There’s always some other person, people, or multiple beings.. (if not the same (or both))
Who always are causing me some shit,
Regardless of how much they’re intending it..
I just don’t want more pressure to write about it,
Because I already wrote so,
and it just piles up and gets disorganized in my Google docs..
I’ve written about enough,
And having more provocative, and/or painful experiences that I don’t want to stress about HAVING to share or put out there,
Is VERY rough,
This world for me,
Has felt hard enough,
But as I said in my poem titled “Always More”,
There will just be more,
And I hope to respond in ways that don’t feel as painful as before,
And while writing this,
I feel pressured to say “ya know” a certain amount of times,
Which just inhibits my creative expression and doesn’t make me feel as good about me crafting my writing creation,
Since the requirements distract my attention..
I met two “requirements” by self-analyzing my struggles,
I talked about obsessively wanting to say “ya know” a certain number of times and rhetorically said or asked it again to emphasize the effect like what I’m about to do again..
At least somehow, Ya know