(Genre: Short play/Dialogue Practice)
(Note: Please do NOT take this personally, it is meant to be lighthearted, thanks!!)

Person #1: Look, you have to make some changes. You can’t keep letting your mind hold you back. Because it will do that, I’m telling ya.
Person #2: Yeah haha I—
Person #1: Why are you laughing!?
Person #2: No I’m just—
Person #1: Just what!?
Person #2: I don’t—
Person #1: You’re not doing what I’m telling you. You really have to get yourself to relax. It’s not good getting all anxious like you are.
Person #2: Yep. Anxiety will only work against me.
Person #1: So why are you allowing it to do that!?

Person #2 starts breathing heavily again..

Person #1: You really need some friends, that’s what you need.
Person #2: Yeah maybe I’m holding back because people have hurt me even if they didn’t mean to.
Person #1: So find other friends!
Person #2: I know.
Person #1: You know but you’re not doing it.
Person #2: Yep.
Person #1: Did you drive?
Person #2: Yes.
Person #1: Do you get anxious when you drive?
Person #2: Not really.
Person #1: So why are you getting anxious with me?
Person #2: Social situations are more triggering.
Person #1: Yeah but if you can relax when driving you can relax around people right?
Person #2: Yes.
Person #1: So why are you still anxious?
Person #2: Because people haven’t been nice towards me so I get anxious around them.. Yet I just have to keep reminding myself that I can’t expect much from them because when I do they let me down far more often than not.
Person #1: Well maybe it’s something you’re doing that’s causing them to treat you that way? Ever thought of that?
Person #2: I guess..
Person #1: I’m not saying it’s “your fault”, even if you don’t do anything at all people will still pick on you to try feeling better about themselves.
Person #2: I know.
Person #1: There’s so many young people killing themselves because of being bullied. It’s horrible!
Person #2: It really is.
Person #1: If I was being bullied I’d ask myself “what am I doing that’s causing me to get bullied..?”, and usually we’re not doing anything at all, it’s the bully’s problem, not ours.
Person #2: Oh yes.
Person #1: People can be very nasty, I’ll tell ya that.
Person #2: Oh I know exactly what you’re saying.
Person #1: So find other people to spend time with.
Person #2: I’m trying yet I keep finding the wrong people. I just can’t let their meanness define me.
Person #1: But you are letting them define you!
Person #2: I know.
Person #1: I know you know. You’re smarter than you realize. And you just have to start applying it more, because right now you’re not doing anything.
Person #2: I know.
Person #1: So do it.
Person #2: I will.
Person #1: What do you do in your free time? Sleep?
Person #2: I still sometimes practice juggling as a hobby after I quit baseball—
Person #1: Baseball? What position did you play?
Person #2: I played second base and in general I did better in practice because I’d get too anxious in games.
Person #1: No one tried to help you reduce your anxiety?
Person #2: Aside from my parents some people tried to help—
Person #1: People are stupid, they really are.
Person #2: My coach called me stupid.
Person #1: That’s terrible! No wonder you’re struggling! You’ve been around all the wrong people!
Person #2: I know and several people who tried to help didn’t realize how much worse they were making it.
Person #1: Yeah people will do that. And there’s so many bad people out there.
Person #2: I know.
Person #1: How do you know?
Person #2: Because of all the bad experiences I’ve had with—
Person #1: I’m only kidding.
Person #2: I know.
Person #1: If I ask you if I helped you by talking with me then you’ll probably say I “did” even though I didn’t.
Person #2: You helped.
Person #1: See, you just lied right there.
Person #2: I didn’t lie.
Person #1: Please start making some changes.
Person #2: I’m trying to write again.
Person #1: Writing?
Person #2: Yes.
Person #1: So write then.
Person #2: Yes.

Person #1 kindheartedly laughs.

Person #1: I’ll see ya next week.
Person #2: Later.

Person #2 exits the premises.

(Genre: Short Dialogue Practice (Please do not take this personally, thanks))

Person #1: Do you have a spiritual practice?
Person #2: I’m trying to get back into meditating.
Person #1: I have to wake up for church tomorrow.
Person #2: I hope God is unconditionally loving.
Person #1: Why the hell would you say that!? Of course he is!! If he didn’t love us then why would he have created us!?
Person #2: Well if I go to hell for not being of a certain organized religious affiliation then that sounds conditional.
Person #1: You won’t go to hell.
Person #2: Thanks.
Person #1: So what are you?
Person #2: I’ve been reading books on meditation. I would say that regardless if there’s a creative higher power or not we’re all deeply spiritually inseparable.
Person #1: What the hell is that supposed to mean?
Person #2: So what I’m trying to say is—
Person #1: Well let me ask you this, does it work for you?
Person #2: Yes.
Person #1: Okay, then keep at it.
Person #2: Right.

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(Note: Please do NOT take this personally, it is meant to be light-hearted, thanks!!)

Genre: Dialogue Practice/A short play

Person #1: Why are you anxious!?
Person #2: Because you’re getting mad at me for being anxious..
Person #1: No!!

