As for NOT letting others’ intimidating opinions NOR spot on and quick-witted hate hold me back..,
As for continually trying to put into words to at least somewhat indicate how I feel to be feeling:

For one,
In whatever unique way(s),
Others may also express in their own way some form and level of “crazy shit”,
And/or might straight-up treat others like shit,
Yet as for any forms of their nasty sides,
They just may be better at hiding it..(?),
Oh I’ve seen it..,

Instead of publicly uncontrollably expressing it,
Behind closed doors,
With NO cameras NOR tape recorders in sight,
Just may be where they more likely unleash it..(?),
Oh I’ve seen it..,
And after additionally hearing about it,
I certainly can see it,

As for some other stuff among the infinite stuff I attempt to share when it feels most appropriate aside from when I fail to control it:
I feel it’s been hard,
Becoming more independent,
While constantly feeling to see stuff differently,
While feeling if I open myself up,
Too many others will too often just want me to “shut the fuck up”,
As it has constantly felt to be the implicit and/or direct message(s) previously..,
And I just do NOT expect most people I continue to meet to be that different NOR change at all..,

And even many who may want me to be more honest may also want to avoid me after I try taking that suggestion of theirs seriously..,
Many just may be like “to be honest I have no idea what the fuck you’re talking about” (if not worse..),
So as for honestly attempting to proceed more safely and considerately out of my shell,
It’ll once again feel to be another fail..,

I (also) often feel that many people who tell me to “avoid toxic people” may feel just as toxic for me..(?),
Someone may do too much of this while the other does too much of that,
And just as they may lose patience with me,
I’ll also feel a strong need for something different eventually..,
And well those trustworthy “like-minded” groups may be too few and far apart,
And even then..,
Sometimes the friendship still may shatter apart..,

And although I appreciate others trying to help me,
It still bothers me,
When others feel that I’ll get along “easier” with those “on the spectrum” the “same” as me,
And I feel that even those labeled “like me”,
May ALSO have their own unique experiences,
Which they may have reacted to uniquely and/or have been shaped by uniquely,
So I also just do NOT feel that there will “more likely” be any “deeper connection” with those who also struggle to socially connect “like me”,
If anything there may just be a bigger disconnection..(?),
(since how can we connect deeper through shared struggles to socially connect(?))..?
Yet of course that also may depend on the individual person and I guess how you “look at it”..(?),

And well,
Just to “throw it out there”,
Those ALSO on the “autistic spectrum”,
I feel,
Can be just as nasty,

No matter what group we may be categorized as,
No matter our history,
I feel that we’re still human evidently,

And well,
Maybe (for example) aside from being labeled in order to get what is viewed as needed support services..(?),
I do NOT feel that more internal and external peaceful coexistence,
Is made easier by dividing more people into “US” and “THEM” categories..,

(Source: Manson, Mark. Everything is F*cked: A Book About Hope. New York, HarperCollins, 2019, p. 96. (https://www.calvin.edu/library/knightcite/index.php)),

But that’s just what I feel to have come to see,
And I hope I have been communicating myself as I intend to be..(?),
And well even though I can “not speak for others” I still feel that,
(For example),
Many others may feel I “need” more evaluations,
More prescriptions,
..,
Many others may feel I just “need” to be yelled at more and louder..,
Maybe some (if not most) may feel I “need” to get beat even harder to “wake up” even “clearer”..(?),
Regardless of what others feel “works for them”..,
Will (for me) more punishment always result in deeper “enlightenment”..(?),
Must I always have my ass whooped in order to “find the light” and actually function more in a way that’s “right”..(?),

Not trying to say it’s “just about me” yet it does frustrate me when those who I feel I can NOT avoid always strongly disagree and/or maybe continually force me to unquestionably obey what their more externally powerful egos feel to see as “best for me”..,
Ohh how easy it is to overpower my lack of confidence and high anxiety,
Oh how those in power can easily utilize the opportunity to feel “better about themselves” through direct control over me..,
Yet does that really help heal their source of inner insecure need for control honestly..(?),
Yet to (hopefully) feel better and feel less let down..,
I feel I must continually try to let go of expecting them to ever take me seriously..,

