I try to give people,
As many appear to say,
“the benefit of the doubt”,
and I also wish for their awareness to remain as clear and peaceful as needed,
to NOT take what I say personally,
in order to NOT react in a way that just takes us down the wrong way..
huhhh..,

What else must I waste time explaining..?
Can many still NOT see all that could be positively and/or neutrally implied!!?

Huhh..,
Why can’t people just chill out..(?),

I feel that:
Many people seem to be capable of so much..,
Yet they can’t just chill out..,

I just feel I have to,
Once again remind myself to,
Breathe…….,
Notice,
And add less tension,
To reduce chances of ever being a part of a pointless collective catastrophic emotional explosion..,

Huhhhh

I often feel that:

The only time I prefer to talk about work is during my work shift,

I’m like..,
“Why fill myself with more debilitating internal misery by talking about work that I have NOT yet learned to sufficiently appreciate!?”,
Why not first learn a way to have more fulfillment in the moment instead of talking about what I do NOT like in ways that does NOT teach me how to like it..(?),

And yeah so,
therefore,
a challenge I feel to often face,
is to NOT feel more sad and/or stressed when people ask me..,

“How’s work?”

As usual,
I try using the “I” statements to sound LESS closed-minded and LESS arrogantly opinionated while remaining more open to new realizations,
And therefore,
Presently,
I’d like to try communicating that my perceptions tell me I feel that:

Sometimes inevitable circumstances may have an effect (or effects) on our choices (or decisions) in ways out of our control (for however much better and/or worse),
And may we (therefore) practice peaceful acceptance of what we truly can NOT presently change (if ever),

I additionally presently feel that:

The more we resist what we can NOT change,
the more toxic pain we may add within (that will NEVER help us sufficiently discover NOR help us remember any truly important lesson(s)),
hence,
may we remind ourselves of the importance,
Of a foundational viable inner peaceful acceptance practice,
To ALSO do LESS excessive talking about and MORE for putting into sufficient consistent practice

(Source/Creative Citation: Eckhart Tolle, Book Title: “The Power of Now”, page 33, Publisher: New World Library, Year Published: 1997, Novato, California)

Presently I’d like to try communicating that I feel that:

For one,
I use “I” statements to try sounding LESS closed-minded and LESS arrogant,
And (therefore) I feel that:

For example: In whichever form of microcosmically and/or macro degree: Politics (in some sense) is everything we do and talk about since in some way and degree we function (or do NOT function) in ways that can be critiqued with strong opinions,

Presently I’d ALSO prefer to add that:

For example: Philosophy (in some sense) is everything we talk about because in some (macro or microcosmically) form and level we’re socially/emotionally exchanging/reacting through conversing pertaining to some level and in some form that’s indicative of a level of shallow and/or deep infinite true essence,

And in my belief,
what is true,
can be infinite,
in infinite ways

For one,
I kindly ask that this NOT be taken out of context in a way that largely endangers the safety of myself and/or whichever human sentient others..,
Okay..,

For example,
My perceptions are trying to communicate,
That I presently think(?) I feel that:

Throughout our collective and/or individual history,
(Which we may just have been negatively affected by UNIQUELY),
Such as resulting in,
Having lower self-esteem,
Significantly as a result,
Of somehow seeing people in power that appear as a separate group than our own (such as on TV or wherever in the mass media of readily available screens..),

So..(for example),
If this is largely the circumstance(s) that many (if not all) of us appear to frequently encounter,
How must we function more equally..(?),
Without (for example),
Narcissistically seeking “vengeance” because of how our present perceptions tell us that “we” (or “I”) have been emotionally/psychologically “wronged”..?

For example:
Will angrily judging those who “appear” to have it “easier” help to reduce dangerous tribalistic division..?
Will judging others based on their surface appearance help unite a racially diverse working class against a brutally racially diverse power structure..?
Will judging others largely based on their surface appearance help us safely inclusively adapt to a changing planet..?
Will psychologically equating anyone with certain others (and/or their ancestors or whoever they’re somehow “related” to within whichever context..) because of their physical surface appearance help reduce the extent in which we judge others by “the color of their skin”..?

For example,
(because they look the “same” (or similar)),
Will judging anyone as the “same” as the person we see on TV be increasing the extent to which we compassionately judge others by the “content of their character” INSTEAD of angrily judging them by their physical surface appearance (such as skin color)..?

