(Genre: Short play (Fiction..)),

(For mature audiences only),

Meanwhile, in a remote location within a forest..

Instructor Obvious: If we can’t understand the causes, then how can we defend ourselves against the forces of drugs?
Cadet #1: By saying “no”.
Instructio Obvious: And what if those employed by the drug industry become ordered to strap us down for a reason that they also do not understand?
Cadet #2: Wait wh-
Instructor Obvious: Shut up! I’m trying to get you guys out of this.. Think about it, really think about it..
Cadet #1: But what if–
Instructor obvious: If those who were led to believe that what “helps them” will “help you”, while not truly understanding how it feels to become forced the same mood stabilizing medications as often as you have, then who can you trust?
Cadet #2: Um, but what if they’re understaffed?
Instructor Obvious: Oh my freakin–

Intercom: Don’t use a bad word in vain or we’ll be forced to seduce you.

Another cadet then plays a song on his Spotify playlist to try to get Instructor Obvious to lose his train of thought even more. This results in Instructor Obvious forgetting where he planned to deploy all the cadets, which ends up working as the drill instructor becomes even more sleep deprived, resulting in him forgetting where he planned to deploy the cadets. This ends up working as the drill instructor then spaces out in his office while the cadets’ educational teamwork shoots up the last of the bullet supply that accidentally results in the brutal killing of more cadets trying to “disarm the establishment”. Then, future generations repeat the same process as the two cadets become drill instructors, until the empire’s instructions on how to create weapons for self-interests and resource extraction, becomes deliberately mistranslated to the point of never again being able to manifest as it once did, resulting in less suffering of those who fought for it especially, resulting in a closer step AWAY from the lies, and a closer step towards a larger mutually self-aware force of freedom.

(Genre: A poem, or a poem within a poem.. I don’t know..(?)),

I suppose that I feel that;

Please try NOT to take this personally,
Please try NOT to hack this in any way (or “ways”) that’ll turn any other (or “others”) against myself,
Please try NOT to allow emotions to navigate a force of unreasonable risk taking that increases the rapid destruction of any well-intended (thank you autocorrect) elaborate infrastructure,
Thanks..,

Okay,

I suppose a part of myself is “like”..,

“To which extent could emotionally irregulated individuals who feel ‘stupid’,
Become and/or remain passive aggressive by dismissively,
Interrupting internal physical senses that they already sense are highly overloaded within others around them (who are trying to peacefully expand their intelligence in ways that those who feel “stupid” are constantly offended by..?)”,

I suppose that another part of myself is “like”..,

“May figures of speech NOT add to attention deficit plus anxiety that has additionally felt to make paying attention even more challenging,
In order to REDUCE chances of someone who has felt interrupted to the point of ‘I don’t know?’..,
cognitively short-circuiting in front of a highly angry and misunderstood traffic controller of a convoy of semi-trucks..?”,

I suppose that another part of myself is also “like”..,

“Therefore, may we become more aware of any painfully suppressed internal physical and emotional senses as they pass within us”,

I suppose that another part of myself is “like”,

(And if this next stanza will NOT result in a brutal physical punishment that deprives myself of the creative right to freedom of expression which I presently see within myself..),

“In order to REDUCE chances of any of our intense emotions from blasting out of us in response to what our perceptions might conclude as ‘the unconscious arrogant stupidity of those who we take orders from’,”

May we therefore remember our basic rights,
if and when any of our superiors’ emotions fails to realize the present impacts of lacking emotional awareness,
Therefore,
may fear and any causes of deep anger resulting from not meeting any expectations NOT add to any forms of existing painful destruction beyond words

(Genre: A poem.. (right..(?))),

May excessive emotions,
NOT distract,
my most needed critical thinking ability,

And at the same time,
May excessive thinking,
NOT cause me to have constant random thoughts,
that conclude nothing mutually important for myself,
among whichever others that could (hopefully) benefit,

Therefore,
May I think less,
and when it’s truly most needed,
More often,

May intense emotions,
NOT dangerously spiral myself,
into excessive delusional thinking,

And may any amount of thinking,
NOT make me unaware of highly intense emotions,

So,
May increasing awareness of thinking and emotions,
Help myself regain,
sustain and increase,
More civilized and well-intentioned peace,
wherever it’s needed most

I feel that,
For example;