And well..,
However much they’re “on the spectrum” or not,
Well..,
Whatever may often feel to work for them,
May just have a different effect on me..(?),

And I know once again it’s NOT “just about me”,
Yet still,
I’m just trying to the best of my present ability,
To make clearer and clearer,
Stuff that I have felt to see,

And even if I’m completely “wrong”,
Well..,
At least feeling understood (and/or kindly acknowledged..),
Just may help me with energy,
That’ll actually help motivate and continue myself with adjusting in the best way and location I see and trust as the best fit as for where I feel to be at,
To remain more financially independent,
And just get and stay more “with it”,

And I don’t even know if I sufficiently described all that..(?),
Maybe I’ll end up regretting posting most if not all of this among whatever else..(?),
Yet well,
At least I’m trying,
To stay more and more out of my shell,
So stuff feels to go more,
well,

And even if these rhymes,
Figures of speech and/or whatever could have been far more “properly pieced together”,

I still hope reading this offered at least something,
That overall helped in some way,
To make whatever it is,
Feel at least somewhat,
Yes,
Better,
?
As always thank you for reading

So I got triggered again,
And I decided to share this,
INSTEAD of wasting more time in a YouTube comment section,
Interacting with those who mostly just may be uncontrollably trolling instead of welcoming me on a path to deeper understanding..,
Just saying based on how I feel to be usually perceiving..,

Okay so..,
As for claiming to NOT believe in “cruel and unusual punishment”,
Well..,
I guess even then,
Everyone’s got a unique way of defining it..(?),

I guess everyone’s got their own set of experiences,
That shaped how they see stuff,
That underlie choices and/or decisions they continue to make,
That of course may uniquely affect them among others..(?),

I’d guess that (I feel that) since emotional trauma may increase chances of engaging in UNethical social deviance..(?),
Well..,
Will traumatic punishment (and/or more trauma) truly “enlighten” them..?

And even if it’s not our job to “fix” the “evil” lawbreakers..,
Even if society must understandably get the criminals out of the way as effectively as possible,
For safety and stability,
Still..,

Ideally and practically speaking,
Pertaining to both the lawbreakers and those who punish them,
I feel it would be nice that,
Instead of adding more trauma,
Well..,
Maybe if more viable psychological rehabilitation services were possible..(?),
If more people become more clearly guided on and/or find more viable paths to discovering and/or rediscovering inner peaceful roots..(?),
Then maybe..(?),
Just maybe more people will actually live by the loving peaceful original messages that their organized religions were founded on..?

Now..,
For example,
Does whooping someone’s ass teach them a lesson that’ll meaningfully deepen their conscious awareness..?
Does brutal punishment lead to spiritual enlightenment more often than not?
Well..,
Let’s be real..,
I’d say I can NOT speak for everyone..,
Maybe we sometimes feel one way and then we’re having worse than usual days..?

Yet as for any belief system’s “original messages”,
I guess there’s different interpretations and/or translations..(?),
However personally biased or not..(?),

Hypothetically speaking..,
Someone says someone said “this”,
While another claimed they “said that”,
While others are “justifying” their actions in the name of this and that..(?),
And regardless of what truly went down,
Well,
What just may have been the important truths,
In the original messages,

Was it trying to truly cultivate love and understanding for our neighbors and enemies or keep beating their ass along their path to finding the light..?

What do I really know that’s “right”?

I guess there’s just different paths we may choose to take to “find the light”,
And I feel that’s alright (or “just fine” but that doesn’t rhyme..),
Yet how can someone claim to “know the answer”,
Isn’t there always something beyond the walls of whatever we know..(?),
Yet how can I also claim to “know”?
Yuh know..?