Person #2 starts breathing even more heavily..

Person #1: Now you’re getting even more anxious!!
Person #2: Because you’re getting even more angry at me for being anxious.
Person #1: So don’t let it get to you!!!

Person #2’s breathing becomes even heavier..

Person #1: RELAX!!!
Person #2: You’re making it worse!!
Person #1: No I’m not!!
Person #2: Yes you are.
Person #1: Why can’t you just take my advice!!?
Person #2: I’m trying yet I’m just more emotionally hyper-reactive!
Person #1: So chill out man!! Just do it!!
Person #2: I’m trying!!
Person #1: Doesn’t seem like it..
Person #2: Huhhhh..

Aside from those who never find and sustain a level of inner peace required to become more kind and decent people,
so many who do,
happen to do so far after they brutally repeatedly stepped on me and cut me out of their lives,

And if I can’t avoid more assholes along any path I may continue to stumble down,
All I can do is stand back up,
While trying to find more peaceful balance,
along any form and level of treacherous conditions,
of which I’m forced to travel

Even if I become the next (infamous) internet star of a “Public Freakout” video,
At least I tried to put myself out there socially,

Even if I get triggered that leads to getting knocked out,
At least I tried getting myself out there socially,

Even if I receive far more bullying and if I unintentionally make far more people uncomfortable,
At least I tried,
Being more social,

Even if I encounter way more that feel to be straight up toxic for me..,
At least I tried to better myself socially,

Even if I wind up far worse as a result,
At least I tried to once again leave my comfort zone,
To put myself out there socially

(Note: As always, please do NOT take this personally, thanks!),

I feel that for example;

(Pertaining to whichever others I might also agree with in this case..(or whoever this could pertain to)),

Just because we “agree”..,
Does NOT mean they’ll be more “welcoming” towards me,

Just because we “agree”,
Does NOT mean they won’t blame me for stuff I did NOT cause and am NOT perpetuating,

Just because we “agree”,
Does NOT mean they’ll be any less eager to hurtfully mess with me,

Just because we “agree”,
Does NOT mean they’ll be any less nasty,

Just because we “agree”,
Does NOT mean their behavior and peer pressure will be any less toxic (and/or dangerous),

Just because we “agree”,
Does NOT mean their presence will be any better for me,

Just because we “agree”,
Does NOT mean they’ll fairly return the kindness that I gave towards them,

Just because we “agree”,
Does NOT mean they’re any more safe and trustworthy,

So (therefore) all I can do,
Is to try to focus on my own internal peaceful development,
And waste less and less energy,
on those who I can’t change nor who will ever be open to changing,
Regardless of how much we ever feel to “agree”

I feel that,
For example;

Although political issues can manifest infinitely in infinite ways to also be analyzed,
all I can focus on is what’s most directly threatening my survival (on whichever micro and/or macro level(s) of whichever form(s)) in the present moment,

Speaking for myself (as always),
For example,
The MORE I try to deeply consciously comprehend several books and articles on various different topics at once,
The MORE likely my thinking will become increasingly scattered and disorganized,
REDUCING chances of remaining able to help myself and/or whoever by trying to share any thoughts and/or feelings of which I may presently regard as helpful (or for whichever reasons),

So essentially,
For example,
the MORE that I focus on one topic and/or viewpoint at a time,
the MORE (likely) I will deeply understand that one particular viewpoint (pertaining to whatever it is),
Especially (for example) since I’ll (more likely) remain LESS distracted by several all at the same time,

So may I notice my breath and internal emotional reactions,
so they LESS likely trigger myself off track,
Such as when focusing on emotionally intense controversial viewpoints..,

And even if the issue is urgent yet does not directly affect me (as an individual) to the same form and level of severity as other issues might (presently),
all I therefore feel I must (at least try to) practice is focusing on one thing at a time,
which (I feel) also of course pertains to anything,
such as whatever I might ever want to share in writing and/or (in this case) blog posting,

Therefore,
Since (I feel that) it’s all infinite,
I can’t ever get to “all of it”,
And I can’t ever “perfectly” describe any of it because it can (therefore) always become more clearly described (infinitely),

So therefore,
may I reduce pressure to perfectly do “everything” to therefore increase my chances of accessing (or reaccessing) more longer lasting internal peaceful awareness beneficial for myself and/or whoever and however I’m presently at least attempting to also act as a helpful force for,
as I of course,
Continue to try to deeply,
Clearly and peacefully,
Sustain focus,
on one thing,
at a time

(Credit: Speaker: Eckhart Tolle, Website: YouTube, Date Published: December 31st, 2020, YouTube channel: “Eckhart Tolle”, Video Link: https://youtu.be/z04JLGnFO48?si=royM8eC5CoONZOFV)

For example;

Just because I quit drinking (or doing it way less) does NOT mean I “want” to spend my whole life juggling and moving boxes..,

Just because I quit drinking does NOT mean I “want” to be on heavy prescriptions,
and it does not mean I “want” to become naked in the woods..,

