Locked Out

Most,
IN ALL GROUPS THEREFORE INCLUDING MY OWN,
seem locked into their own self-interests,
And,
With my innately vulnerable (autistic) challenges,
Their unconscious ego self-interests,
Have and continue to,
Step on,
Feed off,

And as for the pain I carry,
The pain their more typical/less vulnerable (to whatever extent consciously aware or not) individual selves pass onto me..
Just..
EXACERBATES,
My pain..,

So they can try to feel good about themselves,
Which only lasts temporary,
Since as we know..
It does NOT address and cleanse the deep sources of the painful unconscious built-up insecurity..,

Yet..,

They remain individually and collectively egotistically locked in,
While I’m not welcome,
Judged and of course as the title says..

LOCKED OUT,

Instead they could join me in additional needed support,
In a dominant unconscious cleansing,
Awakening effort,

Yet..,
As they say..
“It is what it is”,
And COULD be better..

Now I’ll say “whatever”,
But if it gets too painfully worse,

A part of us,
Whether we choose to suppress,
Deny or NOT,
May clearly point out,
That..
As for all we could have done..
As for solving all we could have and needed to solve,

Well..
As they say..
“As time catches up”,
We’ll say to ourselves..

“We really f*cked up”

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