While walking through the van lines at the warehouse distribution center, Luke opens up another small truck to unload.. He then encounters a truck driver:

Truck driver: These boxes here, they’re pickups.
Luke: Yeah I know.
Truck driver: But someone keeps sending them up and I’m supposed to get them to the customer.
Luke: It’s not me who’s doing it.
Truck driver: I know, but I’m just telling you to give you an extra push.
Luke: I already have constantly been giving myself an “extra push”, and just so you know, what my boss tells me to send up, others tell me to leave on the truck, so to be honest I don’t know who really knows what they’re doing around here!? And how are we supposed to properly serve the customer if the instructions contradict each other!? How are we supposed to have stuff run as it needs to if we’re unsure who to listen to!?
Truck driver: Okay, and I am telling you to leave them on the truck because it’s not fair to the customer!
Luke: So it sounds like you are accusing me of following my boss’s orders which are going against yours..?
Truck driver: No, no, no, I’m just trying to kindly remind you for the next time, take good care!

The truck driver walks away.. Luke then stops throwing up the packages onto the conveyor belt at his usual pace and then anxiously overanalyzes each package, then decides to find one of the managers.

Luke: Hey so the truck driver of truck number 217 told me to leave the pick ups but I thought that we send all the small boxes up even if they’re local?
Manager #1: 217?
Luke: Yeah.
Manager #1: Then yeah send everything up.
Luke: So why did he—
Manager #1: Don’t listen to him.
Luke: Well it was the truck driver of 217.. white guy with a strong accent of.. yeah I know it doesn’t matter but it was that guy and his narcissism who I now have to additionally watch out for.. It’s just.. another day.. another dickhead..
Manager #1: Mhmm..
Luke: He might be harmless but I just hope he’s not dangerous because if he catches me alone again that could be bad.
Manager #1: I’ll let his boss know okay?
Luke: Okay thanks dude sounds good.

Luke then sees the first Manager again.

Manager #1: Hey so I told his boss.
Luke: Okay, yeah man I mean like I said, he could be dangerous..? Maybe not but better safe than sorry.
Manager #1: Mhmm.

Luke then informs the incident to the other manager.

Luke: Hey so the truck driver of 217 told me to leave all the “pick ups” on there but I was told to send everything up..?
Manager #2: He said to leave the pick ups on there?
Luke: Yes.
Manager #2: Maybe he meant that he just needed to scan them first?
Luke: Well if that’s what he meant to say he should have been more clear and I told Frank about it and he reported the guy to his boss so..
Manager #2: I mean if you’re wrong I’ll back you up.
Luke: Yeah I mean even if it was a misunderstanding I just still have to make sure the dude’s not crazy because if he catches me by myself I don’t want to have to.. you know..

Luke puts his hands up to implicitly try communicating a fear of needing to physically defend himself from the truck driver when no one else is around..

Manager #2: Yeah I got you, I think everything’s okay but I know what you’re saying.
Luke: It’s just.. ya never know..
Manager #2: Right.

The next day, as the truck pulls into parking spot number 217, Luke decides to open the door and explain himself to the man.

Luke: Hey so after I told my boss that you told me to leave those packages on the truck, he told me to “send everything up” which I did.
Truck Driver: Oh okay, that’s no big deal.
Luke: Wait what?
Truck Driver: It’s okay, no need to fuss over it.
Luke: But you were literally fussing over it yesterday! You know.. I don’t get this fucking place.. nothing makes any sense..

The truck driver walks away, Luke shakes his head and returns to loading boxes onto the conveyor belt.. Then another coworker about 10 years younger strolls by..

Coworker: What’s up you?
Luke: Sup..?
Coworker: Chillin?
Luke: I suppose..
Coworker: Aight I’ll see ya around sport.

The younger coworker keeps walking..

Luke: Wow..

