More worth Trying

Yes,
I try to respect and NOT hurtfully judge the decisions of others,
Yet as for me,
And what I view will make my life experience(s) most worthwhile,
..,
And even if I fail at it completely(?),
Well..,
I feel I must at least try to write,
To try to create something more truthful,
More meaningful,
Even if my ego prefers I stick to something more crowd pleasing like juggling,

And well,
Even if what I write is all “wrong”,
Even if what I write is just a pointless waste,
Well,
At least I tried to do,
What I truly viewed,
As more meaningful,
More gratifying,
More worthwhile,

At least I tried to do,
What makes my present life,
Feel,
More deeply,
More meaningfully,
Worth experiencing,

So for me,
And regardless of what the decisions of others just might be(?),
Well..,
As for a lot,
I just feel,
For me,
Writing,
Is just,
More,
Worth trying