Without

As they say..

“It is what it is”,
Although it completely sucks more than I can put into words,

It is what it is,
Although I’m still stuck in the bullshit,

It is what it is,
Although people just make it worse than it needs to be,
With their unconscious cruel uncompassionate, insecure and sadistic negativity,

It is what it is,
Although no matter what I say I can’t stop dickheads from being fcking goddam giant dickheads.. scumbags.. whatever the fck I’m not supposed to say because of this, that.. and whatever else I don’t know and won’t connect on the same goddam non-autistic page with..,

It is what it is,
Although I’m grateful it’s not as bad as it was and however it could be,
My mind still makes it so, so pointlessly hard for me!!!

It is what it is,
Although I still.., still want a better experience or existence..

It is what it is,
Although I f*cking hate it,

It is what it is,
Although people will always continue to ruin it..

It is what it is,
Although in different words and from different experiences I feel like I’m repeating the..
Same f*cking shit..
And just expecting more of it,

It is what it is,
And I still,
After all my failed attempts at sufficiently consistently finding peace,
love and equanimity practices..
I still..
CAN’T STAND IT,

It is what it is,
Although I just must stick with it,
Although I’ll most probably run into more,
if not horrific bullshit,

It is what it is,
Even though those who I criticize have more courage than me,

It is what it is,
Even though a BIG PART OF ME,
Feels that I should NOT give those non-autistic AND autistic (if ever the case).. politicians, business leaders.. whoever,
As they say..
“The benefit of the doubt”..

It is what it is,
Yet,
As for most of it,
I’d feel better..

Without