Although talking with someone we trust can be highly necessary in certain points of our lives,
Since I can’t keep up with analyzing every single difficult negative social interaction I encounter with whichever others,
I must instead develop inner peaceful coping mechanisms to remain centered and balanced as I proceed to navigate through a world full of scumbags,

I (therefore) can continually notice my breath and internal sensations,
As the bad energy perpetually directed at me perpetually passes through me,
INSTEAD of wasting more time and energy excessively trying to figure out why another person did another completely unwarranted hurtful and wrong thing towards me,

Since I don’t have the time nor remaining energy to analytically write and talk about every bad interaction I have with others since they occur too frequently,
I must only write and talk when that’s more and more truly necessary,
While remembering viable inner peace practices to help me remain centered as I continue to encounter whatever hurtful forms of energy remain displaced towards me,

If most people (at some point) will just want to blame me for their bad day in addition to everything else that’s been going wrong in their lives that I did not cause at all,
I can still,
Remain centered and move along with the next day in my own life,

That’s right

(Short Fictional Dialogue Practice)

Person #1: You’re such a momma’s boy.
Person #2: And you’re such a bully.
Person #1: WRONG. I tell you what you need to hear because you don’t take care of yourself.
Person #2: And you will never hear how much of an asshole you sound. You will never hear me when I say how offended you make me feel, regardless of your “true” intent. And you will never understand that the “help” you try giving me just makes everything so much harder and worse than it is already.
Person #1: You are such a wuss.. Stop blaming others for all your problems!
Person #2: You still think you’re not an asshole after calling me that!? What a surprise.. And you know nothing about my problems. You know nothing about how my life has affected me!! Stop!! Please!!
Person #1: Just stop being so fucking sensitive.. And learn to take a fucking joke!!
Person #2: Oh you weren’t joking, because you’re a bully, and because you know I have more anxiety struggles and learning challenges, so I’m an easy target for your ego to try feeling better about itself!!
Person #1: Oh quit whining you fucking wimp..
Person #2: And you call yourself a “friend”.. Amazing..

(Short Dialogue/Short Play)

Person #1: You need to be harder on yourself!
Person #2: I already am extremely hard on myself!!
Person #1: Doesn’t seem like it..
Person #2: You think your shallow perceptions understand feelings that you don’t even feel yourself! You are a total scumbag..
Person #1: But I’m telling you what you need to hear!
Person #2: It’s what your ego, who wants to control me, wants me to “hear”.
Person #1: I’m trying to help!
Person #2: You’re trying to control me!
Person #1: No!!
Person #2: You say to “be yourself”, to “have confidence”, yet when I have the confidence to honestly tell you what I feel as best, you become so infuriated with me for not doing stuff your way!!
Person #1: It’s because I don’t want you to make the wrong choices!!
Person #2: It’s because you want me to become someone that YOU see as fit instead of what I see as true!!
Person #1: It’s because I want you to make better decisions!
Person #2: Wow.. way to rephrase a point you already made while continuing to ignore points I’m honestly telling you.. You say you want me to be “honest”, yet such as right now, you can’t stand it when I speak honestly.
Person #1: But I’m telling you what I honestly think is best.
Person #2: And I’m telling you, that I tried it, and more of it, is NOT going to help!! It’s NOT!! Trust me!!
Person #1: Why on earth would I have trust for your delusional misguided and misinformed points of view that you feel a need to embrace!!?
Person #2: You narcissistic mainstream fuck!! You have it so fucking backwards—
Person #1: Stop cursing please..
Person #2: Huh ha!! Way to try to sidetrack the points I’m making by trying to direct focus towards a few bad words I said when getting expressive! You are something else..
Person #1: And you aren’t bettering yourself..
Person #2: You know what!? I’m done repeating and rephrasing all these thoughts and feelings that you have absolutely zero consideration for! You will never even try to open up to all the thoughtful valid points that I make. Why? Because they’re not mainstream enough, and that—
Person #1: It’s because they’re toxic..
Person #2: It’s because most people disagree with them and when people’s world view becomes challenged, a lot of internal discomfort arises that causes them to unconsciously fight back!!
Person #1: What are you even talking about!?
Person #2: Something you wouldn’t understand.