Maybe what often feels helpful for some,
May often feel toxic for others..?
And well..,
I feel I just have to remember to keep my head up,
And never give up,
At finding and sustaining the strength to honestly speak up,

And I of course feel we’re never perfect and can always do “better”..,
Maybe (for example) most others have had unique experiences that they’ve involuntarily reacted to in unique ways causing them to disagree with what I feel to see in all sorts of understandable YET painfully provocative ways..(?),

Yet for me,
To keep trying to speak openly and truthfully,
To speak based on what I feel to see as opposed to what others may expect of me,
I’d say that,
Punishment and/or fear of it,
Shuts me down,
Damages and does NOT teach me,
Yet that’s just me..,

Speaking based on effects I feel punishment has had on me,
It increased chances of me going back into my shell,
It filled me with more toxic energy,
That did NOT help me understand clearly,
It just,
Helped me “obey” unconsciously,

And even if in certain instances that’s “all we can do”,
Well,
Moving forward,
Is there just,
More we can do..(?),

For ourselves,
Others,
And/or however feels a need to be understood and/or simply acknowledged deeper..(?),

And well..,
Since I can NOT count on others understanding NOR getting them to try to,
Including those I’ll interact with online who I’ll most likely never get to know more deeply..,

And since I can NOT control others’ points of view who I may feel forced to work with and for which they may also force upon me to some degree..(?),

I guess..(?),
With practice,
I may suck less and less,
On returning to that inner peaceful stillness,
That may keep me strong,
Balanced and centered,
Even while at the center of whatever I hate being at yet feel a need to continue being with in order to fulfill my responsibilities,

Hence,
I guess the MORE I sustain inner peace,
The LESS likely I am to commit crime to get attention or because of whatever “justification”,
..,
The more I rediscover and sustain inner peace,
The more I just may not try to fight those more powerful toxic energy currents from others and/or that pass through myself..,
Well..,
The more likely I’ll become an independent good citizen and fulfill my own and other’s reasonable expectations..,

Inhale,
Exhale..,

Ahhhh,

Even though this may just often feel so much easier “said than done”,
Well..,
I guess with practice,
Among any forms of seemingly unavoidable external craziness,
That I may find myself in,
I guess I can always remember,
To at least somewhat return to,
Inner peaceful,
Healing,
Stillness,
Within,

?

Inhale,
Exhale

Even if it was “all for nothing”,
Maybe the experience(s),
Still..,
Taught us something..(?),

Even if the experience was “all for nothing”,
Well..,
Maybe it STILL helped increase crucial survival awareness expansion..(?),

Even if the experience was,
“All for nothing”,
Well..,
Maybe still,
In some way,
It just may (if not then) at some point have became,
Helpful..(?),

In some way,
Deeply fulfillingly meaningful

?

I’m sorry for all the times I apologized to those who never deserved an apology,

I’m sorry for constantly apologizing to those for NOT being what they expected of me,

I’m sorry for apologizing out of excessive fear of those being less angry at me,

I’m sorry for just taking and taking it,

I’m sorry for allowing them to do what they did to me,

I’m sorry for allowing their threats to instill blind meaningless obedience within me,

I’m sorry,
For allowing their intimidating energy,
Scare me out of remaining in the continual alignment with the truth I see

How are we really using our freedom of expression..?
What’s the overall message(s) in our fancy figurative connected artistic expression(s)..(?),

How much money we have..(?),
How successful and “real” we are..(?),
Where “we come from” and “how far we came”..(?),
How well we “know the game”..(?),
Well..,
What’s the REAL effects of this..(?),

Did I say something “wrong”..?
Do I need to “rephrase” how I express what I feel as wrong..?
Huhhh..,
Among all the aggressive disagreement and/or threats..,
May I keep remaining in that strong inner peaceful warrior spirit..,
Or however is the “best way to describe it”,

Fuckin bullshit seems to be all the same even if it’s “different”..,

And even though we may be “getting stuff off our chest”,
What’s the impression on others..?
What example(s) are we truly leading by..?

