings as you said you would! You are a true friend… ASSHOLE!!!

Person #2 abruptly hangs up the phone..

I feel that;
My perceptions have often concluded that;

Bullies can be found everywhere,
And although this is not true of “everyone” of at least certain categories,
Still,
Some possible examples of forms bullies could manifest in might just be;
highly regarded business executives,
Entertainers,
Advertisers,
Customers,
Highly talented public speaking upcoming elected officials,
Sports, internet and “reality” TV stars,
Law enforcement officers,
Military “comrades” and officials in addition to opposing forces,
Military contractors,
Famous musicians in addition to sold out politicians among several talented intentional and unintentional comedians,
..,
Weapon manufacturers,
Arms dealers,
Terrorists,
Assassins,
Oil Drillers,
Actors.. producers.. directors..
Fact deniers,
Recreational and prescription drug dealers,
Judges,
Lawyers,
Inmates,
Correction Officers,
Supervisors,
Coworkers,
Insurance agents,
Lobbyists,
Martial artists,
Narcissistic religious and/or spiritual leaders,
Fundamentalists,
Preachers,
Televangelists,
Conspiracy theorists,
Mobsters,
Gangsters,
Bankers,
Stock Traders,
Strategic Investors,
Schemers,
Computer Hackers,
Coaches,
Drill Instructors,
“Motivational” speakers,
“Self-help” authors,
Social media influencers,
Institutional leaders,
Commentators,
Classmates,
Team players,
Teachers,
Professors,
Administrators..,

Bullying I’d say,
Is one of the remnants among humans,
Of survival of the “fittest”/social Darwinistic behavior,
Of egos seeking to brutally control,
Defeat,
Mutilitate,
Or somehow feed an insatiable sadistic impulse that targets those most vulnerable and readily available,

Bullies might be highly skilled actors,
They might claim to “not” be “like” all the other “bullies”,
They might claim to be “different”,
The one who we can “trust”,
Until they once again,
Unleash their dark side,
That shows in their own way,
That they are no different,
No matter how skilled they were,
At hiding it,

Yet the more I practice acceptance,
And just continue breathing through it,
Hopefully,
I feel less pain by trying to resist what I might never be able to avoid nor change to any preferable extent,

So hopefully,
I’ll still find and sustain,
more and more peace,
In the ongoing present

Even if others work hard,
they might not have realized,
how hard I worked,
to put up with them

In this post,
I would like to again thank my mom,
So I’ll say that;

Anyone who would call my mom “stupid”,
Is not to be trusted,

Anyone who thinks they “understand” me more than my mom,
Is likely to be toxic,
delusional,
and another person I must avoid,

Anyone who thinks my mom “harmed” me and who thinks they’re the one to “fix” me might never see how bad of an affect their efforts to “help” are truly having on me,

And unlike so many,
I would like to thank my mom,
For continuing to know what’s truly best for me,
And for working so hard to be there for me,
Unlike so many who think they “understand” me,

I want to thank my mom for working so hard to continue looking out for me,

Happy Mother’s Day