Person #2 walks away, and decides to apply his time and energy elsewhere..

(Dialogue Practice)

Person #1: You have to earn your respect!!
Person #2: And I’m counting on you to not become like those who are already making stuff so much harder than necessary.
Person #1: But if you don’t take yourself seriously, then how will that motivate others to take you seriously!? How!?
Person #2: But how is being an asshole about it going to help me feel less discouraged along any self-improvement paths!?
Person #1: I’m not being an asshole, I’m trying to help you!?
Person #2: Well it sounds like your ego wants to hear itself give me advice in order to feel superior than to truly help..
Person #1: No!! You’re looking at it too negatively! What I’m saying is that the less you apply yourself and take care of yourself, the less others will want to respect you because they’ll think “why waste energy respecting someone who doesn’t take anything seriously..?”
Person #2: But they don’t know how challenging stuff has been for me. They think they “know”, but only I can know how I truly feel because I’m the only one feeling it. Not them. And I have been so respectful towards them. I have been so kind. And how is receiving more disrespect going to help me develop and sustain the inner peaceful clearness required to make better choices and therefore truly have more respect for myself!? How!?
Person #1: All I’m saying is that if you want people to respect you, you have to do stuff differently. You can’t go through life with this half-assed—
Person #2: The fact that you’d even feel a need to say something like that shows that you once again completely ignored everything I said while waiting to give more advice for another ego boost!!
Person #1: Well if you let me finish—
Person #2: Bullshit! You interrupt me way more than I interrupt you, I show you so much more respect! And your ego just likes to nitpick to criticize me in order to feel better about itself that it excuses as “constructive criticism”.. Just stop.. You don’t respect me at a—
Person #1: Either get your shit together, or never reach out to me again!!
Person #2: Exactly. Right there, your ego knows how much I struggle socially, so your ego sits and waits for me to reach out to you when no one else will respond, all in order to go on another ego trip to try feeling better and better about itself because the ego will never know how to truly respect others because all it cares about is—
Person #1: Man stop with the weirdass hippy shit..
Person #2: What the hell are you even talking about!? I’m making a thoughtful and sincere effort to speak my—
Person #1: Delusional bullshit.
Person #2: Man go fuck yourself.. I don’t need you. I’d rather live by myself than you being the only one I’d reach out to.. Just fuck off..

When I realize,
How much I’ve truly been allowing others to define me,
In ways that I then realize have been so damaging towards me,

When I realize,
How much I’ve neglected my own deeper needs,
And how much I’ve internally overstepped my boundaries,
All to try to please those who made zero efforts to return the kindness that I’d provide them so frequently,
Anger often arises,
That I can either become more aware of,
Or brutally unconsciously controlled by in ways that worsen my present circumstances,
Resulting in me feeling even more misunderstood,
Controlled,
Overpowered,
And straight up defeated by any of those who will always act mean towards me,
Who will always misunderstand and misjudge me in ways that’ll make what’s already hard,
So much harder than necessary,

So essentially,
In time,
Hopefully,
Stuff feels to become more peacefully manageable,
Including becoming more and more able,
to remain strong and centered,
When having the courage to stand up to individuals such as those who I thought were helping me,
Yet came realize,
How much they were truly damaging me

I certainly fear that;

The more that others successfully deliberately provoke me,
The more dysregulated my emotions will become,
And the more likely I’ll wind up on brutally excessive amounts of psychiatric medication that’ll give me other problems,
Instead of truly teaching me how to develop peaceful internal acceptance of all that I can’t avoid and can’t change,

Such as having to work with,
Work for,
and/or remain around others who are just looking to mess with me,

So instead of becoming as thrown off by another negative internal intense emotional reaction,
as a result of not wanting to accept how often I feel on the receiving end of (several) others looking to pick on others..,
The more I notice my breath and internal sensations react and pass through me while whoever I struggle to avoid just keeps on messing with me,
Hopefully,
I’ll develop more and more inner peaceful acceptance and less painful emotional reactivity,
In response,
To those,
Who will just,
Never stop messing with me,
Who will never take me seriously,
Or who will continue doing whatever it is that I can’t avoid and can’t stop them from doing to me,

