Thought: Yuh know what..?
Deeper spirit: Yes..?
Thought: I do not know either..?
Mental dialogue master: SAY IT!!
Deeper spirit: Well, I’m a little tired of uh..?
Imaginary Audience: Yes..?
Another thought: Being a..,

Imaginary Band: “wuh wuh wuh wuh..?”,

Deeper spirit: A “SNOWFLAKE!!”,

Imaginary Audience: Why!?

The ego: Because I couldn’t tolerate the fire before the torture..

Thought: And what does this have to—
Deeper spirit: Well let me tell you..,

Higher power: Wait wait wait start over!!

Thought: Dammit we lost our amplifier!!?

Deeper spirit: Ahhhh.. It must have been that narcissistic insatiable power seeking creator!!

The deeper spirit searches within..

Deeper spirit: Wait! Wait! Wait..

And then the lights go out..

Deeper spirit: Fucking dammit!!

(Genre: Imaginary Dialogue.. or..?)

Teacher: If pain just wants to have others “feel” itself, then all it will seek to give, is, more pain..
Student #1: But what if it’s been cooled off..?
Teacher: But what if we’re using literal terms to preserve common sense..?
Student #2: Hey stop it!!
Teacher: Ya know what..?
Student #3: You know exactly what!!?
Teacher: Oh that’s it!!

Pause..

Teacher: It was just a passing feeling I wanted to share that—
Student #4: Led us to nowhere..
Student #5: Duuuuuude!!!!

The teaching assistant mumbles to himself..

Teaching assistant: Fucking spontaneous imitation forces of cognitive regression..

Teacher: Never mind!

An administrator walks in..

Administrator: Ummm.. no yelling please.
Teacher: How was the trip..?
Administrator: Like I’d tell you!
Teacher: You see kids, arrogance and fear increase power, such as my relationship here with this administrator..
Student #6: Hey that’s my Dad!!
Teacher: Yuh know what..? I’m out.
Student #7: You good?
Teacher: No, I’m not.

The teacher slams the door, steps into his honorary crafted spacecraft. Then, travels to a galaxy of resources which infinitely reproduce forces of internal, peaceful, non-quitting spirit, including vast amounts of interdependent forces of deeper inseparable forces of matter and space, that don’t mutually bust ass down another avoidable shithole.

(Genre: Not sure..),

In my present guess:

Kindness of manipulation might remain waiting..(?),
While,
It tries to feed off of..,
REAL kindness..,

Okay, here’s something else I tried typing here on this iPhone:

I guess?
That..,
The commonly used saying according to my present perceptions based from as far down as I can see within myself..,

Huhh..,

I guess that..?
“Slow” and/or “Steady” wins the race,
Because,
The less pressured we feel,
The more deserving we appear,
And therefore:
The more others will gravitate towards us..,

And may we appreciate their help,
Regardless,
Of how much their wisdom has remained with them,
Over the years,
At any ages,

And although my ego wants to tell UNhelpful critical forces to “shut the derailing fuck up!!”,
In order for me to remain less anxious,
More confident,
Clear and able to understand,
All I thought I could not,
Largely because of accumulated painfully distracting reprimands,
That served to build a bridge of hope within myself,
That could NEVER perfectly stand,

Of course I would not be able to find peace within an inconsiderate loud narcissistic band..,

Yet,
Well,
At least I now feel more internally in command,
And may the good spirit within me,
Rise!!
And this time,
For real,
Remain more as a force of service to heal,

Sorry if reading the above made zero helpful sense,
Yet a lesson I wish to clearly convey,
Without another fancy figure of speech constructed to lyrically show off,
Is that well,
Sometimes when I’m under stress,
People,
Places,
Ideas,
Beliefs,
Rules,
Protocols,
And/or steps to follow,
Increases my descension into an egotistic victimhood that’s been diagnosed as anxiously lacking a helpful ability to pay attention

(Genre: Creative Writing in the form of Stanzas)

I feel it can,
Be like:
“Can we fairly sufficiently,
actually remain peaceful..?
While not irritating those under stress..?
While communicating through a force of clear direction(s)..?”

Or will people appear to keep communicating through fancy forms of implication(s)..?
What many consider as “truth” interpretations and “accurate” translations..?
While binding together out of dangerous, emotionally dysregulated and sensory overloaded assumptions..?
I don’t know..?

Yet sometimes,
(if not often),
My assumptions of others’ assumptions,
Frightens me,
Causing (speaking for myself) additional sleep deprivation,
Emotional dysregulation,
And making me more vulnerable to becoming a victim of a brutal and elaborate system(s) of justification underlying basic assumptions and degrees of unconscious perpetual attempts to distract others into apathy,

Yep,
Regardless of claimed intentions,
I fear,
Becoming a victim of horrific experimentation(s),

Yet as of now,
Maybe I need to try to cool off all this cognitive snowballing to reduce the chances of it spirling into deep pointlessly paranoid imagination(s)..?