I feel the obvious answer to that last above question is “NO!!!!!!!”,
Yet,
May humans learn to inclusively peacefully work together without repeating more horrific history in new NOR different forms,

And regardless of that,
In whichever ways that may work for whoever,
I just hope us humans can (and actually) REDUCE the extent(s) to which we may brutally judge each other,

(Source/Creative Citation: (And I could not figure out how to type in a “footnotes” format onto here..), Martin Luther King Jr., “I Have A Dream” Speech, A mini slideshow/YouTube recording excerpt: https://youtube.com/shorts/jGghMeZJ2wY?feature=share, YouTube channel that uploaded the video/mini slideshow: “Lynxotic”, and I can NOT appear to presently find the exact date which the YouTube video “short” was uploaded, however, if I’m correct, the original speech took place on the day of: August 28th, 1963, during the “March on Washington”),

And I (therefore) ALSO have a dream,
To NOT feel severely IRreparably painfully judged,
By what those did,
Might presently be doing or trying to brutally fulfill,
who I just may look like and/or however be “related” to and/or assumed to be “connected” to..,

Assuming I got the link right and NO tech-savvy individuals try to (for whichever reason(s)) embarrass and/or somehow kill my reputation,
Here’s that video/mini slideshow excerpt of what I regard as inspiration once again:

(Source/Creative Citation: (And I could not figure out how to type in a “footnotes” format onto here..), Martin Luther King Jr., “I Have A Dream” Speech, A mini slideshow/YouTube recording excerpt: https://youtube.com/shorts/jGghMeZJ2wY?feature=share, YouTube channel that uploaded the video/mini slideshow: “Lynxotic”, and I can NOT appear to presently find the exact date which the YouTube video “short” was uploaded, however, if I’m correct, the original speech took place on the day of: August 28th, 1963, during the “March on Washington”),

Thanks for reading,
I hope this empathetically helpfully made sense

I guess I presently feel that..(?),
For example,
advice can be in whichever form and/or degree, sassy,
aggressive,
and/or may (often) come from any type of emotional energy field that’s emotionally painful and damaging,
INSTEAD of energy that’s clear and peacefully productive (for example),

May we therefore,
notice the bad energy field of any forms of UNhelpful advice pass through us,
Maybe lots of others’ advice comes from their insecure egos’ need to feel “superior” through instruction,
and,
if we consciously recognize this unconscious energy field within the other person,
maybe,
just maybe,
we’ll take their toxic energy field disguised as “helpful advice” LESS personally since we’ll see, to a greater degree,
that their UNconscious energy field does NOT resemble the “deepest” essence of reality,
which (I feel) happens to be infinite in infinite forms and/or “non-forms” (for example),

And even if what I typed here comes across as arrogant advice about handling advice (or narcissistic advice about handling advice about advice and so on..),
well,
(For example),
may this feel peacefully helpful INSTEAD of arrogantly hurtful,

And may advice be perpetually sufficiently compassionate and (therefore) truly clear and helpful without overwhelmingly additional toxic energy baggage,

Thanks for reading,
And I hope this helped with at least something

Hypothetically:

I’d say,
(For example),
If parents are being exploited and/or under more pressure than they’re presently able to handle,
From those however above,
Below and/or associated with them because of whatever,
And if the parents additionally carry accumulated degrees of physical/sensory/emotionally traumatized dysregulated internal baggage,
And have a child (or however many offspring) that they’re NOT prepared to raise,
They may UNcontrollably abuse that child,
Causing the child to do the same to other children,
Causing the child to get accused of bullying (and (therefore) more abused),
Causing any victim(s) of the child’s bullying to do the same to perceivably more vulnerable children and/or sentient beings because of learned social behavior,
So,
This whole hypothetical social/political/economic system,
I’d therefore regard as,
A system of abuse,
(And/or intertwined hierarchical systems of abuse (with decision makers at the top system of the lower and lower interdependent systems..)..),
That seeks to punish (and/or bully),
And results in perpetually greater punishment (and/or bullying) in response,

Instead of following,
Any foundational,
Viable,
Internal sensory/emotional/physical healing practice(s),

And for a start,
To keep trying to do my part,
I try to NOT take on more stress that I presently deeply feel UNable to handle (so I do NOT dangerously lose control),
while INSTEAD,
trying to continue with whichever viable stress reduction practice(s),
That I presently trust,
In order to increasingly help me handle myself and/or “carry more weight” for myself and/or whichever others may depend on me to fulfill that,

And well,
Speaking from my own accumulated personal experiences,
Punishment did NOT help me “find the light”,
Yet instead debilitated me in more fright,
So I also try to share what I hope to be helpful through certain stuff (such as this) that I write,
And yes,
Maybe my punished insecure ego might be trying to feel better for itself by trying to “beautifully” rhythmically piece together what I write,
Of course I may obsess over these rhymes..,
Okay okay..,
I think (and/or hope) the points to remember for myself and/or whoever presently cares are clear enough,

So yes,
Once again,
Punishment did NOT make me more “tough”,
It did NOT help me “wake up”,
It made me more shut down,
And emotionally/physically, sensory and I guess cognitively messed up and more vulnerable to being forced a treatment that ultimately makes stuff worse..,
So (also) may those in power remember to question their orders and/or beliefs they force onto those more vulnerable..,

May our struggle be LESS damaging and more rewarding,
And as always,

Thanks for reading!

