Neurodivergent energy in my home Community

I try to politely,
Politely,
I try try to f*cking,

POLITELY,

Acknowledge,
Certain people,
Yet I feel,
They respond,
To me as if I’m,
Some f*cked up evil person,

This is hard man,
With my intentions,
And what I interpret their intentions to be,
As another f*cker,
Who just..,
Aggressively,
Excludes,

Me,

I wish it was easier,
To fix,
My,
Neurodivergent,

Energy

..,

This guy was leaving,
A social venue,
I try,
To politely say bye,
And he,
Just defensively gestures at me,
At the only,
Most convenient social location,
In,
My,

Home community,

Oh I try,
I try,
So,
So damn hard,

To keep being,
That peaceful,
Guy,

I’m just like..,

Why…….?

……