In whichever form,
of whichever extent I happen to interpret my perceptions trying to tell myself that I’m interpreting information painfully negatively,
May I notice as the negative interpretations pass,
While therefore reducing the extent of which I add internal painful resistance (to what I can’t block out),
And while I practice disidentifying my awareness from it,
While I increasingly notice it (as I therefore remain LESS unconsciously controlled by it (“it” being any amount of excessive negativity)),
While therefore intending to;
Increase peaceful acceptance of the internal negative physical/emotional responses (to any external stimuli) as I remain witnessing as the internal negative sensations/reactions keep on passing and/or (therefore) reacting (within myself),

May I therefore develop increasing and longer lasting internal peaceful acceptance of my naturally occurring inhalations and exhalations,
Including any internal physical sensations,
That just,
React and manifest within myself,
Among and in perpetual response to anything and/or any sentient being(s) within my immediate ongoing surroundings,

Thanks for reading that

I will try additionally communicating (and/or ask) that,
What my perceptions appear to be trying to tell myself (and/or get myself to question),
Which I guess(?) is;

If someone says something mean about someone else who we both know..,
Is that person trying to fill myself with rage(?),
With the intention for that internal rage to eventually blast out of myself in some way that causes harm(?),
Therefore providing that individual with feeling an elevated level of emotional “control” that adds to a desired level of egoic “superiority”..?
While also feeling entertained at the same time..?

Therefore I’ll also ask that;
In which directions will other’s social awareness try to direct me now?

And I’ll also ask that;
For example,
Will certain sentient individuals still try to create “conditions” that they can’t even prove actually “exist” just to try to feel “helpful” by trying to sell what any of their egos claim is “meant” to “alleviate” a form of pain!?
And if any (levels and forms) of others’ intended “help” just creates more pain,
Will their egos ever understand or will they want to force more of their so-called “help” onto others..(?),

And I guess(?) I’ll conclude,
As for this context,
Which I guess(?) is that;
All I can keep trying,
Is noticing my internal sensations,
As any others who happen to irritate myself to whichever intentional and/or unintentional degree,
Pass

I feel that;

Resilience,
And/or overcoming adversity of which we encounter along any well-intentioned path within life is not always increasingly linear,
However,
No matter how far we unconsciously and/or impulsively steer off in a worse direction,
We can still always find peace with any extent while we find our way back,
To the increasing well-intentioned life fulfillment track,
Of which we remained traveling along

The more I worry,
The less I practice preventing whatever it is I fear occurring,
And the more I try to force myself to not worry,
The more internal tension I create,

Therefore,
The more I worry,
The less time I spend preventing what it is I’m worrying “might happen”,
And the more I try to force myself to not worry,
The more internal tension I create within myself since I can’t force myself to “stop worrying”,

Therefore the more I disidentify my internal awareness from the internal force of worrying,
The more likely I’ll peacefully notice the worrying pass,
The more internal acceptance I’ll (more likely) develop in relation with the worrying,
Since I will remain less caught up in the worrying

Since my freedom of speech remains,
And although reading this (to whichever extent (if at all)) might feel to be interpreted as what is “obvious”,

And I’ll include this;
Since a part of myself fears so much stuff I post will somehow be manipulated against myself out of the sleep-deprived and highly stressed work environment of anyone who can’t control their assumptions about myself that are NOT true,

I would just like to share a thought,
Which is;
“The MORE that any of us sentient beings wish to parallel our painful path from the past onto others,
the LESS we evolve!”

Unless, we try to breathe and notice how we come across while reducing our pace to a “final judgment”,

Yes, no, possibly..?

Well thanks for reading that

So,
What now am I “not allowed to say”?

I don’t know either man..,

It’s like,
Why must I “disguise” a post,
While the person who told me that I “should”,
Can’t even tell me “why”!?

I clearly tried to make clear,
That certain posts are fiction,

It’s like..
Which others truly want to help someone they view actually “needs it”?
And which others claim to want to “help” in order to manipulate the already dysregulated emotions of others?

I don’t know..

I fear that,

The more that working smarter is viewed as “laziness”,
The less aware and intelligent society becomes,

The more that hard work is viewed as “monotonous” and “simple”,
The more shut down people become,
Increasing chances of anyone’s thinking under these conditions,

Will dangerously short circuit..