Teacher: If our creative goals interfere with our ability to empathetically welcome others, then our paranoia might decide to tell us, all we forget to thank them for. Student: And where did you create that yuh wise ass!? Teacher: Sorry it was just a— Student: Internal narcissistic realization. Teacher: Possibly, however.. Student: Yes.., we know we can pass it along in ways you secretly failed to! Teacher: And then there came the— Student: Let’s just walk out.. Teacher: Hey!! All the students: Bye!! Administrator: Sir!! If you can’t control them, then we’ll be watching you!! Teacher: You already do!! You have cameras and portable screens everywhere!! Just.. Just.. Administrator: What!!? Teacher: You got the WRONG guy!!

Resource scarcity, fossil fuels, opposing gravitational forces circulating around a circle of circles, policed by hovering dashboards, suppressed by innocent chalkboards, .., what else..? I’ll have to searrrch for the shelter, because I doooo.. NOT know.. okay, okay, where must I go..(?), why don’t the credentials tell me.., when will my impulses allow my choices free..(?), these paths of previous strict decisions are just not guiding me.., Ahh!! Okay we get, it already, shit, I miss that movie.., so here is a source, creative citation of course: (Please, tech-savvy individuals, if you wish to hack this, please do NOT escalate misunderstandings into violence, THANKS!; (URL #1: https://youtu.be/wmDQKckFuk8, URL #2: https://youtu.be/7j7SOVQDfDg, Creds: Seth Macfarlane (Family Guy), and Bruce Cockburn (Song: “If a Tree Falls”)), May you algorithms keep us safe.

(Genre: Please try NOT to take this personally, and to be honest, I’m Not precisely Sure.., and as many appear to say, the “benefit of the doubt” I’d much appreciate)..,

For example: In my present perceptions, I feel that: I can remind myself of internal body stress reduction practices, because, the more I may impulsively accidentally ask those for help who are just as UNaware or LESS aware than me, the more irritated I might more likely become, as a result of receiving more critical advice that leads myself and those criticizing others to nowhere. I feel this also comes down to my presently held belief that criticism, with zero suggestions on how to improve, does NOT guarantee progress, and therefore (however often) can severely worsen someone’s ability to function (for example). So as long as I continue to encounter instances along the lines of this, (for example), may I remind myself to notice my breathing and internal expanding contracting internal body emotional and physical sensations with less resistance to reduce pain. And if I continue to mess up, I hope the criticism I receive comes from a clear and welcoming source, so I can more likely develop a clearer and more capable internal force.

Coworker #1: Shut your mouth! Coworker #2: What happened to freedom of sharing internal personal-realizations..? Coworker #1: Take your medication! If it works for me it’ll work for you! Coworker #2: I thought we’re all “individuals”. Coworker #1: Yeah well as for everyone who tried it, it worked for them! Coworker #2: Still? Coworker #1: What do you think you fucking idiot!? Coworker #2: I think you’re a psychiatric addict. Coworker #1: Well if no one has heard of those “bad side effects” that you’re claiming “will happen” then what can go wrong!!? Coworker #2: How would any of us know if we were EXCLUDED from learning the chemical balancing equations..? Coworker #1: You were NOT excluded!! You just didn’t want to study!! Coworker #2: So where do you find “truth”.., in YouTube comment sections? Coworker #1: I read books!! Coworker #2: Which ones, how to formulate belief systems of those who are too overwhelmed by life’s expectations to have the remaining ability to think clearly!!? Coworker #1: Everyone’s got an opinion.. Coworker #2: And it’s easy to change the subject when you’re too scared to admit that those brand name drugs you and your friends sold to my mom who then couldn’t afford better treatment of my developing fetus gave so much pain and suffering to me and my family. Look at what you did to us!! Look at what you did to us!! Coworker #1: Stop being self-absorbed. You think it’s all about you and your “story”. Coworker #2: And you think you know everything I feel and think. Coworker #1: There you go again, you’re bringing it back to you.. Coworker #2: And you’re bringing it back to thinking you “know” everything and that you believe there’s “nothing else to learn” in order to brainwash me into becoming your slave!! Coworker #1: Nahhhh man.. you tweakin, and you’re a racist. Coworker #2: What tha— Coworker #1: Shut up, you think we’re “all like that” haaah..? Coworker #2: Dude.. fuck off!! Coworker #1: What.., are going to “cancel” my freedom of expression old man wise ass? Coworker #2: Let’s just change the subject.. Coworker #1: Ohh you said it..