And once again,
In the fairest,
Safest ways possible,
Venture out of feelings of isolation

(Genre: Creative Fiction (I guess..(?)),

Hypothetically:
Or “Possibly”(?),
I would guess:

As for forces of exclusive resource organization,
Those types of organization(s),
Possibly could,
with LESS fear,

Capture horrifically painful emotional and/or physical reality on camera,
The MORE the exclusive resource providing film/entertainment production organization(s),
Provides a resourceful,
economic safety net,
To those who are largely individually and/or collectively portrayed in their production(s),

Yet regardless of films,
As for what else occurs behind the scenes of hidden hierarchies,
Presently,
I feel to lack the present courage to ATTEMPT to peacefully and safely expose..,

Because as many appear to (I would guess..(?)) say,
How does “who the fuck” really know..?
So who is “who the fuck”?
I don’t know ?

I just hope stuff starts making more sense,
So I can feel LESS fooled into helping horrific nonsense IF..,
That’s the “reality”

(Genre: Creative Writing)

For the peace and safety of myself and others,
My perceptions feel a need to ask myself that:

“What are my perceptions carrying within this physical life energy form I’m presently manifesting in?”,
Accumulated perceptions of meanness from others?
Accumulated perceptions of feeling socially excluded?
Resulting in feeling more deeply isolated?
Adding to a snowball effect of internal anger that’ll more likely publically verbally blast out at the next sentient individual(s) who my present perceptions tell me; “provoked me deliberately”?

Are my perceptions there to help me?
Or are they now within me,
To make me additionally appear as “emotionally overstimulated” and out of control?
And therefore causing my choices and/or decisions to receive even MORE threats and/or rejections?

I guess there’s infinite forms,
Degrees,
And/or lessons to learn from our internal perceptions?

And I wish for more peaceful internal individual and collective inclusive advancing intentions,

And according to my present perceptions:

“We’re infinitely,
Inseparable,
To whichever degree and/or form,
Of solid and space,
And I’m still,
Trying,
To keep up,
At a fair and expected (and I think this rhyme is expected because it rhymes with “space”) which is therefore,
Pace”

For whoever’s reading this, please do NOT take this personally. Please do NOT give out your social security number, because the recipient(s) might find out and show up uninvited..?

Partygoer #1: Who’s they?
Partygoer #2: Is it.. they/them/theirs..?
Partygoer #3: No idea.., just.., what does this human sentient spiritually inseparable creature appear as..?
Security Officer: We do NOT know! We hope that this spiritual essence does NOT show up UNinvited, and I will tell you something else, his name is..

The DJ becomes still as the security officer receives a phone call.

Security Officer: Uh huh? Uh huh? Okay okay. They call him Jack..? Yes, I got it, thanks. Everyone! Put your drinks down and please exist in an organized linear fashion!

The partygoers successfully evacuate. The security officer struggles to find the dangerous suspect, and tries to calm him down..

Security officer: Do you love yourself..?

The suspect named Jack responds..

Jack: Ummmm.. what..?

Security officer: We’re trying to help you kid!!

Jack: You sure you got the right guy..?

Security officer: Oh I am sure..

Jack: Well.., I was just tryna stop by for a—

The security officer guns Jack down before he has a chance to say that he was only trying to stop by for a drink. And then, the real predator emerges.

Security officer: Shit!! Shit!!

Executive Security Team: We thought you were going to feed us!!?

Security officer: And I thought you ate already!?

A convoy of automatic driving Monster Trucks wait outside..

Executive Security Team: Well, do you want to join us or not!!?

Security Officer: What about us humans!? What about us!!?

Executive Security Team: We’ll take care of it..

Security Officer: What about nuclear destruction and inevitable resource reduction among inevitably increasing overpopulation!?

Executive Security Team: We’re going to work together, we’re an inseparable force of solid, space, artificial and naturally occurring essence of stillness that manifests in infinite forms and degrees of movement on the civilized surface.

The security officer bows down and surrenders, as the executives welcome him, to their team.

In my present BELIEF: Convincing inflection(s) can be the most believable verbal and emotional deception(s), will others chit chat on the dashboard..? then jump out with their parachutes and/or sneak through another chute, to recreate an exclusive EXecutive secret organization of selfish history..? I have just zero helpful ideas presently..

For example:

A fear I have,
Is that,
If the often question/response to shared well-intentioned ideas,
internal realizations and/or reading material is along the feelings of:
“So what do you do for a living?”,

One possible dangerous implication by the questioner,
I fear,
(to whichever degree (and form) implicitly and/or directly),
could be the questioner trying to authoritatively assert that:
reading and/or any critical awareness expansion practice is to the questioner NOT “defined as” working,

Therefore,
This type of person,
(Might largely be presently holding the belief that: “critical intelligent awareness and/or trying to internally peacefully strengthen reading comprehension speed and stamina is regarded in their world view(s) as: ‘NOT working’”),
is largely being internally navigated by a force to dumb down and confuse the sentient multiverse,
That might serve as a dangerous disservice to himself,
and of course several surrounding others if the forces of elaborate closed-minded stupidity powerfully manipulatively exceed beyond a reasonable stress relief extent (for example..),

May forces of anxious intelligence perpetually REDUCE their anxiety,
In the face of any forms and/or levels of confident manipulative stupidity of any forms and/or degrees of insatiably pointlessly internally masochistic and externally sadistic insatiably power seeking authority

can’t be surround by the wrong ingredients within the the same labeled can, “Asperger’s Syndrome” is FAR more than I am, because, I owe it, to hang in there, among all those inseparable, who also care