Even though we may need to “chill the fuck out”,
And reduce toxic overthinking,
Still..,
Still..,
What messages are we still emanating..(?),

And do those messages come from a place of love..?
Hate..?
Are we spreading division or helping different groups more peacefully relate..?
..,
Are the messages coming from a place of continual inner healing..?
Oh man how I want to keep analyzing..,

And even if we’re not a creative “performing artist”,
Well..,
I guess we’re still always creatively perpetuating and/or creating something to some extent..(?),
As for whatever we’re doing,
?

And as for what we’re “contributing”,
Is the “brilliantly” connected “big picture” just of the surface..?
Or..,
Does it include more..?
Does it point to understanding deeper..?
Does it help us access deeper capabilities we’ve always had..(?),
Yet that we may have never known were always there..?

Does our picture we try providing for others point beyond what words and/or any forms of physical forms of expression(s) by themselves can ever convey..?

Huhhhh..,

What direction are we going in..?
And even if that’s an “obvious question”,
Well..,
Is it sufficiently within our attention..(?),

What are the truest,
Most common,
Most impactful effects of the usages of our freedom of expression(s)..?

And in addition to this post,
I plan to keep trying to use my freedom of expression..,
To share what I may see as truth(s) that I presently feel needs to be addressed,
Considered,
And/or adequately remembered..,

And yes I do try to use the “I” and/or “I feel” statements..(for example),
Since I feel this is what “I see”,
As opposed to sounding like some narcissist who “knows the answer” and must shove it down other’s throats in order to feel a sense of power and/or I guess “certainty” (speaking hypothetically..)..(?),

And well..,
How does proving ourselves “right” ultimately help heal our relationship(s) to whatever painful emotions that may inevitably continue passing through us..!?

So (for example) instead of starting statements such as with..,
“You know when you..”,
Or..,
“If you do this then..”
Or..,
“If you keep doing that then..”
Or..,
“That’s why you should..”
Or..,
“Listen to what I’m telling you!! You really should..”
Or..,
“You need to know that..”
Or..,
“Stop! Just stop! You need to..”,

Because especially in this context,
How can I really “know” how another person is feeling within..?
Am I their “coach”?
“Drill Instructor”?
Or am I their friend who (I feel) is supposed to help them feel more heard and understood and LESS “alone” in their thoughts and feelings..?

And if I feel a need to tell them something I will try to communicate myself as compassionately as my present awareness may allow me,
Ideally and I guess practically speaking..(?),
I (also) plan to NOT just say “I agree” just in order for them to NOT reject me..,
Yet I’d say that’s ALSO “easier said than done” evidently..,

Yet..,
Well..,
I FEEL that I can only offer how I presently feel to see it..,
Which I FEEL I can never know is the ultimate “truth”,

And well..,
I feel truth can be understood in infinite forms,
Infinite directions,
Infinite depts,
Infinite levels of inner peaceful and clear awareness..(for example),
I would guess..(?),

Now I hope those freedom of expression opinions I shared did NOT have a toxic effect..?
Yet..,
In a nutshell..,
I feel a need for myself,
Among whoever may also happen to feel a need to considerately remember,
As for whatever we’re doing..,
To ask:
How is it affecting us..(?),
Including whoever else..(?),
Happens to be somewhere within our surroundings,
?