Boss: Why.. do you keep spacing out!?

Coworker #2: Fuck off.

Boss: Get out!!!!!

Sargent Sarcastic: If you explain it you ruin it!! “Wait.. what was the joke?” Exactly, you had to take us into the land of wasteful explanation due to your LACK of happy presently aware team spirit.. “Wait.. whuut”, “Wow..” I know.. “crazy right!?”.. Hypocritical emotional internal body healer: SHUT UP!!!!!!!!! Or I’ll label you as dumber.. than.. the most vegetated, least physical pain tolerated, ROCK!! Me: Shut your mouth. Follower: Yo we about to fuck you up kid!! Me: Yeah I know.. crazy right..?

(Genre: I would guess “Creative Dialogue”? And, I trust that no one will hack this against me.., Thanks!! And if I messed this up in some way, please, oh please offer me the (as many appear to say) “benefit of the doubt”, thanks again!!),

Detective force of analysis: The more we re-read, the more we can become our own internal revisionist.., and if I mess up, those from the tri-transit victimhood, might come to teach, and help me understand clearer, from a birds eye, higher in a safe space, where ozones do NOT trap emissions that suffocate NOR burn alive those who came before us.. what’s that..? It appears a force of “arrogance” has something to say: Please remember kindness. Okay, and sorry if this is too “off topic”, yet with all these mysterious algorithms and screenshots floating around, well.., I’d guess it can make sense if we may wonder if our screen got a cameo on another screen..? No..? Internal dialogue of executive functioning control: Stop bothering me!! I’m trying to craft some electricity!! Roadie: Looks like our amplifier distributors are on strike.. we gotta figure something else out.., what if we filled him with humans who appeared as actors, so he’ll then believe he “improvised” his way into Hollywood..? Other dude: Bahahahahaha!! Driver: Shit! Shit! Narrator: And then.. boom!!

(Hypothetical Imagination(s).. I guess?)

I’m sorry if reading this would add to chances of ACCIDENTALLY spreading more theory of delusional conspiracy, resulting in division of previously held peacefully intertwined forces of welcoming INCLUSIVE teamwork, essential for the survival of sentient beings manifesting on the surface of deeply infinitely inseparable life spirit:

Random person: You’re full of shit!!

Me: Sorry! Sorry! I didn’t.. okay that force walked away.

In my present internally held opinion:
Although frightening human history,
media micro and/or macro horror stories,
sleep deprivation,
resulting in painful internal overloaded sensory and emotional stimulation,
resulting in UNDERSTANDABLE paranoia,
still does NOT always justify forcing harmful drugs into someone just because (before meeting any of them) their surface level appearance appears “threatening”,

And if we still feel too scared to try getting to know any of these individuals we may be deeply afraid of, well,
I guess we can keep an eye on them, without avoiding them,
and WITHOUT excessively depriving their freedom of privacy,
if we truly believe,

And well,
if anyone is concocting fake acts of violence in order to scare and/or tear people apart..,
please try your best to find the deep internal peace to feel a need to REDUCE those kinds of consistent elaborate impulsive concoctions..,

And I’m sorry for hypo-preaching,
This just feels within me,
If my perceptions are perceiving correctly,
Another passing tidal wave of emotion,
Hoping to NEVER AGAIN form into a rogue wave of internal imagination dream like delusion while awake and vulnerable to greater forces sadistically judgmental,

As always,
I feel I must remain internally clear enough to remain fairly safe enough,

Yup,
Tis rough

(Genre: Creative Fiction (I guess))

Healer: How have you been feeling..?

