Since my neurological connections take a longer amount of time to connect, sometimes I’ll have to take a break, for, extremely obvious reasons, from, screens!! Yep, if anyone tries to abuse these six digits for some magical, fake.. pretend.. nevermind.. just, if she does not come back, all you reading this will try to take out innocent .. I was now interrupted so.. nevermind.. yes.. therefore when I constantly get interrupted by pinheads, it makes sense that I’ll become.. you all know.. “slow in the head”..

The more that,
more and more people interrupt me for no reason,
without realizing that I’m not following what it is,

that the person doing the constant talking and interrupting is saying,
the less time it’ll take me to think and question clearly,
such as by asking “why is this person saying this?”, and “what is the actual importance here?”,
and “if we can actually understand what we must read, take notes from, reread, memorize and practice in order to heal this unfortunate present reality with some form of hands on approach, why is this person still talking?”..,

while I would therefore conclude that all the talking is,
the person remaining on an ego trip just to try to sound intelligent,
even when the person is just (for example) confusing others and making himself/herself appear LESS and LESS able to be depended on,
so may we remind ourselves to therefore think for ourselves,
and NOT admire someone just because others admire someone,
and NOT assume someone is intelligent just because he or she can’t stop talking when talking is just,
Not necessary at all

(Genre: A poem.. (I guess..(?))),

Within certain contexts,
If someone says that I’ll get them “in trouble”,
for saying any single, double or multiple number of words,
that we both have harmlessly used in certain contexts,
To which extent could that person,
Be assuming that his, her or anyone’s verbal influence,
would get myself seriously hurt or injured,
IF I were to use that word around anyone who looks for an excuse to hurt others..?

And why would that person,
Who neither of us are around,
Wish to “hurt” others..?

Therefore I guess(?) that..,
All I can assume as for this context,
Is that anyone,
who even slightly reminds the hurt person of anyone,
who slightly reminds that hurt person of any person of the past who actually hurt them,
Will remain targeted,
Because of all the suppressed rage,
That others have shamed the hurtful person for,
Right..?

And I therefore feel that the larger and more important question,
as for how to remain safe from anyone looking to hurt others,
out of any reasons that is not clearly communicated..,
Is,
How are we going to walk away from not offending any person,
Who forgot how to remain considerately aware of internal unjustified past emotional responses,
Highly waiting,
To blast out of anyone who accidentally says a joke or a pun,
That provokes the deepest present depts of,
Straight up misunderstandings

I feel that,
Speaking in general;

The MORE that others sense how to use any of their senses to irritate my already highly irritated senses,
The MORE likely they’ll cause me to lose focus on what I have been trying to remain focused on,
With the intention for myself among whoever I feel forced to remain around,
To inclusively and collectively feel,
Less irritated

Hypothetically speaking,
To which extent,
Could simplistically trying to summarize macrocosmic political issues,
Cause others on the receiving end of any of those issues to feel painfully misunderstood and dismissed..?

And I think(?) that one answer could possibly be that;
It mostly depends on where anyone is at,
Internally emotionally and how that’s continually affected in reaction to any social environment externally, if that makes sense..(?),

And to a certain extent as of now,
I would say that it at least somewhat does make sense

I would like to additionally try to say that,
For example;
The LESS that unjustified blame from others causes myself to overthink why I’m feeling “blamed” to begin with (therefore in the instance of others not making it clear..),
The more I can focus on meeting more of urgent survival physical and emotional needs to help myself among whoever else feels a “need” to “blame” myself for what he/she can’t seem to clearly express in words

As my perceptions might however often tell me;
The more that any others,
Fearfully cause my perceptions,
To feel additionally “othered”,

And the more that I assume,
That anything familiar,
Of which my perceptions tell myself is others “referring” to myself,
Which my perceptions interpret negatively,

Such as aggressively imitating my tone of voice,
Or whatever and however it is that my perceptions tell myself that any others’ various forms and extents of direct, indirect, verbal and nonverbal communication is “referring to myself” in a way that makes me feel blamed for what my individual presently manifesting physical form does not presently understand,

And if any others give myself the silent treatment while appearing as highly angry at I don’t know what..(?),
The less that (as of this context) any others’ do not tell myself what I can and/or cannot do in whichever form to whichever extent,
Then the less likely it is,
For myself to even considerately attempt to at least some extent,
How it is that I could possibly (if possible..) help subside any excessive and/or highly damaging forms of pain of which any others’ might be experiencing,

And of course,
I feel that the less aware that I am of the toxic unaware choices (and/or decisions) that I might continue to make which internally affect myself,
The LESS able I’ll be to help others since (in my belief),
The MORE I can consciously regard my own basic needs,
The MORE that others will sense that,
Therefore REDUCING chances of feeling as highly “othered”,

Thanks for reading that!