So hopefully in time I’ll develop more peace,
Among whoever it is,
Who won’t stop messing with me

(Re-posted)

(Genre: Short play/Short Dialogue sequence)

Person #1: You can tell me anything!
Person #2: And you can talk a lot of shit and spread a lot of rumors which gives your ego attention which is why you’re offering me to share with you how I’m feeling.
Person #1: But I care!
Person #2: What you care about is having an easy target to insult so you can feel a sense of superiority.
Person #1: That’s not true at all!
Person #2: That is completely true, and you will never stop lying to me.
Person #1: I’m trying to help you have more confidence!!

Another person heavily on drugs stumbles by..

Drug addict: You just.. gotta like.. be yourself.. man!!

The drug addict trips, almost falls, then continues stumbling on..

Person #2: Brilliant..
Person #1: He has a point!!
Person #2: Ya think I haven’t heard that a billion times already!?
Person #1: But you’re not doing it!!
Person #2: And this conversation isn’t helping me out either, and like I said, I just don’t want to talk about this, and like I said, please, leave me alone!!

Person #1 starts running away.. and then Person #2 starts chasing him..

Person #1: You can’t keep running away from your problems!!
Person #2: I’m running away from you!!

(Genre: Dialogue Practice/Short Play)

Meanwhile, late at night on a sidewalk with no one else around:

Person #1: I’m just trying to help. It’s my job!
Person #2: Mam, I already told you several times that I’m getting help.
Person #1: But what if it’s not what you need!? I would love to have you as a client!
Person #2: Mam, my therapist has been very helpful. Please, leave me alone.
Person #1: I have to make sure you’re okay though.
Person #2: You are now harassing me. This is harassment.

Person #1 rolls her eyes and completely ignores another request by Person #2 to remain left alone..

Person #1: What’s your phone number?
Person #2: As a therapist you should know it’s NEVER okay to be harassing people even while under the influence of—
Person #1: Hush up!! Give me your phone number!?

Person #2 reluctantly gives Person #1 his phone number..