Just because I quit drinking does NOT mean it’ll be any easier to experience a life that feels more fulfilling..,

Just because I quit drinking does NOT mean I “want” to spend money on and conform to some belief system,
Controversial ideology NOR program that claims to “help”,

Just because I quit drinking does NOT mean I “prefer” bird watching,
Just because I quit drinking does NOT mean that I won’t find another activity painfully boring,

Just because I quit drinking does NOT mean I’ll “cut everyone off” who have provided me true emotional support when drinking,

Just because I quit drinking does NOT mean I’ll find any group of people (also committed to not drinking) as “like-minded”,
trustworthy NOR kind and healing,

Just because I quit drinking does NOT mean I “prefer” how I felt before ever drinking,

Just because I quit drinking does NOT mean it’ll feel any easier to experience a life I prefer experiencing,

So INSTEAD of going back to drinking,
I can remember to practice at least trying,
To heal the causes of all the drinking that I’m now strongly committing to continue avoiding,

So although I’m no longer drinking,
It does NOT mean I “prefer” the sober life I felt to be previously experiencing,
And (speaking for myself) it does NOT mean different drugs (and/or psychiatric prescriptions) are the “most important” path to what’s preferably fulfilling,
So INSTEAD,
I can create a new life,
That’s therefore,
Far more fulfilling,

And even if I’m “not” doing that now,
Well,
There’s still a lot of other stuff I’d especially rather NOT be doing,
In addition,
To all the previous harmful levels of alcohol consuming,

And although I might not always sufficiently practice what I feel and have felt to be healing,
Well,
At least I’m still going

(Note: As always please do not take this personally and as always thanks for reading!! Genre: A short play/dialogue practice)

Person #1: I want to be treated kindly.
Person #2: Bro I literally am kind to you stop blowing shit out of proportion.
Person #1: Right there, I express feelings, and then you criticize me for feeling how I feel, which if anything makes me feel worse..
Person #2: What the fuck are you even saying!?
Person #1: That I feel worse every time I reach out to you, when instead a good friend would help me feel better after reaching out.
Person #2: Then reach out to someone else.
Person #1: Everyone else cut me off!!
Person #2: So stop acting crazy.
Person #1: Wow you’re a great friend you know that!?
Person #2: I’m saying it as it is.
Person #1: Well you can say it as it is in a nicer way.
Person #2: How?
Person #1: Instead of “you’re crazy”, possibly, “I know it’s hard feeling that people are mean to you and I’m sorry, how can I help?”
Person #2: Yeah but that’s not what you need to hear.
Person #1: What I’m now hearing is that you’re pissed off and you’re looking to try feeling better by making me feel even more down so you can therefore feel even more above me.
Person #2: You’re not making any sense.
Person #1: I’m making perfect sense. You just can’t admit that you’re also toxic for me like so many others.
Person #2: Dude just stop..
Person #1: I will.. Now fuck off you asshole!!

Person #1 ends the video call and blocks Person #2.

(Request: As always, please do NOT take this personally. The names have been randomly selected. They therefore do NOT represent anyone I know in person.
Genre: Dialogue Practice/Short Play (I guess(?))
Acknowledgment: Thank you for reading this!! I deeply appreciate the support!!)

Meanwhile, at a small social get together in the living room..

Ned: You don’t talk much do you?
Max: What the hell is that supposed to mean!?
Seth: Yo!!
Terry: Yeah man what the fuck is with you!?
Max: I’m not just going to let this dickhead make me even more self-conscious in front of everyone!!
Ned: I really didn’t mean it like that.
Max: You did. And even if—
Ned: Dude no I seriously did not trust me!!
Max: You’re just saying that because I confronted y—
Seth: Max!!
Max: Let me fini—
Terry: Max please just ch—
Max: I’m NOT going to “chill” when he’s talking shit!! I didn’t meet you all at this get together to be hurtfully criticized in front of everyone!! And I’m trying not to drink and none of you are helping by being assholes!!
Ned: Bro I literally didn’t mean it like that!!
Max: But you did! And even if you truly “didn’t” it still was NOT okay!!
Terry: Max!! Please stop!!
Max: I will NOT!!! Because I’m sick of being made fun of and angrily criticized for being quiet!! Like you have no idea how many times people have been mean towards me for being quiet!! I’m sick of not receiving the amount of kindness I deserve in return! I’m sick of so many others getting mad at me when I try kindly joining in on conversations! I’m just sick of being nice to please others who treat me like shit! It’s truly NOT fair for me!! I really need to at least attempt to stand up for myself even if I don’t always perfectly “diffuse” the tension because I’d rather fail than in this case keep taking bullshit in addition to all the other meanness that I NEVER deserved!!
Ned: Bro just get out..
Max: I will fuck you up!!
Ned: Do I need to call the police!?
Max: Do whatever the fuck you want I don’t give a fuck!!

Max flips a card table and then storms out of Ned’s house while all his friends ignore his tantrum and then later on decide to cut him off.