(Genre: Short fictional/post apocalyptic play.. (whatever).. (?)..),

For mature audiences only:

Meanwhile, outside a convenience store in a remote commercial district area surrounded by understaffed distribution centers, headed by those who forgot what they were expected to distribute..

Max: What’s going on man, are you good?
Random person: You asked if I’m “good”, so how do you want to help me..?
Max: I mean like, you seem frustrated so I just thought I’d ask if “you’re good?”.
Random person: I appreciate that you “care”, it’s just that I constantly get asked this question by people who seem to somehow ignore my response to fragmented questions such as “you good?”.
Max: What are you even talking about!?
Random Person: It’s just that, speaking in general, when several of any others somehow try to convey what they claim is a desire to “help” myself, several of them truly do not seem to know what they’re doing, or they’re just looking for a convenient ego boost as they try to “help” me for like two minutes as they then buy me some form of mood elevating substance that no longer helps without realizing that the “favor” will just additionally add to the destruction of my internal organs!
Max: Man what is up with you!?
Random Person: Well I thought you wanted to help–

 Max knocks out the random person, enters the convenience store, knocks out the one person working at the counter before he walks back behind the register, robs the convenience store’s last supply of energy drinks. He then drives to a village of burnt out neon lights, takes out his pistol at a bar and restaurant he once visited, exclaims; “Why don’t you rename this ‘Shitass bullshit and a bunch of fu*cking bullshit!’”. The telecom then exclaims; “If you curse, you will get hurt..”. This then causes him to run out the door, while people silently watch while stunned as he holds his pistol to someone parking his pickup truck, orders him and his wife to leave, hops in the driver’s seat, drives off while stroking his shaved chin while admiring the man’s flagpoles and flags on the pickup truck’s rear, while the man’s spotify playlist still plays, while he drives back to the interstate throughway, cursing as others speed twenty miles over the speed limit past him in the right lane, until his lack of awareness causes him to slam into a large semi trailer. 
 Then, as Max lies in the driver’s seat dead, in between the middle console, a song on the man’s Spotify Playlist of which he committed his armed robbery, plays a song of which has represented something Max has NEVER had and NEVER planned to have had with the purpose of NOT bringing another child into his messed up life, and that song is.. THROWBACK!!!! 

(Credits: “The Lonely Island”, Featured musical artist: Akon, Song: “I Just Had Sex”, Release Year: 2011, Album: Turtleneck & Chain, Music Video Link: https://youtu.be/lQlIhraqL7o?si=MG3tbQ9Z-av_xlEk),

 And then, Max’s spirit, at some point, woke up, in a happier life, disconnected, interconnected and away from all who tried to mess with him, whether by repeating words he said in the third person while on the phone aggressively talking to another. While, remaining away from those who aggressively insulted him for reasons that they either chose not to or could not put into words. And that was the end of Max.

(Genre: A poem..)

Please do not distort the text as you scroll down under,
Thanks..,

As long as I trust that I’m not infinitely misunderstood,
While judged by any person who only believes that they “know” myself from online,

Here’s something my right to share that I see within myself feels a need to say,
Which is;
As for anyone who wishes to translate this;
I would guess(?) that..,
The more that forms of communication become forgotten,
The higher emotional pressure rises within anyone expected to translate,
Therefore,
The more that the person expected to translate becomes and remains (to whichever extent intentionally or unintentionally) interrupted,
The more that person will feel a need to live in isolation,
If the more that person’s errors cause him to become threatened and blamed by anyone,
of any ages for what the person doing the blaming is not making clear,
To whichever intentional and unintentional extent,
And within whichever forms of verbal and nonverbal communication that cause the person being blamed to feel othered,

If that.. Makes sense.. ?

I mean, I think it can.. I guess..?

Speaking in general,
(And as I assume that),

When the unexpected threats of others,
result in more sleep deprived emotional overdrive,
How will my words cause others to misjudge myself?

When I’m manic and sleep deprived,
How will my tone of voice UNINTENTIONALLY push others away?

When I’m manic and sleep deprived,
Who truly wants to help?
And how do I avoid anyone who wishes to insatiably seduce while believing it to be “helpful”..?

So essentially,
I don’t feel I’ll ever truly “know”,
And all I can remind myself is as I would guess(?),
Is to continue noticing sensations within myself,
As I try giving more emotional trust,
To any number of others’ my perceptions tell me knows what they’re doing