Just wondering..,

And as always,

Thanks for reading

May fear of outcomes NOT throw me off track,
May fear of outcomes NOT cause me to sink back into reclusive over-analysis,
May fear of outcomes NOT deprive me from continually attempting to experience a worthy life experience,

Even if fear is always with me (in the background of my awareness) to a certain degree,
May I remain inwardly peaceful,
Centered and strong,
As I continue along,
The path I presently see,
As most suitable for me,

May I think only when needed,
May I extensively analyze ONLY when it’s most essential,

May I increasingly,
Remain,
Truthful

(The beginning part of this pertains to posting on Instagram..),

Similar to what I mentioned in my first screenshot post titled “Never Clear Enough”,
As I expected,
The amount of Instagram screenshot room and number of screenshots I’m allowed to use is seemingly NOT enough to clearly share as much as I usually feel a need to on this platform..,
And will I ever figure out how to make enough room and be “perfectly” straight to the point..?
Welp..,
I guess that no matter how clear and concise I am..,
There’s infinitely more to say in infinite new ways..(?),
And aside from that and as for other stuff in general,
Even if I have “valid” reasons to “blame others”,
I STILL feel that blaming others who I have zero control over most likely will NOT help me heal what remains to be holding me back,

For example,
Even if it’s mostly “their fault”,
Blaming those who I can NOT change,
And even “getting back at them”,
I’d guess(?) will most likely NOT help heal what and how they may have harmed me..,

I feel that:
Being caught in a victim mentality,
Will just add to more and more internally weighing toxic negativity,
That’ll more likely serve to increasingly debilitate me..,
I feel that being caught in an increasing victim mentality,
Will more likely fill me with more toxic negativity,
That limits my awareness capability,
Causing me to screw up more,
And giving several others more and more “reasons” to criticize me,
Which I feel will more likely increase more debilitating discouragement that grows within me,

And just to throw it out there,
May we sufficiently remember,
To NOT waste more energy trying to make others understand,
Who just will NEVER sufficiently understand,
NOR will ever be open to trying to understand,
No matter how kind and clearly,
We actually make ourselves to be,

And blaming ourselves,
I feel,
Will ALSO fill us with more toxic limiting energy,
That will also NOT help us access more inner peacefulness to more deeply,
fulfilling expand our inner capabilities as for whatever that may just be and manifest as externally..(?),

I feel that even though we’re accountable,
We’re (of course..) NOT perfect YET (of course..) we can STILL focus on what’ll actually make stuff feel better,
And even if and/or whenever I repeat stuff,
And as for whatever is “obvious”,
Well,
I feel that (from ourselves and/or whoever) many of us may need sufficient reminders since I feel that many of us (such as myself) can still forget a lot of this..(?),

Hence forgetting to practice NOT remaining caught up in blaming may MORE likely hold me back,
And EVEN (more likely) prevent me from staying as civilized and centered in more moments to come when other more powerful forces actually do threaten my inalienable rights (for example),

It’s just..,
Regardless of whatever happened to me,
Regardless of whatever powerful forces affected me in ways that either damaged and/or offered nothing helpful for me,
Regardless of how my choice/decision making awareness was affected for however better or worse..,

Still..,
Of course,
I feel I can always ask,
What can I really do to help make this present moment experience feel more worth experiencing?
For myself,
In addition to whoever else,

And regardless,
I’m glad I’m still going,

And as for those inner painful forces I just may continue encountering,
I guess..(?),
The more I resist them,
Such as trying to suppress them by pushing them down into a small inner space,
The more likely they’ll build then explode out of me,

And IF I can NEVER “completely” NOR “permanently” push them out of me,
Nor stop,
Nor at all reduce their powerful current,
I guess..(?),
The more I accept those inner painful forces,
The more tolerance I’ll INSTEAD have for them,
Since increased acceptance may (in this case) imply increased tolerance..(?),

And although (for example) if our rights are being deeply threatened in some way,
Of course (I feel that) we’re allowed to RESIST,
However,
As for what we may be experiencing internally,
Well (I feel that),
The MORE we may “resist”,
The LESS our tolerance may be since we may feel a significant need to “resist”..(?),

I’d guess that as for what we can NOT change..(?),
The MORE we resist,
The MORE we suffer,
And therefore,
The MORE we accept (or the LESS we resist),
The LESS we suffer,
And may practice have it feel easier and easier,
(Source: Tolle, Eckhart. The Power of Now. Namaste Publishing, New World Library, 1997, p. 33. (https://www.calvin.edu/library/knightcite/index.php)),

