Trustworthy

Since I’m STILL obsessively compulsively posting,
Since my posts have presently turned into a “numbers game”,
Since I’m nearing one hundred posts,
Since I sold out to the obsessive compulsive forces,
Largely,
Since the post ego validation attempt number temptation got a lot stronger..
Since I’m going through a personal transition period which triggered lots of obsessive desire to share what I’m writing..
Since I HOPE that you are not getting overloaded with emails if you are one of my subscribers,
Since I appreciate your support,
Since I hope that there’s an option that either allows you to receive one notification with changing numbers assuming I upload far more than one post in a day.. So I don’t overload your emails and negatively affect your day..
Since,
I hope to NOT learn the hard way,
Since I feel I’ve learned FAR,
FAR more than enough that way..

Anyway..

No,
I will NOT “just say it”,
Since,
Cancel culture may misinterpret it,
Since,
Others may give me death or maim threats because of how they, their trauma, and inflated victim mentality and sense of entitlement misunderstood it,
Since,
Others may slander me,

Since many with control over me,
Can’t control themselves such as their wrong judgments and assumptions they make about me which may have to do with something they took out of context which I shared with good intentions publically,
Including this since others may assume whom I’m referring to,

But I’ll say that,
I’m REFERRING TO ANYONE, ANY BEING OF ANY GROUP OF ANY SPIRITUAL AND POLITICAL TEACHING,
So NO,
I am NOT intending to promote categorization, hate and division,
I believe you know that,
Regardless of what the sides of me my posts may show,
Deep down,
Peace is the way I believe we ALL MUST GO,

Not because anyone “said so”,
But because we KNOW,
What causes harm, confusion, harmful, destructive violence and delusion!
Yes,

Peace and true levels of meaningfulness remains my intention,

So no,
For many reasons that we know,
For many reasons we can create as we know,
I will NOT “just say it,”

I do have FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION,
I try NOT to abuse it,
I try to make what I say AS CLEAR AS I CAN so others do NOT misinterpret it..

Unfortunately,
No matter what,
It is not me,
But only them who can TRULY control that,
But that will NOT prevent me from venturing out of my comfort zone as safe as I can, to live the longest, most meaningful life I can,

Well,
As for you who appreciate what I post,
I trust you understand it,
I trust you won’t get mad at me for it,
I trust you won’t use or abuse it against me,

Although I get paranoid easily,
Since isolation isn’t either good for me,
I seek more of those who I feel are trustworthy,

I seek those who have self-control,
And who will not harm me out of a desperate need for a feeling of great control,

I seek those who know how to respond and heal their pain in a way that does not cause themselves and others more pain,

Oh yes,
I try to avoid those who operate in vain,

I seek those who treat me with respect,

Without being too judgmental,
I seek those whose presence for me is,

Truly,
Deeply,
Beneficial

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