Peaceful Warrior

I (practically) went 21 years sober,
Before,
Being peer-pressured into it,
Back at age 21,

And as for having a good time,
Sometimes I succumb to,
What is just,
Most convenient,

Yes,
Here and there,
I’ve felt deep inner fulfillment,
Through inner awareness practice(s),
What I often largely feel is due to,
Step by step,
Consistent,
Commitment,

Yet,
Sometimes (if not frequently),
I feel quite bad at it,
..,
And it’s a lot harder,
When I feel,
Alone in my efforts,
Yet,
Overall,
If I stick to it,
It just may be,
More,
Inwardly,
(Or however (?)),
Worth it?

Yet sometimes (if not often),
My unawareness makes me forget,
Makes me..,
Lose patience for it,
And tempts me to just SURRENDER to what’s convenient,
Instead of SURRENDERING to inner exacerbating tension building inner resistance of the inner pain I may be experiencing,
So I therefore (ideally and/or practically) would surrender to more inner tension building INSTEAD of adding inner tension through inner resisting,
(Such as inner tightening, compressing, or however the tension may be inwardly exacerbating..(?)),
And therefore (through surrendering (such as noticing without resisting (?)) I’ll accept and inwardly clear myself more ideally speaking (?),
If ya get (or sufficiently understand) what I’m attempting at communicating?

So sometimes I just succumb to,
Toxic convenience,

Ohhhh..,

What a challenging experience,

Welp,
Cheers,
To everyone,
Yet,
Especially those in the hardest of times,
Staying sober,
And committed,
To,
Inner,
Developmental,
Power,

Cheers to sobriety,
Cheers to staying sober,
Cheers to staying stronger,

I often feel,
That staying sober,
Is,
(As they say),
Staying strong,

Yep,
I’m repeating and emphasizing a saying that my ego is proud of me for discovering whether or not someone else already used it..,
And that is..,

“Stay sober, stay stronger”,
By Zach (me),

Okay..,
Anyway..,

I really hope,
Doing what we (seemingly) have to that may initially be less convenient and/or require a seemingly initial harder commitment ends up being truly more worth it..,

I hope what we truly view as practical wellness decisions will help us have more capability,
Inwardly,
To consciously respond,
To whatever we’re faced with externally,
And that may trigger reactions,
Internally,
(Which may vary from individual to individual uniquely over time (?)),

Speaking for myself,
I really want to include,
My present belief that,
Staying sober,
Is a way,
Of the,
Nonviolent,
(Inner, external and/or however..),

Peaceful,

Warrior,

(I could’ve ended this post right there (after “Warrior”) as I initially planned..),

And well,
I’ll add and/or emphasize that,
Hence,
I believe in,
Staying reasonably (if not completely) sober,
And finding fulfillment in the inner development warrior spirit which I really hope is overall more worth it..,

Huhhh,

I hope that staying sober,
Helps us remain peacefully inwardly,
Externally and/or however,
Which I guess (?) I could describe as a spirit of a WARRIOR for peace..,

And hence I’ll title this,

“Peaceful Warrior”