And since (I’d guess that..?) the more we fight energy currents that pass through us,
The more we lose energy in response to what we have zero control over,

So I guess(?) the more consistently we gently notice our breath among increasingly accepting energy that passes through us,
(Such as anger at ourselves and/or others),
Or I guess the MORE we notice and (therefore) the LESS we add inner tension NOR deplete strong peaceful energy by internally resisting what we cannot change..(?),
And/or the MORE we reduce thinking negatively about what we cannot change,
(That (I’d guess..?) just would otherwise increase and/or blind us into more negativity..),
Or I guess..(?),
Essentially,
The MORE we can peacefully notice and NOT resist what inevitably internally passes through us,
Then (I’d guess..?) the MORE likely at peace we’ll be internally,

Inhale,
Exhale,
Ahhhhhh..,

And even though I ALSO might “suck at this”,
Well,
I still hope it felt at least somewhat helpful when reading this,

As always,
Thanks for reading this

What really needs to be addressed..?
And what is a “false alarm”..(?),
I guess that (for example) we may all have (to different extents) differently cultivated different views of what we regard as emotional “harm”..?

And well,
I guess (geographical, social, etc..) brutal environmental experiences MORE likely create brutal personalities that MORE likely perpetuate to direct future generations..(?),
Yet,
Although maybe at some points we need to remain focused and “block out” what we’re NOT ready to inwardly emotionally “heal”,
Well..,
Is becoming a hardass in response to brutally hard life experiences the most “noble” and “worthy” path..?

And well,
I guess(?) pertaining to how we view ourselves and others,
Maybe instead of just looking to see what is “wrong” with us,
We can (for example) more deeply understand how our development and/or choice/decision making awareness was affected in response to what happened to us,
In order to see more clearly,
And therefore access greater personal capability,

Welp,
Although they may be few,
Elusive,
and scattered far apart,
..,
I’ll continue attempting to sufficiently fulfill my part,
At (hopefully) discovering environments and/or experiences,
That feel more compatible,
For myself to meaningfully access and sustain capabilities for myself and whoever else,
Such as for getting “better” at writing stuff that I intend to be helpful..,

Welp..,
It still feels like a struggle,
Yet as for it feeling easier through practice and NOT getting too discouraged,
(such as after several others making it clear to me that they feel I should “just stop”),
I STILL remain hopeful that if I keep going in ways I clearly see fit,
That it’ll just work out better for myself and whoever may ever feel a continual need to read whatever (or some of the stuff) I share (and thanks to those who do and/or have at least once felt that writing I’ve shared was at least somewhat helpful(?))..,

And to try to keep being real,
I guess I believe I often additionally feel that:

When I join a new group I get anxious,
And several others seem to feel a need to keep a distance,
And the criticism just does NOT help me understand more beneath the surface,

Maybe others will straight up hate me,
Some may claim to be “helping” me EVEN when I feel their hardass instruction is adding irreparable emotional damage within me,
And no matter how clearly I try to communicate my needs..,
Well..,
They still won’t want to do stuff differently..,
Many may also still FAIL to refrain from busting my balls repeatedly,
And I just do NOT have more trust of those “on the spectrum” just “like me”,

Regardless of how we may have been labeled,
I feel we’re all (pretty much) just as capable of being nasty,

And as for in social situations when my balls are being busted,
I’ll pretend to be “chill” about it,
So I don’t “kill the vibe” and have more reject me,

For reasons such as,
When I honestly express how I see to be feeling it,
Most don’t seem to like it,
Their insecure egos may just feel threatened by the criticism they feel to interpret from it,