Person #2: May you please leave me alone..?
Person #1: You look jaded.
Person #2: Mam, would you please—
Person #1: You must accept help.
Person #2: And you must accept that you now have to leave me alone after I so kindly asked several times.
Person #1: But you’re not well.
Person #2: I’m getting better, and there isn’t any urgency at this moment. My behavior is civilized. I was literally minding my own business in the corner and NOT causing harm to anyone.
Person #1: My medication helps me though!
Person #2: I’m not telling you how to live your life, but you won’t stop telling me how to live mine after I’m kindly insisting that you stop arrogantly insisting I do something that I strongly feel will make stuff harder for me.
Person #1: Well I wouldn’t know what to do without my medication.
Person #2: But it’s not needed for physical health purposes. And as of now, I don’t need it at all, I just feel like you’re trying to fool me into thinking that I “need” it because it’s your job.
Person #1: Oh pffff!! That’s not true at all.
Person #2: You are a licensed mental health professional who is NOW harassing me while under the influence of alcohol!! You are abusing your power!! Leave me alone!!
Person #1: You’re too negative!! You think too much!!
Person #2: You are trying to twist what I’m saying so much to keep harassing me! Please, LEAVE ME ALONE!!
Person #1: But people were wondering why you didn’t want to come hang out!?
Person #2: But that’s not an excuse to keep harassing me on the one night that I want to remain left alone! Unlike you, those others had respect for my BOUNDARIES by leaving me alone when I wanted to type a short story on my phone while sitting at the counter by myself!!
Person #1: But it’s not good to remain by yourself!
Person #2: Do you want me to be honest or not? And you are still harassing me..
Person #1: Of course I want you to be honest.
Person #2: So I have the right to sit by myself at a bar, and I have the RIGHT to NOT take something that I don’t need and that won’t help me learn how to find true inner peace without challenging side effects that result later on from some other more heavily prescribed psychiatric drug.. Look, I’ve been on so much other stuff, please, I’m asking you, for my safety, for my body and my rights, please stop trying to force treatment that I don’t need. Just stop!
Person #1: Uh!! You sound like my daughter. And it’s only a suggestion!
Person #2: But you’re not leaving me alone after I asked you to.. This is harassment!!
Person #1: Oh well you want to “give up the ego” right..? So just, let go of all the misinformation that you have been led to believe that your ego seeks to validate itself by “proving” and listen to me trying to help you!
Person #2: And your ego feels it has the “answer” and your ego won’t stop trying to invasively force its beliefs onto others such as myself of which your ego excuses as the “help” I “need” in order for your ego to feel “validated!” Stop trying to twist stuff.. And I never even brought up anything pertaining to the “ego”.. Just, leave me alone!!
Person #1: I will not!
Person #2: Once again, just because I wanted to sit at the counter and revise a short story on my phone instead of playing pool is NOT a reason to keep on insisting that I try some new medication!
Person #1: I tell my clients the same thing though, it helps!
Person #2: Mam, I am NOT your client, and you have to respect that. You have to respect the fact that there’s not just “one way” of doing stuff.
Person #1: But my way is better and I’m a professional.
Person #2: You are having a power trip while under the influence of alcohol and the type of training you have is only one way of allegedly trying to address mental health struggles which I have the right to avoid if I feel it’s not going to help me. Please stop.
Person #1: But I’m not just going to let you suffer.
Person #2: There you go again, trying to fool me into thinking that you’re the one who I “need” to become “saved” by and—
Person #1: I’m not trying to fool you!!
Person #2: Okay but still you’re not respecting my decision to return to more drug free inner peace development practices such as meditation. And you’re just continuing to harass me..
Person #1: But the drugs will help get you to meditate!
Person #2: They will also give me additional problems, and I have and can find and sustain more inner peace without what you’re trying to sell..
Person #1: I’m not trying to sell you anything!!
Person #2: You say you “care” yet you’re just totally dismissing everything that I am telling you! How is that supposed to help me trust you!?
Person #1: You are misinformed!!
Person #2: Oh you are so wrong.. You now sound like your main goal is to just make more money than you need or to just boost your ego by having control of others.. And you have a problem with me exercising my free right to decide to try NOT conforming to the mainstream narrative that I must “always” take psychiatric medication even when it’s truly NOT an emergency and even when I truly can find other alternatives to help myself.
Person #1: Well, do people take stuff when they’re ill..?
Person #2: You seriously think that me innocently wanting to spend time by myself in the corner for one night automatically “implies” that I have an “illness”.. What in the—
Person #1: Well it’s harm prevention!!
Person #2: Mam, I’m very capable of being a decently functioning individual without the treatment that you’re trying to force on me which I highly feel will do nothing but ultimately worsen my problems!
Person #1: You know what, I think I’m just going to call an ambulance, you need help!!
Person #2: You are violating my human rights by forcing me a so-called “treatment” that I don’t need! This is NOT an emergency!! You are violating my human rights!! Please, respect my rights!! Respect my human rights!!

Person #2 eventually becomes heavily sedated, strapped down and taken away.. He never wakes up.

Person #1: I’m actually fine by myself, thanks though!!
Person #2: But you can’t be by yourself!
Person #1: I’m getting help, thanks.
Person #2: But I’m worried about you..
Person #1: Mam, please leave me alone.
Person #2: I’m not going to do that. Nope.
Person #1: Well, it now sounds like you’re trying to boss me around.
Person #2: No, I’m trying to help!
Person #1: And I’m trying to request being left alone, and you’re not doing that.
Person #2: Because you need help.
Person #1: Mam, I have support, may you please leave me alone?
Person #2: No, I will not, you’re coming with me. Let’s go!!
Person #1: Huhhhhh…