Client: I know I’m also presently bad at this, or.. okay never mind.. I guess(?) I presently feel that: If spiritual essence does NOT openly acknowledge someone’s’ inseparable sentient beingness, such as through quitting too easily on welcoming them into its exclusive company, then well, if we have NOT learned it’s secretive natural internal accumulated emotional trauma healing practices such as the most “precise” forms of “noticing” naturally flowing “internal” healing “starting with breathing”, well, if this “ultimate spiritual essence” does NOT share its’ so-called “enlightened” breath work precision and becomes so exclusively controlling, make sure that, this spiritual essence does NOT deprive OUR inclusive welcoming fresh air that tears our multi-spirit-being essense apart. May we avoid the force of fearful automatic violent chain reaction imbalanced dysfunction so we do NOT suffer additional side effects of fearfully forced medication, prescribed down the mountain top of those with similar internal desperation..? Well..? Now what..?

Healer: Now I know you don’t like advice, but how does this relate to you..?

Me: I’m manic again..

Healer: Okay, you’re safe, I know stuffs a mess out there, but right now, we’re here, yet I’ll ask you a question.. Do you trust me..?

Me: Yes.

Healer: Okay so can you describe a scenario in which you would feel unsafe..?

Me: Well, I know I have been rhyming a lot, yet I know it comes down to that..

Healer: In time we’ll emerge shielded out of this pointless dark frightening and unpredictable well.. so you’re manic again..?

Me: Yep.

(Genre: Creative Writing)

Apathy: “Dude just let it go..”,

Anger/Jealousy and confusion: When more likable sentient manifestations, implicitly whisper how they’re more educated and cooler..
ohhh..,
that makes me mad..,
but I just need to chill..,
wow,
it seems,
These hateful assumptions, can drive us down in our head..
and burn deeper and deeper,
the more our internal force of entitlement,
feels excluded..,

Confusion: What..? How can you feel two emotions at once..?

Apathy: Dude why worry about it..? Just focus on yourself.

Fear: Ahhhhh!!

Apathy: Just take some time off, they’ll pay you..

Peace: Let’s all chill the energy field out to have more foundational internal body clearance so we have some respect for those who came before us while we presently try once again, to sustain more inclusive technological advancement.

Narrator: But will it actually happen..? Will painful lessons teach or damage? And within which sentient/emotional/physical/inseparable form(s) and/or degree(s)..? Well, I hope to remain safe from elaborate admirable manipulation, but I still feel apprehension.., okay never mind.

And I guess what I have to say is that (I feel that) worrying is an energy force that isolates me from helping heal stuff that’s holding me back that which NEEDS attention for myself and others..?

And I feel that when we do NOT see any appreciation from others as a result of our efforts to help, then that lack of awareness within ourselves would underdably produce anger in my present guess with this level of awareness..?

Confusion: Okay I’m done.

Mental dialogue:

Three,
Two,
One..,

Action:

Actor: Is it true that the more we sidetrack into the giggles, the more off track our attention span becomes..?
Actor: Dude.. it fucking depends on how quickly we return with all our most deeply essential gear!
Actor: Shit!!
Same Actor: Shit!!
Actor: What!!?
Actor: I forgot.

UNorganized thought:

“What if I think that:
“If forces of exclusion perpetually threaten and strike fear into others to whichever form(s) and/or degree(s), the insecure ego may not give itself up as it fearfully climbs the hierarchy”,

And what if:
“I stay up philosophizing all night”,

Then:
“I would guess that my thinking will scatter all over the place, my physical health would fall apart, and my survival awareness would deteriorate to the point of relying on others who I may (unfortunately) have a deep distrust for. As, their team tries to figure out how to either, prevent me from hurting their group, OR.., healing the source of what went wrong..?”,

Unless:
“I can find a viable internal relaxation path while sufficiently proceeding along fair zones of comfort”,”,

More organized thought:

“The MORE I fear those I’m around, the MORE I’ll do whichever my presently externally influenced perceptions tell me is most fair for myself and others”.

CONCLUSION:

“More words does NOT always imply a greater force of intelligence”.

Deeper conclusion in my present opinion:

Forces of life manifest in mysterious forms of inseparableness, and that’s just another present personal guess..(?).

And if people arrogantly fail and don’t stop trying to correct me, then well, I hate to conclude that, my ego, might more likely, become its own, vengeful officer of corrections.., UNLESS I can find more internal peaceful intent that was made evident back when I was young.., but that peer pressure just.., sadly, happened to arrive.

Other idiot: “Hey! Are you referring to me!!?”

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