Gaslighting

In my present assumptions..,

Even though some may talk a lot of truth,
Many people’s actions may be unconscious and out of alignment,
And any of us may be a victim of those actions of others,
?

Among those I must watch out for,
Are ALSO those who deeply warn me of manipulation,
To manipulate me,
..
Those who appear to “understand” me,
Those who say they “feel” me,
(Or whatever is most PC (politically correct.. yes I still have OCD..)),
Those who appear to “empathize” with me,
Yet,
To me,
It’s not them who can “save me”,
It’s up to me,
To find and keep the strength,
Growing,
Inwardly,

..

Even if it’s true to an extent,
Those who gaslight,
May tell me,
That I’ve been “gaslighted”,
Possibly that my “experiences have manipulated me”,
Unconsciously implying that they have the,
“Better alternative”,
To make me want to submit to their authority,
..,
Because it’ll unconsciously please their egos,
To have power over me,

And even though the gaslighting may preach it,
Among everything I’m saying,
Or more,
It,
Will not regard that it’s own ego is unconsciously controlling it,

The gas-lit energy may be able to tell and advise me,
About my own “flaws”,
Yet it’s own flaws,
Unconsciously control it,
And it can’t understand itself,
It’s just unconsciously gas lit..,

Instead of helping me sustain awareness,
To further let go of my past to appreciate more of life as it happens in the present,
Unconsciousness will make me feel even more bad,
As it gaslights me by saying to me,
“Do you really think your autism has given you more adversity? Because it seems you have an unjustified victim mentality..? So it seems you must stop looking to blame others and take some DAMN RESPONSIBILITY!!!?”,
Which may also be true?
Yet,
Instead of helping me access and develop the strength in me,
It’ll continually solidify me in deeper unconscious misery..,
Because it doesn’t know what’s best for me,
Because it’s just gas-lit energy,

The gaslighting,
Speaks truth,
Infinitely elaborates on the truths of egolessness to boost its own ego,
The gaslighting insatiably seeks recognition,
Instead of embodying it’s own realization(s),
By unconsciously NOT healing it’s roots of the insatiable insecure unconscious gaslighting within,
It can’t see how it causes fire,
Because that’s all it is..,
The cause of the fire..,

???

To it’s unconsciousness,
My consciousness,
Is “unconscious”,

To it’s unconsciousness,
My consciousness,
Is “delusional”,

The gaslighting,
At different extents in different moments,
May understand consciousness,
Yet is unconscious of the level it’s being controlled by unconsciousness,
The gaslighting may sarcastically ask me,
“Oh you think you have all the answers? Who is your teacher?”

Although it may deny any of this,
It’s unconsciousness won’t understand why I don’t have the same drive to make the same amount of money,
..?
It’s unconsciousness may not understand why I get the level of anxiety I do (because it (either forgot or..) wasn’t bullied as severely and/or wasn’t as damaged as severely, since it maybe wasn’t as innately sensitive,
reactive,
and since it didn’t have the same level of learning struggles making it an easy target)..,

Or maybe it did?

Yet got lucky to be in a more supportive environment?
And/or maybe it didn’t get internally derailed as easily,
Wasn’t as susceptible to instantly destructively blocking out the amount of inner pain it carried since it carried less I would guess..?
Therefore its environment,
Didn’t develop it as severely..?
Yes!!?

Possibly..,
It’s unconsciousness took over the conscious awareness that helped it reach the top,
Once it became on top,

It’s unconscious desires seized it’s awareness,
And turned a once conscious being into gaslighting,
?

It’s unconsciousness took over,
When it was easiest to access the most power,
Because it’s unconsciousness knew that this,
Was it’s moment to shine,
That this opportunity of control was it’s prime,

In essence,
It’s unconsciousness will NOT understand my unusually low confidence,
It’s unconsciousness may think it’s “just my biological misfortunes”,
Instead of recognizing that unconscious cultural dysfunction perpetuates while claiming to be omniscient,

My guess is that..,
It just doesn’t get it,
As the unconscious forces solidify it,
In its position of power it unconsciously infinitely fills with unconscious judgment??

As hard as it tried,
Still..,
It’s never aware of the awareness states it may discuss and so on and so on,

It can’t realize,
When it doesn’t do what it may preach about,
Because,
It unconsciously..,
Sold out,

Once it’s physical form,
Obtained enough power,
That’s when..,
The unconscious forces took over,

It’s unconscious judgment,
Judges me as a bad person,
Who made bad decisions,
Who “deserves” punishment,
Because,
The sadistic,
unconscious forces,
Insatiably feed off of assuring to their egos,
That they have external dominance,

Hence,
All gaslighting,
Can’t truly awaken the,
victims/unconscious perpetual perpetrators,
Or anyone,
Unless they step out of the unconsciousness that controls them,

Any of us (hence including myself) may become a dangerous gaslighting perpetuator..,

In my belief..,
Under all unconscious developed evil action,
Is.. or at some moment(s) before,
Is a suffering human..,
Yet..
We have our body and our rights,
So we handle the best we can handle,
And hopefully accountability,
Will remain peaceful and civil..,

Yet..
The unconscious,
gaslighting forces that remain in control,
May cause us to go online and “troll”,
Or do whatever,
And hopefully..,
The water puts out all the gas,
And all causes of fire

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