If all who individually,
And/or collectively,
Surrounds,
Influences and controls me,
Leads by a perpetual dangerous example,
Of,
Out of control experimentation,
Of elaborately secretive equation(s) and heavily advertised readily available toxic temptations,
I might remain more vulnerable to follow and/or join with them,
Especially in moments of social/emotionally isolated desperation,
Because,
I just may feel I lack the time,
To figure out my so-called “chemical imbalance” that they might not be able to teach..(?),

Hence,
If my self-experiments that more socially powerful and/or influential opinions pressured me to try,
Become too out of hand,
I may lose even MORE control and freedom because the same and/or similar more powerful forces of opinions might (more likely) feel a need to “stabilize” me in the best way(s) they feel to “know”,
And if that takes me in a direction that goes even more opposite of their “helpful” intention(s),
Then the same may occur on a deeper and more dangerous level,

So regardless of what anyone feels I “need” to “try” or become “prescribed” in whichever “proper” dosages taken in whichever alleged “correct” consistencies,

For my own safety,
Hopefully,
I (at least) once again feel a need to ask myself,
“How do I presently feel and how can I most safely and more clearly make my needs understood if I still have the freedom to try communicating them..?”

Largely,
Speaking figuratively,
(And/or at least for my safety mostly..(?)),
However often,
My perceptions tell me that:

For one,
I put a lot of organized thought,
More often than not,
For lots of people who I try to considerately emotionally open up to,
Who also appear to NOT directly tell me,
That they feel a strong need,
To avoid me..,

As for the title and/or more of the larger context,
Whether the more precise word is “plastic” or “artificial”..(?),
I (figuratively speaking) presently feel it’s often clear that:

I deeply fear,
Forces,
Sucking me in,
And forcing me to additionally block out,
What truly helps me,
In order,
To follow presently inevitably forced orders,
So the plastic authoritarians,
Do NOT punish me even more (IRreparably) severely,
For being my naturally ethically considerate,
LESS materialistic self,
More peacefully,
courageously and openly,

Those plastic authoritarians may constantly have elaborate secret psychiatric “chemical balancing” methods to profitably prescribe and/or temp toxic impulses that may still weigh within me with all their readily available authoritarian temptation(s) that may just capture my susceptible sensitive senses and emotions,

And well,
(Speaking based from what I believe I feel to often perceive),
(For example),
Since various surroundings,
Beings and/or whichever circumstances might still feel impossible to avoid and/or escape,
Well,
Maybe if I more increasingly often catch myself in the act and (therefore) remind myself to just try to waste LESS energy by resisting LESS of what I can NOT avoid NOR change,
Possibly,
I might (far more likely) survive significantly longer than I may have often expected to before..(?),

Because,
(Instead of accumulating more internally weighing negative emotional reactivity largely as a result of NOT feeling able to escape a personally despised mainstream culture that I (therefore) wish NO LONGER would surround me),
I instead,
Might have more peace to help me function EVEN while sober WHILE within cultural forces and currents I hate,

And since I feel I can NOT stop any (forms of more or less dominant) cultural current(s) from appearing (and/or feeling) to be more harmful than helpful in infinite forms and/or degrees (however expected or unexpectedly..),
Well,
Maybe I’ll find more internal clear peaceful strength and balance,
IF I,
Just,
(Sufficiently remember),
To,
Peacefully witness,

?

And may one day,
The impulsive,
Narcissistic,
Arrogant,
Basic, dualistic and simplistic energy forces,
Peacefully and LESS violently,
Return to where they came from,
As their energy forces,
Peacefully evolve,
So more sentient energy forces,
Can ALSO,
More deeply,
Interdependently,
Continue forward

If I’m interpreting this sufficiently correctly..(?),
My perceptions presently fear immensely,
That:

Aside from whatever it could presently be,
even the rarest and slightest NON-harmful examples of INcivility,
may just be powerfully impulsively blown (unconsciously and nefariously) out of proportion,
by whichever culturally dominant institution(s) trying to justify abusive control over someone as socially awkward as how I feel to view myself frequently,

And (for example) if I turn to a culturally “different” so-called “like-minded” community..,
Well,
Those in authority,
Might also be in their own “individual” way(s),
Just as dangerous..,

Oh yes,
In addition to doing whatever I morally presently see as necessary to increasingly access and sustain clear survival awareness..,
I still often feel to worry,
Of my truly HARMLESS degrees and forms of what many of those around me may likely regard as “INcivility”,
Being brutally brilliantly manipulated against me,
By their (whichever more powerful and believable (yet impulsively sadistic)) form(s) of (and/or positions in whichever) hierarchy,

And well,
As any forms and degrees of fear inevitably pass through me,
May I still try my best,
To be more,
(For myself among whichever others),
Reasonably and considerately,
Equanimous,
Peaceful and orderly