Maybe a hypothetical response I’d receive is,
“It’s just a joke bruh.. Like why are you so sensitive all the time!? It’s fucking annoying..”,
Yet NOT like that kind of criticism teaches me to be less sensitive,
Not like it assists me along a path of more peacefully witnessing my breath and inner sensations in order to “relax” (when sober NOR harming internal organs..),
Not like having others just point out what’s wrong with me helps me use my sensitivity for good INSTEAD of getting triggered then emotionally derailed so easily..,

And eventually,
After I once again FAIL to appear “happily in sync” with the energy,
They’ll stop inviting me,

And then once again,
I’ll sink back into my shell of isolation,
And deepening dysconnection,
And of course,
Worsening derailing dysregulated emotional frustration,

Increasing the possibility of others in authority,
Who’d ALSO never want to be around me,
To,
Force me to take brutally heavy medication,
Follow whatever path(s) that may “help” them or whatever they feel I “need” yet will NOT help me understand more deeply (including deeper causes and/or ways to further heal what’s actually troubling me)..,
And well,
Once again,
Others will shut me down,
And develop more control over me,
So I do NOT “threaten” their individual and/or collective egoic level of control of whatever part(s) of society,

And I’ll remain in my shell,
My awareness narrowing and capability damaging limiting cell,
More and more deeply,

I’ll just more likely,
Spiral into deeper insanity,
Giving off vibes more stigmatizing than ever previously,

Oh..,
May I discover more inner healing peace,
In whatever inevitable present reality,

May I find more peace,
Even within whatever level of external control others may continually force upon me,

And well,
If others took inner peace development more seriously,
Well,
For example,
Would more of us function (internally and externally) more peacefully and feel to experience life more gratifyingly deeply..?

And that ALSO goes for me,
And I feel to have had experiences and may have plenty more,
That’ll remind me,
Of the inner peace needed to remain balanced,
So I’m not more stigmatized as being considered “chemically imbalanced”,
Since I still feel to be very vulnerable in a world I often view as dangerously out of balance,

So others will (hopefully) NOT continually FALSELY view whatever I do as another “red flag” and then feel a need to take action in ways that make stuff WORSE (mostly for me unfortunately)..,

And not to perpetuate a “victim mentality” of more toxic negative energy,
It’s just..,
More feelings I wanted to try to make clear to feel less alone in them..,

Huhh..,

Sometimes I spot danger,
Other times others painfully catch me by surprise,

May I,
(Among whoever else..),
Discover,
Sustain,
Increasing,
Inner peaceful survival awareness and/or alertness,

May we feel this inevitable present moment to be more and more of a worthy experience,

I hope that made at least some additional helpful sense

When I try being more honest and truthful I may put myself in a line of fire for responses such as,
“Yo you’re making others uncomfortable. Like you really need to stop”,
And even if they’re “right”,
What’s not right is always receiving criticism that does NOTHING to build me,
Which they might claim their intention to be,
Yet in reality,
That kind of criticism increases chances of discouragement building within me,
And I still must NOT let it stop me,

And no matter how clear I try to be,
Many others still may never truthfully understand me,
YET,
I feel I must NOT let that stop me,

From consciously deepening alignment with the truth I see,

Once I “clean up my act”,
Life just may always have more shit to throw at me,
However,
I plan to increasingly stay strong in that inner peace and NOT let whatever keeps coming my way blow me too far off track,

I can remind myself to inhale,
Exhale,
Witness and just freakin chill,

Whatever is the reality of my situation,
I can always come back,
Along a more suitable track,

And well,
Aside from all the toxic emotionally damaged and out of control individuals out there,
Well,
I can appreciate that somewhere,
There are also those who care,

It helps me feel better when I remember and/or receive an important kind and helpful reminder such as that I’m not alone,
And as for any actions I may chose or not choose to take,
Well,
I guess I’m continuing on somewhere

?

If I fail and fail and fail,
At all the other chances I receive,

I trust/hope you understand..(?),

If I can NOT EVER sufficiently connect with others in person,
I’ll on social media,
Be MORE likely seeking attention excessively,

And I feel,

That’s,

What’s up