I’m still stuck in obsessive posting to get well over 100 posts,
I hope I’m not overloading your email notifications assuming you get a new one each time I post..
I’m guessing it’ll go to spam,
I’m hoping this isn’t an issue..
That is affect you,
Due to my obsessive insecure behavior issues..
I would assume the if I made one post,
That same email would just say I made 2, 3, or more posts instead of sending you (my subscribers) a new email each time,
I still don’t know well how WordPress.com works and I haven’t typically kept up to date with technology ..
I could’ve got obsessed and hyper-focused with something more mainstream but I just didn’t,
regardless that my behavior is “atypical” and not “mainstream”..
Aside from other obsessive goals,
My OCD wants me to take a picture of having more than 100 posts,
and once I do that the OCD says “then you can revise and form what you posted into a book” if you want .. ?
I feel trapped in the obsessive current..
I hope this doesn’t cause me too much public embarrassment,
I’m jealous of others who can just NOT feed into it!!
Those who can “just do it” and can’t emphasize with why I struggle!!
It’ll help my feelings out if they’re reasonably humble..
Since according to me that would be moral,
If I get verbally cyber-attacked,
I’ve already had a lot of it,
And I’ll just prepare for more of it,
As for STAYING TRUE TO MY TRUE BELIEFS,
STICKING WITH IT,
I’m still obsessively posting,
And I’m trying to stop,
But no one will shut me down,
Yeah I know I’m showing signs of being I guess, TOO FAR from perfect,
However as for writing,
I’m still sticking with it,
Maybe I’m shooting for numbers more than I should?
However.. I’m still remaining aware of what I’m posting,
As much as I presently can..
And if I didn’t feel good about posting this,
I would not,
So here it is,
Thanks for reading,
Staying subscribed or however you’re helping me feel that these posts are at least somewhat worthy 🙏